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Sunday Sep 06, 2009

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I'm sitting here upstairs, my sick son asleep in his room, my husband and 2 other couples downstairs celebrating the two guys b-days... laughing, joking, obviously having fun. Not drinking at all since hubbie wont let alcohol in the house... But I'm not sure what would/is pissing me off more... If they were drinking I would feel mopey and depressed because I can't... But the fact that they are all so happy and having fun w/o a drop to drink just infuriates me... How??? How the fuck are they doing that?! Why can't I do it too?! Pisses me off...

I've said a few times I'm coming down, after I give Nico his medicine, after he eats, after he falls asleep... Well, he's been asleep for about 45 mins now and I'm still sitting here... I took my meds hoping after they kicked in I would feel an iota of desire to go be social... Nothing... I don't want to go force smiles and fake laughter... All I want to do is sit here and stay away from all the mess... Besides, I would just bring the party down with my mood... and that's not fair to them... they're supposed to be having a good time, and they are...

So I'm still sitting here...
bigman316:
i know.....it baffles me to this day how the "normal" people can go have fun without taking one drink. or even more staggering to my imagination is how people can go out and literally have just a drink or two. so yeah, that is why in the last six years my social life has pretty much.....vanished.

i am pretty sure i told you this before...but goodness i do love your latest profile pic....you rock!!
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