dave_h

If you haven't yet, please go look at my previous entry.

But today I have some serious things on my mind. I'm in a very melancholly mood.

First of all:

I can't drink anymore for a while. at least not for a week; probably more. I have been blacking out too much lately and spending too much money and doing things that I shouldn't be doing. and I've been neglecting my mandolin. and my crumbling financial situation.

please if you know me try to avoid drinking with me for a while. I need a break. I've been partying pretty much every day for a couple of weeks. most of that has been with SG people which is awesome but like I said it needs to stop.

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the second thing is harder to explain, and I'm not going to here.

I need a girlfreind. not just 'it would be nice to have one' or whatever, no, I seriously need one. I need to fall in love with someone new or my heart is just going to be broken for a long time.

Its the only thing I can think of to get myself out of a situation that I shouldn't be in.

(Some of you know what I'm talking about; please don't ever talk about it here. please. )



PS: today I went to a park and rode a bike and hung out with an ex, the first and only girl I've ever really loved. the weather was amazing.