I almost felt happy today. I was feeling kinda good thanks mostly to Rufus Wainwright and a new book (Dracula). up until this evening, if you over looked certain major things you could have said I was having a good day.
the second this thought occured to me I had an enormous panic attack and felt dizzy with anxiety. whether because I'm unused...
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the second this thought occured to me I had an enormous panic attack and felt dizzy with anxiety. whether because I'm unused...
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shit. I think its going to be late febuary early march before I get to write a happy entry.
on a scale of 1-10 last week I would have said my life was at zero and optimistically climbing up to one. it was practically in the bag. now every day I get taken down a peg and I'm about at -3.
I know its just...
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on a scale of 1-10 last week I would have said my life was at zero and optimistically climbing up to one. it was practically in the bag. now every day I get taken down a peg and I'm about at -3.
I know its just...
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m0use:
Ulcers can be fatal, if you bleed to death internally from them. But that's no fun. Chances are you'll find yourself in a hospital with tubes down your throat as they send in little machines to solder them shut. Definitely no fun at all, and i know from experience.
You should come live here. Any day now i'm about to snap and wind up in a hospital somewhere so you can my bed and my job while i'm away locked up.
You should come live here. Any day now i'm about to snap and wind up in a hospital somewhere so you can my bed and my job while i'm away locked up.
m0use:
p.s. i'd rather see you here and bitching than not see you at all.
fuck it. this is one of those instances where I go anonymous for a week. theres no point in sharing my life. it sucks. it got really bad today, then it got worse. the end.
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resonator:
*smooch*
xoxo
xoxo
criticaloversite:
If I may ask...whats the symbol in your profile picture? My first guess was a key of Solomon of sorts...but I'm way off.
best thread ever
In other news, I love Andes after-dinner mints, I love ice cream, but I do not love Andes after-dinner mint ice cream twice as much as one or the other.
also word on the street is my computer which has been in the shop since 2003 will finally be returned to me tomorrow
things are looking up
ooh! and this girl I...
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In other news, I love Andes after-dinner mints, I love ice cream, but I do not love Andes after-dinner mint ice cream twice as much as one or the other.
also word on the street is my computer which has been in the shop since 2003 will finally be returned to me tomorrow
things are looking up
ooh! and this girl I...
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9uh:
butterflies are shity. you can never trust them. that's why I hate them
hippomonki:
HOORAY!
um yeah, that is all
um yeah, that is all
theres a space missing in my friends list... who the fuck was it?!
someone whose name started with a letter between D and H I think...
fuck I'm a terrible person.
who got the zot???!!!
or did someone remove me???
who would do such a thing????
goddamn friday nights, everyone out doing something or someone, no one here posting, updating. its all lame, me, the...
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someone whose name started with a letter between D and H I think...
fuck I'm a terrible person.
who got the zot???!!!
or did someone remove me???
who would do such a thing????
goddamn friday nights, everyone out doing something or someone, no one here posting, updating. its all lame, me, the...
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muzencab:
Ok so I'm an ass. I have cotton eye. dude.
[Edited on Jan 25, 2004 9:25PM]
[Edited on Jan 25, 2004 9:25PM]
muzencab:
I guess any advertisment is good advertisment...unless a whole website know I'm a horses-ass.
I seriously need help. My life is currently a mangled piece of shit with everything wrong. it won't be like this forever, life always goes on, but I want to get through this bad patch asap.
if any PDXer's know of any places with a rent of 200$ or less, if any of you need a houseboy or a roomate...
thanks to the snow my...
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if any PDXer's know of any places with a rent of 200$ or less, if any of you need a houseboy or a roomate...
thanks to the snow my...
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giga_geo:
i hope everything all works out.
i would hate to see you leave sg. before i even talked to you.
i would hate to see you leave sg. before i even talked to you.
anouck:
awww celexa 
Nevermind, I don't expire until the 27th
So I was going to save this for a rainy day but...
In one of my old hi-school sketchbooks a girl wrote something about me I never really gave much thought to. It seemed kinda mean and didn't make too much sence at the time. I just thought she was kinda freaked out and/or offended in some way...
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So I was going to save this for a rainy day but...
In one of my old hi-school sketchbooks a girl wrote something about me I never really gave much thought to. It seemed kinda mean and didn't make too much sence at the time. I just thought she was kinda freaked out and/or offended in some way...
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siv:
someday i'll have to show you my gold lame "Beat It!" michael jack(son)et.
ryan:
an expert at being alone, huh?
me too!
we should do research!
me too!
we should do research!
I declare cabin fever to be officially over!
I always love house parties and it was so nice to get out and even nicer to kiss RoxyPixie! quite easily the hi-light of my weekend because she's quite easily one of the greatest people ever made. oh yeah, it was her boyfriend's idea
the catch being now I have to make out with him too...
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I always love house parties and it was so nice to get out and even nicer to kiss RoxyPixie! quite easily the hi-light of my weekend because she's quite easily one of the greatest people ever made. oh yeah, it was her boyfriend's idea
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runelateralus:
Yeah, but what is worse...a short sucky journal that is easy to read...or rambling nonsense that go nowhere like mine.
Besides, the whole making out thingy was something interesting to tell about!
[Edited on Jan 15, 2004 12:39AM]
Besides, the whole making out thingy was something interesting to tell about!
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runelateralus:
And I double posted! Go me!
[Edited on Jan 15, 2004 12:39AM]
[Edited on Jan 15, 2004 12:39AM]
deleting comments is a lot of fun.
destruction is so much more fun than creation.
I've been painting a phoenix for days and its SOOOO boring. creation does not equal recreation.
So yeah, hideous blizzard crushing all motivation to leave the house and its week 2 of not having my computer.
I'm going fucking crazy man.
I have to be masturbating half a dozen times...
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destruction is so much more fun than creation.
I've been painting a phoenix for days and its SOOOO boring. creation does not equal recreation.
So yeah, hideous blizzard crushing all motivation to leave the house and its week 2 of not having my computer.
I'm going fucking crazy man.
I have to be masturbating half a dozen times...
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louise:
it's a little bit sad, yeah.
ryan:
glad you had fun times!! rock!
ahahahhaha.... and i love the dear ryan post.. thanks! ahahah...
gay boyfriend
here you go...
ahahahhaha.... and i love the dear ryan post.. thanks! ahahah...
gay boyfriend
here you go...
I had a dream my account expired already, really I have two weeks though.
whats worse is that my fucking computer is in the shop and I have to sneak on my roomates so I'm not getting much out of my last two weeks either
blah blah blah [insert New Years summary here] [talk about the morning after here]
bitch bitch bitch, moan moan moan,...
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whats worse is that my fucking computer is in the shop and I have to sneak on my roomates so I'm not getting much out of my last two weeks either
blah blah blah [insert New Years summary here] [talk about the morning after here]
bitch bitch bitch, moan moan moan,...
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jayne:
so sorry i missed you on new years! i wasn't exactly feeling 100%, but once i recover, we should get together for lunch....or something of the sort. i miss you sweet hans.
xoxox
jayne
so sorry i missed you on new years! i wasn't exactly feeling 100%, but once i recover, we should get together for lunch....or something of the sort. i miss you sweet hans.
xoxox
jayne
jayne:
if you can't pull the cash together, i can treat, we'll just have to eat somewhere cheap! i'm off to london on the 22nd for ten days, we should go before i leave. call me soon, or i'll call you.
If I was Jewish I could be playing videogames right now.
...or hoarding money
...or hoarding money
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pyronautica:
Kind of makes you want to convert, doesn't it?
That made me laugh.
That made me laugh.
scattershot:
pffftt HAhaahahahahahahahahaha that made milk come out my nose.
I deleted my suicideboy set today in preparation for my upcoming expiration 
those of you that missed it, too bad. for those who caught, you won't miss it.
And if tomorrow is a well of pain and despair for you... that was me destroying christmas *Sean Connery accent* (I WILL DESHTROY YOU CHRISTMAS!)
PS. fuckin' sex drive can rot in hell
those of you that missed it, too bad. for those who caught, you won't miss it.
And if tomorrow is a well of pain and despair for you... that was me destroying christmas *Sean Connery accent* (I WILL DESHTROY YOU CHRISTMAS!)
PS. fuckin' sex drive can rot in hell
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mistersatan:
Call this a going away present, then.
evillyn:
Yep....
you should've come to Dante's.
It was my only night out.
you should've come to Dante's.
It was my only night out.
*hugs*