I am Impatiently awaiting friday to get here. Then I will be loading up my happy ass to go down to the pier and stand there for a few hours in the cold and rain to pick up my sailor. But even though there will be cold and rain, it does not at all discount the fact that I am excited. I have to say that seeing that HUGE ship pull up is one of the most humbling experiences I have had in my life to this point.....to realize that vessel contains not only the love of my life...but enough nuclear force to wipe out a country. It is scary to see the ropes shoot out of the front...and too see dads walk down that plank and meet children that have been in this world for months and they have never met them, and I think the worst part of it all....to see those men walk down and look all over for their family only to discover that their family is not their. And not only are they not their, but the wife packed the kids up and moved them across the country to live with a new man. Those are the most gut wrenching experiences. But, i will be there with my bright pink sign covered in glitter....and new tattoo, new red hair, and when my sailor walks down...I will be there with a smile and tears at the same time...thats the happiest I will ever feel...
What does piss me off is my neighbors. Just because I am not 22 with three kids, never been to college, and have no job doesnt make me a bad person. Yes I may look different than they do, and have a slightly skewed view of life compared to them. And not that I am knocking for their way of life. However, is there really a need to deliberetly trash me in front of my face? Well, if they actually had a life and understood that there is great big world out there they might have a clue. But, they dont....so I will continue to wake up to notes on my door in regards to keeping my tattooed freak friends away from their children because they are devil worshippers. Now last time i checked just because you have tattoos doesnt mean you are a devil worshipper. But, I guess that I am just not ignorant and narrow minded so I cant understand what in the world they are talking about. What happened to people realizing that there are many different kinds of people out there? What happened to women wanting to be good at a career and want excel and not be pregnant and barefoot? I dont understand this world of living on a navy base, and I dont think that I ever will. It feels like high school again and I feel just like I did in high school. However, I have realized that I do not need to impress these people. Because in fact, I am better than them (not to sound vain), but I am better because I do not judge people for the way that they look....or what they choose to do with their life. Whether you are a CEO or a bartender...your cool in my book. Because I myself have run that gambet and had to realize that I am proud of the person that I have become. I am proud of my quirky demeanor, and my ability to ass at my job. But, unfortunatly...some people never take the time to get to know who you truly are based on what you look like. And that is sad my friends.....very sad.
What does piss me off is my neighbors. Just because I am not 22 with three kids, never been to college, and have no job doesnt make me a bad person. Yes I may look different than they do, and have a slightly skewed view of life compared to them. And not that I am knocking for their way of life. However, is there really a need to deliberetly trash me in front of my face? Well, if they actually had a life and understood that there is great big world out there they might have a clue. But, they dont....so I will continue to wake up to notes on my door in regards to keeping my tattooed freak friends away from their children because they are devil worshippers. Now last time i checked just because you have tattoos doesnt mean you are a devil worshipper. But, I guess that I am just not ignorant and narrow minded so I cant understand what in the world they are talking about. What happened to people realizing that there are many different kinds of people out there? What happened to women wanting to be good at a career and want excel and not be pregnant and barefoot? I dont understand this world of living on a navy base, and I dont think that I ever will. It feels like high school again and I feel just like I did in high school. However, I have realized that I do not need to impress these people. Because in fact, I am better than them (not to sound vain), but I am better because I do not judge people for the way that they look....or what they choose to do with their life. Whether you are a CEO or a bartender...your cool in my book. Because I myself have run that gambet and had to realize that I am proud of the person that I have become. I am proud of my quirky demeanor, and my ability to ass at my job. But, unfortunatly...some people never take the time to get to know who you truly are based on what you look like. And that is sad my friends.....very sad.