daysofgrace13ben

WELL DESPITE MY SADNESS WITH THE FACT THAT JESS IS GOING TO DIE THERE IS SOME GOOD NEWS I GUESS. IT REALLY MEANS NOTHING TO ME RIGHT NOW BECAUSE OF HOW SAD AND SICK I FEEL. BUT I WAS PROMOTED TO CORPORAL AT THE PRISON AND SOMEHOW BECAME A SUPERVISOR AT THE CASINO. I GUESS PEOPLE THINK I AM DOING A GOOD JOB BUT I COULD GIVE A FUCK LESS----IT IS JUST MORE MONEY TO ME. I REALLY DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING BUT JESS. THE WOMAN I AM SLOWLY STARTING TO SEE HAS NO CLUE ABOUT HER. I REALLY DO NOT WANT TO LET HER KNOW HOW I FEEL. I DON'T WANT HER TO FEEL WEIRD EVEN THOUGH I DO BELIEVE THAT SHE WOULD UNDERSTAND. WELL I KNOW THAT SHE WOULD BECAUSE SHE IS A VERY GOOD AND MATURE WOMAN. BUT WHAT THE HELL WE ARE NOT EVEN DATING YET JUST "TALKING" WHATEVER THE FUCK THAT MEANS. WELL TO ALL PEACE--------PLEASE!