The Price is Wrong, Bitch
As a small child I was addicted to The Price is Right. Not so much the show, but this one game called Plinko. Every morning after studying and schoolwork, my grandmother would let me watch. Every morning I watched with zeal almost akin to that of religious fanatics following their cult leader. Almost every morning I was disappointed, because damnit,...
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As a small child I was addicted to The Price is Right. Not so much the show, but this one game called Plinko. Every morning after studying and schoolwork, my grandmother would let me watch. Every morning I watched with zeal almost akin to that of religious fanatics following their cult leader. Almost every morning I was disappointed, because damnit,...
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nail:
good brain dump. i can relate well to a lot of what you had to say. hang in there... things do get better. have fun at pale face 
bepps:
I can certainly understand why you would feel that way. But I think it's best if you don't live in fear of getting hurt by people. You WILL get hurt, that's a given. It's kindo like ... like how you WILL die eventually, you already know that, no sense focusing on it. You just forget about that and focus on all the cool things that happen in the mean time. Although it's nice to think that you will have a relationship where there wont be any negative side effects it's rediculous to expet it. It's just not gonna happen. Better to just accept it will, forget about it, and move on to focus on the aspects about it that make you smile. There's always gonna be plenty of them and better to think about that. Me, I just think about boobs. Mmmmmmmmm booooooooooobieeeeeessss. 
I'm back in Austin. Sometimes it's nice to be home, though I can't say I'm entirely thrilled to be back. It has been such a weird week.
Yesterday was hear from your ex day, and I heard from 4 of them. To be quite honest, it was bizarre at best. I didn't answer the phone for 2, because I figure those bridges had been burned...
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Yesterday was hear from your ex day, and I heard from 4 of them. To be quite honest, it was bizarre at best. I didn't answer the phone for 2, because I figure those bridges had been burned...
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juno106:
Hope things are well with you... my life is complicated but good now. I hope things are over all well with you.
nail:
sometimes i miss the morning after stuff. i managed to quit drinking a while back. good diet and better on the internal organs, but kills the social life...
Pissed Pissed Pissed
One of the little buttbarnacles that frequents this establishment I refer to as home has downloaded a virus, thus ensuring 40 gigs of music are down the drain. The hard drive has to be wiped. My stupid ass didn't think ahead and back any of this up, except to my mp3 player, which has gone on strike and refuses to charge. I...
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One of the little buttbarnacles that frequents this establishment I refer to as home has downloaded a virus, thus ensuring 40 gigs of music are down the drain. The hard drive has to be wiped. My stupid ass didn't think ahead and back any of this up, except to my mp3 player, which has gone on strike and refuses to charge. I...
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bepps:
OH, don't wipe your mp3s away! just copy them. If you don't know how, call me, I'll tell you. It's way easy.
bepps:
Oh wait you don't have my number. Well, IM me or email me or talk to me in chat er something.
Off my damn rocker...
Maybe not. I'm on a quest to find a fulltime job I would actually enjoy, that could pay the bills, and these are the positions I've decided would work for me. Don't laugh too hard now. They all involve the sort of experience which I can say, except for commercial fishing and veterinary related, is limited at best:
Commercial fisherman/deckhand on...
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Maybe not. I'm on a quest to find a fulltime job I would actually enjoy, that could pay the bills, and these are the positions I've decided would work for me. Don't laugh too hard now. They all involve the sort of experience which I can say, except for commercial fishing and veterinary related, is limited at best:
Commercial fisherman/deckhand on...
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skurvash:
Hehe, well we already talked about the fishing/alaska thing in chat, could be fun, the scenery is certainly nice, but cold as hell. Hatchery would be super fun, but that assumes you enjoy water and fish and animals in general. Just don't do alaskan crab fishing, suposedly the most dangerous job in the world.
As for the picture, glad you dig it. I actually took that one with a fujifilm MX-2900 which is like 2mp and now days can be bought off ebay for like $10. it takes AMAZING pictures for its low megapixel. The only drawback is the image size maxes at something like 640x480 or 800x600 I forget which. But if you don't mind the size its a super badass camera for the price. I also use a Nikon coolpix 3100, and sometimes a Fujifilm S2 Pro Digital SLR that I wish I owned
As for the picture, glad you dig it. I actually took that one with a fujifilm MX-2900 which is like 2mp and now days can be bought off ebay for like $10. it takes AMAZING pictures for its low megapixel. The only drawback is the image size maxes at something like 640x480 or 800x600 I forget which. But if you don't mind the size its a super badass camera for the price. I also use a Nikon coolpix 3100, and sometimes a Fujifilm S2 Pro Digital SLR that I wish I owned
jordanos:
join the army 
National Geographic is Cruel
Ok, maybe not. They portray nature as it is, and nature is cruel. Last night I decided to watch tv, gasp! Yes, it goes against my better judgement but I figured hell, the NG channel would be ok. I was wrong wrong wrong. I saw elephant-on-elephant abuse, orca fights, and hippo hate crimes. Where I wanted to be was seeing De...
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Ok, maybe not. They portray nature as it is, and nature is cruel. Last night I decided to watch tv, gasp! Yes, it goes against my better judgement but I figured hell, the NG channel would be ok. I was wrong wrong wrong. I saw elephant-on-elephant abuse, orca fights, and hippo hate crimes. Where I wanted to be was seeing De...
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geist81:
can i deal with sociopath for you? i need to release a little agression.
secondly, you rock. hard, like concrete. see you tonight hopefully.
-the geist
secondly, you rock. hard, like concrete. see you tonight hopefully.
-the geist
geist81:
we'll me meeting at casino around 9-930ish, then probably over to lovejoys, cause stephanie's freind is spinning there tonight.
give us a call, one way or the other dove, yes?
-the geist
give us a call, one way or the other dove, yes?
-the geist
Ya'll should be proud. I not only woke up today, but I also showered and made coffee. This is a huge accomplishment for me since in the last week I have been awake for 7 of the past 96 hours. And I even called about a job, which the opportunity for is probably gone since I waited a week to return the call, but fuck...
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cmaxwell:
you're sweet.
keep going.
keep going.
cmaxwell:
I'm rooting for you.
Leave it all behind you...
Is my sometimes plan. I'm lonlier than I've ever been in my entire life. I'm surrounded by people that pretend to care, when it's convenient for them and beneficial to them. I'm tired. All I can muster is the energy to sleep since returning from Florida.
I thought this trip would bring closure to my father's dying and my inability...
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Is my sometimes plan. I'm lonlier than I've ever been in my entire life. I'm surrounded by people that pretend to care, when it's convenient for them and beneficial to them. I'm tired. All I can muster is the energy to sleep since returning from Florida.
I thought this trip would bring closure to my father's dying and my inability...
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geist81:
smile dove, and give us a call if you need to, i'm open 24/7 for you.
-the geist
-the geist
fraktalpaul:
p.s. you are atheist...what's this awaken to find life shit? Hate to tell ya but as an atheist you'd better squeeze your eyes and hope beyond hope that when you die you *don't* wake up...
btw Lao Tsu said shut the fuck up and go fuck yourself.
Think on it.
btw Lao Tsu said shut the fuck up and go fuck yourself.
Think on it.
Hell, Abbreviated
It could have gone smoothly, the trip that is. Then again, it wouldn't be my life had that been the case. No, these melodramatic misshaps that are my life are uniquely mine and mine alone.
It all started when...
We left Houston rocking out to some DeathRay Davies and were just past Beaumont when my mother and I started talking trash about a...
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It could have gone smoothly, the trip that is. Then again, it wouldn't be my life had that been the case. No, these melodramatic misshaps that are my life are uniquely mine and mine alone.
It all started when...
We left Houston rocking out to some DeathRay Davies and were just past Beaumont when my mother and I started talking trash about a...
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heterochromia:
What a miserable experience. Banish that "friend" from your life - you don't need to be around a selfish ass like that. I'm glad you made it home safe. 
fraktalpaul:
The life lesson here couldn't be clearer:
" What the caterpillar calls the end, the rest of the world calls a butterfly."
-Lao Tsu
think on it.
" What the caterpillar calls the end, the rest of the world calls a butterfly."
-Lao Tsu
think on it.
Resistance is Futile
Back in town for a very brief interlude before heading down to Houston again for some mental health conference and then to Florida on Thursday afternoon. Should be there through the 13th of August and perhaps longer depending on my state of mind.
Houston was...wonderful. I had a blast. Being the anti-social recluse I've been as of late had cast an anxiety...
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Back in town for a very brief interlude before heading down to Houston again for some mental health conference and then to Florida on Thursday afternoon. Should be there through the 13th of August and perhaps longer depending on my state of mind.
Houston was...wonderful. I had a blast. Being the anti-social recluse I've been as of late had cast an anxiety...
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variety:
I totally understand about not giving up on love. Yes, I also feel that if I've not truly loved someone, what good has my life been? My only problem now is that the someone I'm in love with doesn't feel the same for me.
guitargeek:
Stay in touch.
Monday Monday Monday
I'm going to Houston, bitatches. I love to drive. In fact, if I could make a living driving, I would. So I'm headed down there tomorrow and I'm damn excited about it. I will not be around to harass you bastards, and I'll miss ya, especially FraktalPaul, because damn, you're sooo fun to harass, and you hook me up with the...
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I'm going to Houston, bitatches. I love to drive. In fact, if I could make a living driving, I would. So I'm headed down there tomorrow and I'm damn excited about it. I will not be around to harass you bastards, and I'll miss ya, especially FraktalPaul, because damn, you're sooo fun to harass, and you hook me up with the...
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skurvash:
Aww I hope you find your dog hon, he looks so cute! My cat runs outside sometimes, I don't know what I'd do if I ever lost him, so I can relate!
minceir:
I'm not a bitches 
, I'm a Prick, I think 
.
how was d journey and when are ya comin back.
, I'm a Prick, I think .
how was d journey and when are ya comin back.
Shoot me in the face, I broke my best friend's heart
And it sucks. I love this man like I love my mother, and yet somehow I am capable of hurting him about as much as I've ever hurt anyone.
How you ask? I cannot be with him in a romantic sense. I will not move in, I will not date him. Why? Well, for...
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And it sucks. I love this man like I love my mother, and yet somehow I am capable of hurting him about as much as I've ever hurt anyone.
How you ask? I cannot be with him in a romantic sense. I will not move in, I will not date him. Why? Well, for...
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nox:
No worries about the show. Take care of yourself.
I've been asleep since 4 pm yesterday and fully intend on sleeping my way through the next few days...with the help of prescription drugs of course. My fear is I've already become tolerant of Ambien, seeing as I awoke at 3am and took 2 more...so far nothing.
I suppose I finally snapped in a certain regard. This past month has been thoroughly disappointing in so...
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I suppose I finally snapped in a certain regard. This past month has been thoroughly disappointing in so...
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guitar_wolf:
I wish you sweet dreams and restful sleep if possible. You don't sound crazy to me, but you have a lot of things (GRIEF) to deal with. Dropping out of reality fer a bit sounds like a good idea, at least let your body rest so it can better help your brain cope with everything.
arlan:
I lost my dad when I was 19, it turned out to be one of the most trying experiences of my life, I won't lie to you. However, you will learn to get on with your life, but in a new way... Take your time, if you're a bit of a loose cannon for awhile that's perfectly understandable. Give yourself space to let it out. If you need to talk you know how to find me 