desidia

Nevermind, I don't expire until the 27th

So I was going to save this for a rainy day but...

In one of my old hi-school sketchbooks a girl wrote something about me I never really gave much thought to. It seemed kinda mean and didn't make too much sence at the time. I just thought she was kinda freaked out and/or offended in some way since she wrote it on the page where I had made a border out of bloody finger prints. I found it again a few weeks ago, but this time it hit me like a stone. Today I actually ran into her downtown and I took it as a sign.

It reads: "Hans only loves himself when he feels loved... therefore Hans hates himself probably forever 4/28/99

Ouch. I'm not sure it applied at the time, but seeing as how I was blindly in love I was fairly oblivious to quite a number of things then; today however, it cut me to the bone.

But if she had such foresight then why did she drop out of hi-school and get knocked up by an Omsi janitor? and why isn't her punctuation better?

Sometimes it sucks being me, but a lot of the SG's seem to like me, that makes me the envy of many a straight boy, so I guess I can't complain too much. I'm not going to let that stop me though

1/17/03: ugh. I'm hungover and strippers took all my money. I feel like shit.

and just for fun, I take the retarded picture away.
I'm bitter