i'm getting ready to dye my hair permanently black i think. it looked pretty cool with the temporary stuff. i just worry that it'll look like shit once the roots grow out. and i'll have to either shave the goatee or dye it too....oh and my eyebrows. ha.
i'm passing up a halloween party right now with some guys i just met because of my anxiety. i cant handle going to a place with people i dont know. i feel constantly alienated. ugh...i cant even try to explain it to them. they'll just think i'm a dick that bailed on them. i hate it. i have social anxiety and i cant meet people...
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evirol:
Hey man, what's up. I'm the same way, don't feel too bad. You stayin here for four years?
dunkelheit:
staying in springfield for four years? i doubt it. next semester i'm taking a bunch of intro classes to help me figure out what i'm doing. once i figure that out i'll probably go to a more specialized school. chicago art institute sounds pretty cool.
i just want to be hidden and trapped in my own little world with you. you arent real at all... but i can still pretend. you're better than any of them. they wont even speak to me. wont look, wont talk, wont even know me. black the skies with poetry of hate. because no one gives a fuck. about me....or you-so dont fool yourself. i...
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brinny:
WOW! 
dunkelheit:
thank you.
i'm bored as hell and have therefor decided to share my shoddy poetry with you all. seems like the proper thing to do with my monday afternoon boredoms. i never title anything i do...so here's untitled # 43254543555:
tonight as the sun rolled beyond the horizon
the sky melted a foreboding purple
and the air was as warm and impassioned as a lover's breath
stars...
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tonight as the sun rolled beyond the horizon
the sky melted a foreboding purple
and the air was as warm and impassioned as a lover's breath
stars...
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brinny:
nice..i enjoy it..dont change it ever!
dunkelheit:
thanks. i'd like to maybe one day use my stuff as lyrics for a band. i might have to rewrite some stuff to give it more rhythm and flow....but yeah. it's a dream of mine to be on stage, proclaiming my thoughts to anyone who'll listen.
tonight i bought some temporary red hair stuff. it comes out when i wash it. i'm gonna see what red streaks look like on me. since i'm wanting to dye my hair red and black i though it'd see what it looks like first. even though the rest of my hair wont be black.
i dont have a lot else to say. because it's boring...
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i dont have a lot else to say. because it's boring...
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ericparadox:
Oh and by the way, singe you're into Burzum and Emperor, check out the song in my profile when you've got the time, haha.
dunkelheit:
i presume this is your band? if so awesome site design. i had a problem listening to the track though. i went to downloads and when i clicked on the track title it sent me a 404 error. I also see that you're well versed in the lore of photoshop. i like your artwork a lot. i just wish i could check out one of your songs.
this roommate isnt as bad as he at first seemed. i have this awful habit of jumping to quick conclusions. he's a strange character. He's a marine that's in a frat...and he has a desk covered with transformers toys and an insane amount of video games. i'm thinking this guy is actually way cool for the transformers toys. i cant wait to watch the transformers...
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brinny:
hmmm?
dunkelheit:
hey there brinny. how goes it?
dunkelheit:
it's me
i just got back. yesterday i hung out with my best friend who was home for fall break. i bought some really fucking good cd's yesterday. i bought 'In Thier Darkened Shrines' by Nile and 'Blood/Reign Forever World' by Vader. Last night at my friends house we watched a Troma movie called 'Combat Shock'. i'm still in awe of the total fucking sweetness of that...
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dunkelheit:
just met him. i dont think i could have gotten a worse roommate. holy fucking shit. it doesnt even surprise me with all the other shit that happens in my dismal life. fuck.
i think i'll step in front of a train.
i think i'll step in front of a train.
ugh...midterms are awful. one more and i'm finished. i cant wait till this whole semester is over actually. next semester i'm going to take classes and figure out what the hell i'm here for, and i'll hopefully transfer out once i decide. chicago and new york both sound lovely to me. it would certainly be better than this shithole.
speaking of shithole...tomorrow i get a...
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ericparadox:
And by the way... you like Acid Bath too, so that makes you cool. You'll do fine the rest of the semester for liking Acid Bath. Automatic good luck. 
dunkelheit:
i'm currently at a pretty populated school. i think there's 28,000 people here? fuck i dunno. i've been here for half a semester and dont know anyone cool. it kind of sucks being in this part of the country. there was a community college close to me, but most of the classes were non transferrable.
i just sit in my dorm doing stuff on my computer. it sucks.
thanks for the compliment too. it seems like good music is what gets me through at this place.
i just sit in my dorm doing stuff on my computer. it sucks.
thanks for the compliment too. it seems like good music is what gets me through at this place.