I need help

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I admitted to myself yesterday that I needed help. This has been culminating for too long, the last few years especially. I hit a breaking point, I had a mental breakdown. I have been depressed for many years and have coped well with it, until now. I am going to a counselor.

Saturday I made a post on Facebook about my depression, it was my...
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millerman325:
 I have been with a therapist for a couple of years now - it's been very useful. Today, I was able to really express some anger and frustration and it was cathartic. Not quite as cathartic as I'd have liked, considering I was driving 112 in a 35 zone on the way home, but still...
r1173:
Hi there, from Down Under. I hope you're doing better, I too have been struggling. I'm seeing a psych, slowly getting there. I understand how you feel. Sending love & positive thoughts 

I feel

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Today, for multiple reasons, I feel ugly. I don't really feel like going into detail. I just feel ugly and wanted to say it. It's not a cry for attention or to be told I'm pretty/cute, etc 😋. I'm not that kind of gal. I just wanted to say it aloud: I feel gross and unattractive today.

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caraphernelia:
aww why do you say so ? :( anyways, hope you are going to feel better soon cause to me you are so beautiful :3
cvtgrrl_shan:
@caraphernelia just a bout of negativity passing through. It usually lasts a few days. And thank you 😚 you're beautiful too.

Thank goodness

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It's official for me, spay/neuter month, aka hell month, is over. I was in surgery 2-3 days a week for the month and I spent the last 3 days in a row, total of about 16 hours, in surgery. It is exhausting, not only do I anesthetize patients, I calculate and draw up all their drugs, I monitor them closely, recover them, write up my...
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jaxons:
You deserve the time to yourself, enjoy.  
lord_renob:
Well glad to hear your hell month is over. Now you can sit back 'n relax some. And as always gorgeous pic!

Just found out

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I lost another friend to heroin. I had spent a lot of time with this guy. He had Bell's Palsy and was made fun of hardcore in school, he had low self-esteem and would self-harm, and of course he turned to dope. He was super nice and even though he could annoy the hell out of me, he still always had my back in everything....
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nanette:
Many hugs to you and may he rest peacefully 
lord_renob:
You have my deepest condolences. @};- If nothing else if your other friend can learn from this then something good can be made of it. 

Friday

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Today turned out pretty much as I anticipated: BUSY!

Checked in all my surgeries first thing, I had 6. I had a laceration repair, abscess drain, 2 tumor removals, a dental cleaning, and a dog neuter. The laceration repair was on a 103lb Cane Corso Mastiff, he decided to climb me as he received his sedation [I was the only person restraining him] so now...
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glass42:
64 and sunny in February has its own sexiness.  It was 50 and sunny here in North Dakota.  Happiness!  I'll be working Saturday as well.
freakyd:
Love the NIN shirt.
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