Temptation 0 Hesitation 1.
Somedays I feel I've taken a step closer to my true nature. Today was one of those days; I'm feeling pretty fine.
We hired a new Designer at work and she's pretty rad. We get along really - no let me rephrase that- exceptionally well. There is loads of chemistry between us and we make eachother smile.
Unfortunately, Woe for Lucas - she's married. Gah.
We have this little flirtation thing going on now and there was a pretty good possibility she'd be bathing in the waters of adultery when her man takes off for the weekend. And yes, yes I was tempted. Significantly tempted in fact.
I put a lot of thought into this - I never thought I'd be the type of person to consider this, especially knowing how it feels to be cheated on. It sucks. But for some reason, hormones or whatever, I didn't care so much and found it easy to put the fact that 1 she's married and 2 we work together out of my head.
But seeing the possibilities migrate from the fantasy part of my head to something that could be real forced me to take a long critical look at my actions and their ramifications:
1. Some/if not all is going to get hurt. I don't want any bad Karma yo.
2. I don't want to be a homewrecker. That's not me at all.
3. I have fantastic friends who listened to my figure this out without judging me. Thank you one and all!
Point 2 is significant in that it marks a return to consideration for others. I took the whole 'Look out for Number 1' philosophy a little too literally and am pleased that I've figured this out before I hurt someone.
So now I've said my piece with Designer and I think we're actually going to end up being good friends, which is sooo much better than any other available option.
Life is good when you respect yourself.
Somedays I feel I've taken a step closer to my true nature. Today was one of those days; I'm feeling pretty fine.
We hired a new Designer at work and she's pretty rad. We get along really - no let me rephrase that- exceptionally well. There is loads of chemistry between us and we make eachother smile.
Unfortunately, Woe for Lucas - she's married. Gah.
We have this little flirtation thing going on now and there was a pretty good possibility she'd be bathing in the waters of adultery when her man takes off for the weekend. And yes, yes I was tempted. Significantly tempted in fact.
I put a lot of thought into this - I never thought I'd be the type of person to consider this, especially knowing how it feels to be cheated on. It sucks. But for some reason, hormones or whatever, I didn't care so much and found it easy to put the fact that 1 she's married and 2 we work together out of my head.
But seeing the possibilities migrate from the fantasy part of my head to something that could be real forced me to take a long critical look at my actions and their ramifications:
1. Some/if not all is going to get hurt. I don't want any bad Karma yo.
2. I don't want to be a homewrecker. That's not me at all.
3. I have fantastic friends who listened to my figure this out without judging me. Thank you one and all!
Point 2 is significant in that it marks a return to consideration for others. I took the whole 'Look out for Number 1' philosophy a little too literally and am pleased that I've figured this out before I hurt someone.
So now I've said my piece with Designer and I think we're actually going to end up being good friends, which is sooo much better than any other available option.
Life is good when you respect yourself.
aspasia:
Wow. Kudos. I've been trying to be good about temptation lately . . . but it's always so . . . tempting. 
aspasia:
I fear you are a better man than I.
