dunkelheit

i just want to be hidden and trapped in my own little world with you. you arent real at all... but i can still pretend. you're better than any of them. they wont even speak to me. wont look, wont talk, wont even know me. black the skies with poetry of hate. because no one gives a fuck. about me....or you-so dont fool yourself. i was silent my whole life and now my thoughts come out as rants and pointless hate. i'm unable to distinguish those things anymore. i'm unable to distinguish myself. you cant berate me the way i do. no one can. i'd give anything to feel like i have a sense of warmth, stability and peace of mind. cold, dark and dead. sometimes i think i see in grey and all that i see is dead. dont look away. is it that i can see how dead you feel inside that makes you look away? eyes met and quickly rejected. i do disgust you dont i. a zombie nation on a dead husk of a world. we cant feel. assimilate me. masturbate me. just fucking kill me.

lights go out like a black tide as the city shuts down
everything turns black and white in the halo's of the streetlamps
no other light remains in this frozen city
i feel like a ghost going through the dust of empty buildings
you're a mystery to me
the black clouds sink in like a vault over me
there once were crowds in these streets
now i walk alone in the dark
walking amongst the giants of buildings
forsaken, the black spires rise into the sky
searching for a name and a whisper
the black of your hair resting against the pale white of your flesh
the windows of empty buildings reflect you back at me
in a lonely city of black and white you are a temple of snow white flesh
your tears reflect our lips slowly touching in a bright white
paint my city black with your sinuous finger tips
the city vaporizes like our breath on a winter night.