delusion

congratulations on the degree. i want one, but the work right now doesnt seem worth it, so ive just cut back. too bad they dont sell them on the black market.

ding ding ding! very good. Sudorific - causing perspiration.

Ok, well epi- means 'center', I think, and -phyte- may mean ...small? ant an -ism is a way of thought or belief . so...I got nuthin

how about : squamous

(is this totally lame for you?)

ja me too.

gratz on graduating...


-pb

I loves the monkey head

Put down that crowbar and put it on paper! Congrats on your graduation!

i'm so sorry about your feets and the hammer. saw them in 's journal. owy.


makes it better.


-pb

Punctilio I think that is my new favorite word. Hmmph if you aren't careful your thread comments might actually cheer me up. And we wouldn't want that.

Are you done? Are you done? Summer? Freedom?

Bora bora???

Hahahahaha!!! I mean...poor foot

Well, last night I took my calculus final, and it was like an insane asylum. The whole class was laughing, no cackling, and throwing our hands in the air, and crying too. The teacher gave up and passed out chocolates. Today was chem, the year long cumulative, and, well, at least it's over right?

Hooray for 40's! And Bora bora! I'd say your lucky to have more time, but I'm almost just glad to get them over with, even if I didn't do so well. But, just use the extra time to study...or just fuck off and write some brilliant prose..whateva. Have you heard from UCSB yet?

We should hang out. Outside of school and away from the prying ears of who knows who and you know who. I'd love to pick yer brain, and gossip SG style!

Good luck on finals!

that probably was one of the most touching things ive ever read. i have a pretty good relationship with my mom, i mean she nags me to death, but i know its because she cares. the fact your mom spent all of her vacation days on you is amazing, i know my mom wouldnt ever do that, she would just call me on the phone and drop by when she could. instead of being there everyday. i hate saying this, but i dont think i could blame her because i dont think id be as giving as your mom is. and even in writing this, i feel bad for my mom, because even though i know she cares about me, i give her a lot of shit sometimes.

Awww was that your mother's day tribute?

Well i don't know about painbearer's ladies, but I for one will read anything you wriite. Even if it is about copyrights. If all these damn lawyers wrote half as well as you maybe I wouldn't suffer from terminal boredom. I am starting to think you could even write an interesting commercial transactions contract. Well ok maybe that is going too far.

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I feel like this :

Cracked out from too much coffee and too much calculus. I'm just trying to continue to care. 3 more days...

You are so gifted. Lets leave our menfolk and become stowaways on a ship. We can live in the bilge, dine on rats and sing each other to sleep at night. Maybe one day we'll wake up in Bora bora, to live out our days on a sandy beach in a grass hut, spearfishing and dancing in the moonlight. You'll have to bring your typewriter.

holy fantasies batman! the two of you as stowaways....i could write a masterpiece just on the silent images of that little tango.

its things like this which keep me alive...

-pb

Never nonsensical, They always speak straight to my heart & soul touching on things I am feeling now or have felt recently. I admit that I read them for my own selfish reasons they provide as much catharsis for me as the reader as i hope they do you as the writer. And thanks for the cheer up, not every day A beautiful, intelligent 22 year old cheers up an old man like me
As to the 8 billion bitter messages, give me time I am sure if you are on here long enough I will come close...................

Yes, cryptic indeed...... But as I read, the words spilled forth from your mind as mere words...... I have only my imagination to construct what I think you are actually feeling. Your words are powerful and yet, mysterious and a sort of searching.



"but temper tantrums aren't befitting in a world where other minds are just as alive as yours, where you know that desperation, anger,grief does not make you special or significant. a child is obsessed with the world in their own mind. there is no hopelessness in childhood. there is only "maybe". maybe if i cry, if i throw myself to floor, maybe if i just...but growing up means running out of maybes."

This is wonderful - I have felt like this often and always figured I was alone in that feeling - as if I was alone in a forest of reason. Now I can find solace in the fact that I stand not alone, yet with others.

I read every last word and drank them up like a man who hasn't had a drop of water in days......greedily. I suppose that I just enjoy experiencing the world of another via these words - that convey much more to me that seems initially obvious..........

"...when did the world tell us that we needed to stop being dramatic?"

Exactly! That is a question I have asked myself over and over....... and the answer is the world never told us to stop being dramatic - only others who would deny our right to it....

Editted because I am only human....

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Please don't do that. I have been hurt enough already. But....if you want I can give you a list of people who deserve to be hurt.

if you must..... well wait no.... ill have to take a rain check because i was to be in good health for a while.

unless is a great word, i tend to be in the "i cant do it unless..." catergory. it seems i always use that one. mainy because it is my way of testing people to see if they really have in interest in truly wanting or needing me to help them out.

Just dropping by to give you a and some .

Peace.

-Josh

Don't be so hard on yourself. It's no doubt got to be frustrating for precisely the fact that if you are normally prolific you feel you should be able to 'turn it on' whenever. I get a similar frustration when I design or draw and nothing seems to come out right, or even at all.


Hmmmm...I wish I had something more constructive to add than that...but I'm sure it will come just don't let it piss you off too much.

there was this one time where i stayed up for nearly 3 days making myself crazy writing a term paper. somewhere around the 36th hour, i wrote on a post-it "you could have done this a long time ago". i stuck it along the edge of my monitor and i haven't been late on a paper in over a year.

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i always read ALL of your entry. You have an abundance of passion. It is intimidating at times.

i don't EVER sleep in. My stomach starts to ache if i try to make myelf sleep past 8.
*myself, but i'm liking myelf and will use it from now on.

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