I don't know source or backstory, just thought "I can't be the only one who'll love this" and saved it.

Totally adorable, right?

naru_blu:
Very adorable ^_^
abbyshigh:
So pretty!!💙🧜‍♀️

sad

It seems a person? a friend? really stalked me to this place. and it would appear we like the same girl.

For now, I'll have to keep my heart shut, I even could delete everything... I won't. I don't think I wrote anything I can't stand by.

To him: Certainly I had not expected you to be someone who acts like...
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no, to be honest I got kind of a writer's block, at least for some part of this.

I'll try starting in staccato.

Watched a falling star when I was outside of the party smoking alone. Wished for her. (and of course texted her the very same thing)

an hour later she lead me away from the crowd and said something very nice...
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Girls! Today will be my anniversary (il compleanno)... in fact it's a month short, but today Decadence is again at Villa Boschi so THE HELL I'm gonna be there. I don't know if my dear is even gonna be around - somehow she doesn't like the place - but this is personal. So much changed in my life by that single party, I...
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darkfader113:
Mille grazie!!!
darkfader113:
mi trovato :)

Here's the audio track to the story. If you're into stuff with a few extra bpm, this is when we jumped, and it might not be the first thing you think of for a goth party.

BUT WE DO

There was dancing. There was some hugging. And I'll not post the latter. :-) Nothing is fixed, and I don't know if she'll ever *really* come around, but we did have a great time, and stuck together like glue (us, not just me to her. don't worry :). Anyway...? The music towards the end was perfect, we both danced like madmen and I got to look at her beautiful smile for an hour. The morning after I told a friend: "For evenings like this one she can break my heart every fucking week". I'm still super happy I went there, didn't give in to despair, didn't keep distance just to play something safe. I would love to share the pic of both of us. If it ever works out, you'll see why. One thing I pondered about telling was... after the party she gave me a lift to my hotel. I'd been handed on a gin tonic "it's water" and ended up too drunk to understand italian. And what this charming girl did was.. I think... when she noticed I couldn't follw anymore she just kept telling me stuff for 5 minutes. I did catch a "mi ami"... basically, I think she seriously took the opportunity to talk freely for a moment and reflect. No idea what she said except acking that she knows i'm in love. and I CAN'T even find words how cute a move that was. I'm trying to be respectful of this friendzone thing till I can properly speak her tongue, and she seriously plays the game and only tells me whatever I would love to know when I'm not up to understand it. That is so fucking nice, so cute, so adorable. Geez. And now that I saw that pic of ours. Things aren't all bleak. Plus, the dancing. I've again had someone shake my hand to congratulate my style, some random girl pulling me up to the stage, and - right, that was a fun bit - watched the lead dancer get a tongue job from her kneeling GF right next to me while I danced. Ah, and one old friend of my crush just referred to her as "your girl", and one other guy basically gave me his blessing... I can't even tell that story, nor why I can't tell it. if she knew she'd probably flay my skin, or his. lol. Some kind of evening.

(All there is to say, we're somewhere between peace and ew the guy is in love and 50 other versions, and i have no fucking clue which one applies at any given minute)

But now, we will dance for another night. So fuck thinking. Go, life, go.

darkfader113:
is what i didn't yet post, but someone did me the favour so me just copy pasted. that's like the exact perspective I had that night, just with some girl's ass on my hips :)
darkfader113:
...oh and this weekend's party was cancelled due to to all the ice and snow. So I'll be craving until end of month when I can finally dance with a certain someone again. What are the chances I mess up, on a scale between 'super likely what else to expect anyway' and '10'...

The cover page for the redacted album of the Suicide Girls event! (So posting this should be fine... hehe)

It's taken from the stage, I was on the left looking towards the door (maybe the music changed and I went for a drink? I do not recall... doesn't matter anyway - there's many more beautiful people to look at :-)

Behind me there's...
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My mum just made another comment that edges on trying to talk me out of this.

"I can't see much difference than from the one you were with 20 years ago" (long ago I swore I'd never again try a little cute cheeky one). I just said "she's a much better dancer" (besides a 100 other differences. accordingly: fuck that!)

And, oh...
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darkfader113:
(3 hours later, still angry. what's so hard about saying something like "looks like a good evening, and I like the hair, but she kinda reminds a bit of X?" On the other hand, I know very few guys whose mum doesn't drive them nuts within a few sentences and seems incapable of communicating without pulling all triggers. It seems to be a necessity for them, to not just care and worry but to express it in the worst possible way :)

The party was insanely good

And once there's some censored pics I'll look for one I can share.

I have, again, not even been to the dungeon, because I HAD TO DANCE. And *lol*, I've not really found it in me to start fondling a girl who danced with me and very much wanted to be fondled with. Sorry, I'm in
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