This is another yellowed photograph, slipped from under the plastic film of a photo album that desperately clings to A Time in Childhood before beginnings & endings, before doubt & pain, before genocide & war.
Doubt came as a softly taunting chorus & settled as an everpresent cacophony, the signifier of "maturity". Doubt was the poison that incrementally invaded. Slowly, thieving, scheming-Doubt is the softly...
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Doubt came as a softly taunting chorus & settled as an everpresent cacophony, the signifier of "maturity". Doubt was the poison that incrementally invaded. Slowly, thieving, scheming-Doubt is the softly...
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easter, shmeaster. i don't have a mouthful of goo filled chocolate eggs nor a basket full of sugar crusted marshmallow ducks so i say today is just sunday.....what's that you say? who died? for my what?
i always thought the cleaning solution that the janitor used at the school i used to teach at in LA smelled like easter. never could quite explain or understand...
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i always thought the cleaning solution that the janitor used at the school i used to teach at in LA smelled like easter. never could quite explain or understand...
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timore:
Three in a row is a testament to my lack of coolness. We have been together just over 3 years but not living together, possibly soon. I completely know what you mean about not talking to people you know because they will judge. I have a lot of friends who don't understand relationships, or look for any reason to down on someone else's. Sorry he's being shitty right now, you know it'll get better. My AIM name is Allison982 if you wanna talk, but be sure to mention SG, I'm mean to random people who IM me. 
clara:
I noticed that you're having trouble posting pictures in threads. It is not possible to post to a picture that exists only in your computer, it must be online somewhere. Click the link for instructions: http://suicidegirls.com/help/#faq16.4
What a fucking lovely Saturday morning. I heart LA. Home for the weekend and loving it. 
Bonus points for the fact that my parents are out of town and I have their house to myself. It was the strangest thing to sleep with the boy in my childhood bed last night. This morning I woke up in a strange tangle of nostalgia and morning wood...
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Bonus points for the fact that my parents are out of town and I have their house to myself. It was the strangest thing to sleep with the boy in my childhood bed last night. This morning I woke up in a strange tangle of nostalgia and morning wood...
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occam:
I always had a penis in my bed...it's overrated
relapsed_eric:
hey...feel free to quote me anytime.
i try so hard to be openminded and not snobbish. but its apparently its rush week and the fraternity across the street has been chanting and playing the most repetitive hiphop radio station ever for 3 days straight. im sick and stuck at home and i really want to smash their faces in. or at the very least, purchase a bullhorn and assail them with...
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eurisko:
its ok, i too think college frats are absurd and a waste of time.
abracapocus:
Righto on the Frat thing. I never liked 'em. Although I have a few friends that joined them when they went off to college. I just find the whole idea annoying, and I'm quite happy that my art college would never have anything like them.
i found out yesterday that i am one of six finalists for a $10,000 scholarship. i have an interview with a panel of judges. i'm so completely nervous and terrified. what happens when they all realize that i suck? of course all my mother had to say was "is your hair all one color right now?" and "make sure your tattoos are covered". 
it really...
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joshof13thfloor:
Not to worry, i don't find you uncouth, as a matter of fact i find your wit and honesty to be quite refreshing.
Yeah, the stuff with my brother is/was really funny. I laughed at a lot of it at the time and still do. For example, when the police and emergency workers arrived they pulled him down onto the driveway and level ground and attempted in a half hearted fashion to cover his shame with a thin sheet but in reality all it did was cover everything but his ass so there he was, ass in the air, with a gentle rain soaking the sheet. That and when my wife tried to apologize to the old woman for having to see his penis the old lady replied, "oh honey, that's okay, i've seen them before."
It sounds as if you and i have a little in common, i have also been a speed addict as well as being addicted to weed, booze, coke, pills, and basically anything you would put in my face. I almost died a number of times because of my way of life at the time and watched friends die because of the same lifestyle.
I really enjoy these few times that you and i have talked, I would like to add you to my friends list so we can continue to do so. If that's cool with you.
-Josh
Yeah, the stuff with my brother is/was really funny. I laughed at a lot of it at the time and still do. For example, when the police and emergency workers arrived they pulled him down onto the driveway and level ground and attempted in a half hearted fashion to cover his shame with a thin sheet but in reality all it did was cover everything but his ass so there he was, ass in the air, with a gentle rain soaking the sheet. That and when my wife tried to apologize to the old woman for having to see his penis the old lady replied, "oh honey, that's okay, i've seen them before."
It sounds as if you and i have a little in common, i have also been a speed addict as well as being addicted to weed, booze, coke, pills, and basically anything you would put in my face. I almost died a number of times because of my way of life at the time and watched friends die because of the same lifestyle.
I really enjoy these few times that you and i have talked, I would like to add you to my friends list so we can continue to do so. If that's cool with you.
-Josh
maurauder:
sorry! and also, Im drunk right now! haha! I meant to email you - every friday night my friends come over to my house and we *play* *drink* *talk* whatever...usually a game of trivial pursuit and lotsa booze. Anyway, Im inviting you. If your interested email me (under my profile pic it says 'contact' - this leadds to email). Ill email you back directions to me casa.
If you dont mind me asking, why the radiation? And if you do mind me asking, I totally understand and just ignore this portion of the comment.
Byarg! Gin! The test was today and it was hard! Oh, and gongratufuckinlations on the scholarship! You are amazing, I could tell that in the few times Ive spoken to you. Dont be nervous (yeah, right I know).
hmmmmmmmm. ramblerambleramble.
If you dont mind me asking, why the radiation? And if you do mind me asking, I totally understand and just ignore this portion of the comment.
Byarg! Gin! The test was today and it was hard! Oh, and gongratufuckinlations on the scholarship! You are amazing, I could tell that in the few times Ive spoken to you. Dont be nervous (yeah, right I know).
hmmmmmmmm. ramblerambleramble.
when he's around i feel dirty, like the hair around your ears and neck when you haven't showered, like sweaty thighs stuck to leather car interior on a toohot day. his presence makes me uncomfortable. subtley, like a sand encrusted, leather skinned on the way home from a long day at the beach discomfort. it's like just by looking at me he leaves me with...
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demoivre:
Hello. Actually, I'm handling the return to reality very badly. *shudders* 
I haven't applied to UCSB yet as I'm trying to finish off all of the ridiculous classes that I can take at CC relatively cheaper--that and I'm changing my major, so that doesn't help.
I haven't applied to UCSB yet as I'm trying to finish off all of the ridiculous classes that I can take at CC relatively cheaper--that and I'm changing my major, so that doesn't help.
eurisko:
you sound pretty cool, i likethe same movies as you, well some anyway.
maurauder:
Your sister is a little red x? 
Are you ready for tomorrow?
Break went too fast. We should have hung out!
Are you ready for tomorrow?
Break went too fast. We should have hung out!My sister is coming for the weekend & I am seriously happier than i have been in months. I have lived with her my entire life (except for the first 10 months before she was born) and now she is in flagstaff. i seduced her with my pictures of the beach. she is such a california girl she is going to take a 15 hour...
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occam:
If my sister was coming to visit my I'd lock the doors and hide actually that applies to any member of my family other than my brother.
[Edited on Apr 04, 2004 12:34PM]
actually that applies to any member of my family other than my brother.[Edited on Apr 04, 2004 12:34PM]
abracapocus:
Shit. It's late in the week and I hope you and yer sis are havin' a blast!
How are you and your man? Still feeling ignored? Am i prying? Shall i fuck off and die?
If i don't speak to you sooner than i hope you have a good weekend as well.
-Josh
I am also very sorry that you have to feel the ways you do with your man in your relationship. I can relate, unfortunately. I've been married for over eight years now and there seems to be more fights now than there is ever love making. I love her but it doesn't always help, y'know?
Your welcome on the Smuffy thing, pretty awesome, isn't she?
-Josh