daysofgrace13ben

Oh Fuck! Stated my new job and really fucking loving it. Well she is gone. Yet I'll move on and forgive with the anger that keeps me warm while she is away. Well I'm going to bed. Very sick. Sick for almost year that I've been this way. My stomach is all fucked and no Dr.'s can find out what is wrong. But my benies kicked in at my new job so hopefully we will find out what is wrong tomorrow. I lost 80lbs since September. But it is not how a man dies but the way a man lives to judge him by. Oh shit I AM fucked(I have been off the past 2 days and have not even been to musikfest yet. So never know maybe I AM dying? Too much to think about very tired-meds kicking in.) Peace Love and goodnight to all.