demonbuttercup

so, i go to see mom. she is worse every time i see her. she said to me today, "I think i'm going home today." and poor thing, she isn't ready to come home. she is near delusional. i don't know but i think these hypoglycemic episodes have really messed with her head. i requested a complete psychological evaluation, but i don't know how it...
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so, i wrote this because my mom is in a comvalescent hospital, not doing her therapy, sitting silent as the psychologist talks to her, doing nothing but laying in bed. there's nothing wrong with her mind, other than being eccentric.

Mama, I just wanted you to help me
Through my rage/mania
Mucking across the deep muddy sadness
Desperate, unknowing, blaming
I only needed your help...
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well, this fella i was seeing isn't my type. he jokes around way too much, wherein i hardly feel i know the real him, you know? he also drinks too much. we don't have too much in common, and while i appreciete those who are a couple and who are rather opposite, if the other person isn't into it as well, it won't work. so,...
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went out and partied for my birthday. went to a wine bar for this burlesque show. well, it was $5 and we saw one girl only. she was good, but just one?

drank one glass of wine too much, got loud and obnoxious. my bad. that rarely happens to me.

it's saturday, so have a great one!

well, i went out on an online date last night. i thought that he looked pretty goofy from his photo, but guess what? he looked waaaaaay better than his photo.

we had sparks, it was nice. i really like his voice, all deep and shit.

guess i am finally getting over the last one. at long last.

ciao!

hi all...same old same with me. summer...this has to be the dullest summer ever on record for me. no lovers, few friends (they are all coupled) to hang with. it's hard not to just freak out and cry, but what else can i do but keep it together?

so, this guy i stopped seeing because, while he was open to dating others, he suddenly flipped the sheet and now wants to see this new chick exclusively. fine, but he never calls me and is basically showing his true colors. i understand this, but it still irritates me to no end. i am just not used to being treated like this.

other than that,...
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so, it's been a while.

my move was successful. then, my mom got sick. she's now in a convalescent hospital for the time being, but today i found out she isn't eating.

sorta feel all alone. best friend has little time for me; the kid i was dating sorta is just a wanker.

how are you all?

so, life sucks and then it sucks more. just feeling down lately. tired of the guy i am with. my lady said she wanted to hang out tonight, but then i never heard back from her. hate where i live, have no money.

hope your lives are better than this!

not a whole helluva lot going on.

what about you?