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'I am merely amused or embarrassed or tender when I remember what I thought the first time I read a book I later followed to another depth; but I remain faithful to responses I first had to movies, even if I can no longer share them.'

- Stanley Cavell, The World Viewed

Here's what I like about Million Dollar Baby: Hilary Swank's smile; the...
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alleykit:
Have a safe and relaxing plane ride.
Can't wait to meet you. I just emailed you.
roxxee:
Mayhaps I shall have to see that movie. smile
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'I know that I'm forgiven
But I don't know how I know
I don't trust my inner feelings
Inner feelings come and go'

- Leonard Cohen, 'That don't make it junk'

A long time, I know, a long, long time...

I was going to post my end-of-year lists, it seems kind of late now, but anyway...

The ten best films of 2004

1. Collateral (Michael...
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lucky_16:
Well God Bless St Cutriver! Mother Teresa won't have shit on you! no, I'm just teasing. I wish I had that kind of self improvement discipline/ awareness/ stuff. Salut!

Before Sunset... ! I mean, what can you say? Was that, like, everything you hoped it would be? (LIKE totally! tongue ) Your listing Collateral just put it at the top of my list- I'd been meaning to see it, but you know... One question- how is Dogville? I heard bad stuff, but it was all from pretentious little twits, so...

From old Britannnia to the heart of France? I didn't think about it before, but you didn't join the Illuminati, did you? surreal

Take care, guv. More later. smile

robot ooo aaa

> Oh yeah, the Chili Peppers fucking rock now, dude! Glad you're on board! tongue

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roxxee:
Long time you speak. biggrin How are you?
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(Long absence = long entry, sorry)

When you think youre treading water, but youre only learning how to drown
And a song comes on the radio telling you the only way is down
- Pulp, Bob Lind

This is the craziest, busiest December Ive had since 2001, or since 1999.

Tuesday, its raining and Im pulling on my shoes
I guess I quit believing in...
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whiskeyfightpit:
Cheesecake and drinking...sounds mighty top drawer to me...I have to say that yourself, 730A_trixel_fem, Lemonkid, and Arachne are the most articulate, interesting, funny, and down to earth people I've had the pleasure to talk to. Thank you for being a good sport on the ol' SG
arachnequarius:
wheeeeeeeeee - i cannot wait!! i have class until 5 on wed, but after that i am yours. monday i have no class tongue and will pine to see you. omg, i cannot wait. ok, i am selfishly planning both days, but understand that you have limited time and will not be a cutriver hog. just let me know what yr availability is. oh, and yay. biggrin biggrin biggrin
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In a book about astrological Paris that I was reading in a bookstore, it suggested that Sagittarians like myself would feel most at home at the gates of the city since they would appeal to the sagittarian longing for departure and dispersal. I verified this last night with a trip to Porte Maillot on the western edge of the city. Porte Maillot is essentially something...
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arachnequarius:
oh, and if you don't recognize me from the eyes, i'll be the one dive bombing you when you get off the plane. see, two easy identification methods. biggrin
arachnequarius:
you are a big silly! she is a sex-positive queer whore sexologist writer chica, and this is a collection of her essays on the same. in my ruminations about female representation, i want to have a bit of the pro-sex flava, even if i must be careful about how it operates to ensure that all things are appropriately rigorous. bah - stuffy academes.

wilmington is only about 2 hours drive from this area (duke is about 20 min from my house), so seeing everyone should be relatively painless. veeee have vays .... muahahahaha.

goodness, i am a ridiculous thing today. its the yellow pjs i tell you.

i'll have to cook you something yummy at some point if you like the home made. i am secretly domestic. shhhhhhhh.
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Another very disappointing full moon night, Friday. Since decreeing, some six months ago, that every time there's a full moon I should try and do something I've never done before, I don't think I have even once done anything worthy of this noble idea...

When Bruce Labruce's militant queer terrorist erotica Raspberry Reich is sold out at the Gay and Lesbian Film Festival, I go...
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prendick:
I've had these glasses forever...probably going on 10 years...I think I got them at pearle...time for an upgrade though

they're so old I can't even read the make on the inside of the arm frown

trixel:
I did nothing worthy of the full moon either, except pine and feel silly.

I'm guilty of talking of fate and possession. Perhaps I should be chastised, or perhaps I belong in a French farce. But then, come to think of it, I am an aging femme fatale. wink

Sorry for the long long long absence (two weeks!) - hang in there, I will eventually get proper internet access back (although it could be another couple months yet)

[Crumbs, what an arrogant comment. blush ]


I do miss you, and it is not arrogant in the least.

Who am I lovesick for? I give you exhibit a) the wonderful surlyclown and exhibit b) my journal about his recent visit: The Visit of the Surlyclown.
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Monuments burn into moments

Nick Cave: 'It's a wonderful life, if you can find it'

Barbara has chronic fatigue syndrome: I take flowers and Beaujolais Nouveau

Lesbian kiss on the metro: I smile inside

I'm sick of the cold and the crowds and the noise: I won't be back in January

A conference on the trans-Siberian express: now there's an idea!

Invited out at 10:15...
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prendick:
Free association. my cup of gravel (this is wher I remind you that it's not suppose to make sense...wish me luck as I embark on a surrealist painting of pink floyd ala Dali...need I say more?! surreal
cellosoul:
I love your word hallucinations. Mostly 'cause a large part of them are (gasp!) Real. I need to go back and read the entirety of your journals because they're always good for what ails me. Had a lifetime of (LAME-ASS) people telling me I am dumber than than they are...or dumb, period. I (LAMER-ASS) believed it. I read your journals and understand all, and then I disbelieve, and disabuse myself of those stupid, LAME-ASS ideas.

And yet, I stay in the Now, on this one page. Nuzzling like a faithful feline, purring.

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In the cinema, I identify fully and deeply with Jonathan Caouette in his beautiful film Tarnation, and not only because he has the same record collection as me (Low, Iron & Wine, Mark Kozelek), qnd not only because he is gay, although these factors undoubtedly help. Caouette's family history of minor celebrity, abuse and mental illness is considerably more dramatic than mine, but, ultimately,...
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trixel:
coming by here to give you a viral hug. I'm sick. I'm a terrible person to be around when I'm sick. *HUG* There, I'll leave before I do something obnoxious. tongue robot kiss
arachnequarius:
where are you? miss you.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmm, yoga ... very good stuff, that. kiss
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'Kissed my sweetheart by the chinaball tree
Everything I done is between God and me
Only he will judge how my time was spent
29 days of sinning and 40 to repent
The horse is steady but the horse is blind
Wicked are the branches on the tree of mankind
The roots grow upward and the branches grow down
It's much too late to throw...
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alleykit:
Love Tom Waits.

It is ironic that all your American people are in this state....the beach is in my blood. So nice to stare at something and not see the end.

Love to see ya here. That would be fantastique.
trixel:
A topical Tom Waits quote: "In the land of the blind, the one-eyed man is king"

I'm glad I could help you cement your moment of moving on. It may not have been quite a crystal moment at the time, but your describing it caused it to become such.
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Saturday: on the metro there are further exciting skincounters (I owe this word to arachne) when, on the always-crowded first carriage of line 13 between Place de Clichy and St-Lazare, a middle-aged Arab man places his hands in the back pockets of my jeans. He is either

a) trying to steal my wallet, but rather unsubtly, and anyway my wallet is in the front...
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whiskeyfightpit:
You can sometimes go down to the local Veterans Of Foreign Wars hall in Oregon, Ohio and hear all of the silly n' sloppy drunks ramble on about all of the "grabassing" the Europeans are up to. I really didn't want to believe the yap spewed forth by these barking rhinos. I mean they still think that they lost that left arm for freedom, for pete's sake. Now you go about and give these armchair Archie Bunkers some ammunition to blanket my commie pinko ass with!

Throwing out porn definetley works in the "turning over a new leaf" department. Until it makes its merry way back into your stash...goddamned Transsexual Beach Parties 1-54. They'll be the death of me!
trixel:
I can feel the coldness of that train.

When you made your pilgrimage of abandonment, I can imagine the feeling there. Was it that telescoping feeling where things seem to get closer and closer and quiet, but roaring at the same time? And it all sorta coalesces into that one significant, symbolic moment. I wonder what it was like.

I wish I'd been the arab on the train. robot kiss
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Friday: my pal HD is in town so we plot an evening with two of our sassiest former students, Ru and Ro, now ensconced in the City of Light. The metro journey down to St-Germain des Prs is an adventure in itself. I'm sat on a strapontin, staring at the bulge in some guy's jeans, when another, younger and better-looking man gets up and...
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reacher:
No, haven't read House of Leaves, what made you think of that?

And I swear I saw that book mentioned just the other day in someone else's journal, though I can't remember who it was now.
arachnequarius:
however, there are many things that perhaps you could teach me, yes? shocked entredre intended, and with extra sauce. wink

so, i feel feel most alive when reading of yr evenings. and a question ~ do you narrate them as such as you experience them? you've a keen cinematic eye, to be sure, so i wonder if whilst yr going thru assorted activities you are actually recording them in rather a cinematic way. hence, the verbal/visual richness that ensues. methinks that you could perhaps be a great and wonderful novelist for this reason. well, novelist turned screenwriter even, but as i'm a pure page fetishist i prefer to think about a bound volume before a visual spectacle. or at least in this specific arena.

hope yr marvelously well. you really should be here having tea with me ... its warm and breezy and i am chattier than a nattering old goat. kiss