delusion

I get so morose sometimes that I think I will turn into an oily black spot on the ground

where is my birthday present by the way? :p

terrible, all the while...
comparible, is your style...
it, take, you, too, many, words, to, get, your, point...
it, make, me, lose, any, urge, to, 'spect, your, joint...
but i know you got skills,
but i know you bought skills,
but i know you got skills.
but i own the spot thrills.

check.

p.s. you are trying too hard to not try too hard.
inspration can be found in your refridgerator.

*editted to assure you that this comment refers to your writer's block, not your unworthy battle attempts*

nothing can save you in this battle....yet.

[Edited on Jul 15, 2004 6:21AM]

I found this in MAGICK's pics! If she's not your friend you might wanna see about that!



[Edited on Jul 14, 2004 9:41PM]

So ummm even though it wasnt left for me I thought you should know that while that comment does clearly illustrate the passion you feel about your writing, it was not boring.
I cant imagine what it felt like to have that just be gone...

j-dude... i'm back from 'shville. my socks were entirely rocked off by your newest entry. now my feet are cold. write to me because i'm lonely.

isn't creativeslacker the sweetest?

and you know i'm all for fagtasticness.

how was your test?

HEY!!! Get away from my cookies!!!

You have a way with words. If you are not already planning on doing so, You should write books. I'm sure those who are alive, and those who are not yet alive, would love to read your mind. Leave us and the future generations something to wonder at. My favorite authors are long dead and gone, yet they are still right here... on my shelf. You should insert yourself on the shelf of knowledge. Make your mark on the world. I want my children and my children's children and my children's children's children to read your words. Every time I read your journal, I am amazed by the way you use our vocabulary. If you were to write a book, I'm sure it would be fascinating. Hop to it already... Do us all a favor...

dude, check my journal right now

holy darwin, you two are such goddesses.


-t

*sigh*

I have thoughts like those all the time... I often try to grasp the natural beauty of people and places, only to know that if it were in an art medium it would be easier. My mother is one of those lucky people that can do this at will. She tears up over sunsets... It used to bother me that she was cheesey and sensitive, but I grew up and know how amazing she is for that ability.

Its like seeing beauty rather than looking for beauty.

I tried to read this yesterday, but I knew my head wasn't into it. I'm glad I waited, it was a perfect morning read. Thank you.

that post was so long...i had to skim an scan through it...my ADD won't let me read... So this comment isn't so random. but it still could be...



by the way I feel the exact same way you do on the whole war thing... I have friends over in Iraq. I pray that they make it home.

[Edited on Jul 06, 2004 7:40PM]

Delusion said "eleven o'clock silence doesn't subtract from birthdays that stick to memories as love colored photographs or friendships that stick to the insides of your eyelids, photographs that you see everytime you close your eyes. don't let disappointment and regret poison hope and pride." that was beautiful. I really love that you take the time to write something so awesome for my measly journal.

The phone call went very, very well. I am hopeful & happy. Now I think the danger is not getting too hopeful. I just want to let things happen in as natural a fashion as possible. No pushing, no stressing. Right. Like I can do that. But I am going to try.

My birthday was the best. Truly a great day. Everything went really well with everyone.

[Edited on Jul 07, 2004 6:52PM]

*takes both girls by shoulder...pushes them closer togethor*

"now take your lips and press them against hers."

well done.

Whoa! You two look amazing!

...and the poster above the mantle is fantastic!

OK, I gotta say "hi" cause I've been away for a little bit and noticed you posted more writing I shall read the backlog this weekend...


oh..glad to see things are going very well

Oh my goodness. What a beautiful real-life dream! Those are the best! So beautiful that you've shared it. I've been writing up a storm. Yes.

e.g.:



mirrorglass may shatter

doesn't matter what i think i thought i heard you say
you'll not be the one to chase me away
no victims in this consolatory dance
we're all family here, no one's shown up here by chance

no, doesn't matter what you think you thought you heard me say
we're going to follow this through, you and i,
we're going to break through to the light, to day,
we're all one here, and mirrorglass may shatter,
but it still reflects. reflects. reflects.

come
what
may


loose leaves
"like loose leaves we're falling/
with no way of holding on"

- nova scotia, from "loose leaves"

you know, i have heard it all
and i am done with excuses
bowed head, treading water
humbling won't begin to explain it

believe me, i can't bother to and know
you simply can't be bothered
(life's too short)

with no way of holding on, like
loose leaves we're falling
might as well enjoy the scenery
even in our stumbling we
somehow always manage to
maintain a modicum of
grace

of natural dignity

i wish that i could plan what that might
look like in advance

but my Darling, me i fall
(and fall and fall)
too fast
-s

Ooh! Visual picture story!

can't wait, what song is that under "fantasy" it looks like something I would like

Hey I know you are so busy I just wanted to say hello.

'...and all around the night sang out like cockatoos..."



don't know, somehow seemed appropriate.




-pb