cyberiouse

Nice to hear from you; sorry to hear you were having such a hard time. I get those bad myself. Hang in there!

Whats your tattoo going to be of??

Also where on jens body is that tattoo? I just can't tell....>.<

He certainly is.

back in may of 2005 i was admitted to the psych ward and declared clinically depressed. i wasn't suicidal or anything, i would just cry for weeks on end. i was engaged to be married at the time, but my fiance was a functioning alcoholic who was addicted to his fifa soccer game and pot. he cared about me a lot, but in my heart i knew i just couldn't marry him. maybe that's why i cried all the time...the doc put me on lexapro and sent me on my way. by august of 2005 i was out of control - manically spending money on 8 hour shopping sprees and telling off my boss at work. my boss finally insisted that i GET HELP or don't bother ever coming back to work. so i enrolled in an outpatient hospitalization program for two weeks. i was being told that i was BIPOLAR and hypermanic. i was placed on a mood stablizer as well as my lexapro. over the next two years my drug cocktail increased to seven different meds. This past october i said FUCK IT and went off all my meds cold turkey. and guess what? I feel alive and free again! however, i'm insanely manic and now my doc wants me on just two drugs.

what i'm getting at is this - you may need to be psychologically evaluated if you're forever sad and crying. not that i'm a huge advocate of being medicated, but maybe you have a legitimate reason for being sad. i was told i have a "brain disorder." don't know what the fuck that means, but I guess I'm a little different from other people.

on the other hand, you may just be exhibiting all the classic signs of your humanhood - people NEED to be loved. it's a basic instinct. but answer me this: do you love yourself first? if you don't, how can you expect others to love you completely? love attracts love so LOVE YOURSELF FIRST!! look at your beautiful self in the mirror and proudly proclaim: I LOVE ME!!

after 34 years on this Earth, I can finally honestly say that I love myself. give it a try, okay?

*hugs*
Breathe, don't beat yourself up for feeling this way....
I know it's hard, but remember - if it's any consolation - you're not alone in this.

i feel like i put in more effort all the time

I can't say I REALLY like any of the candidates on any side this election, but out of them all, Obama probably would have been my choice.

Happy New Year sugar ♥

just applied for the "fatherless" group....my dad left when I was 9 1/2 months old, didn't come back into my life until the 3rd grade, and, well, basically he is a friend that I"m related to. as for upbringing, it was my mom until she got remarried when I was 13.

Hey baby,
wanna be my daddy???

auw why thank you!!!same to u too *hugs*.New year is always the same..u big it up so much and nothing exciting ever happens!!!hopefully when im next out ill have a good time!same for u too huni!xx

That's because you have never seen my rear!
It's bodacious!

The Song Remains the Same is the best part! I shoulda asked for that. But I think my parents got my gift early on.

Dude even if you're broke and an unemployed/underemployed like I was for the past 2 years the beers at Horseshoe on Sun. are $1.

I appreciate the kind words in my journal, thanks a lot.

Have a happy new year!

Don't forget step 3. We need to make tons of money this year ok?

The funny thing is, I didn't even get started on Buffy until last year in Japan, when my coworker made me watch it. All my friends back here started making fun of me for getting into it so late

Good luck with the group

Not sure if it's love I am looking for.