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I once quit drinking, drugs, girls, everthing....for 28 days. Then I developed this strange liking for coffee, cigarettes, and collecting poker chips and keychains with the neatest little symbols on them. I would go to these lame cult meetings where everyone was all talk....they'd tell you these great stories of all the drugs they used to do, all the alcohol they'd drink, and the women they'd get....but none of em would DO anything anymore! Although if you managed to 'keep coming back' for long enough, you got another neato poker chip or keychain of a DIFFERNT COLOR. WOW. Bunch of old burn-outs....

Couldn't hang with them anymore, and now I'm back! So that probably makes me a bad influence on you....though I'll tell you what little I've learned in my journies. There IS light at the end of the tunnel. You don't have to be out of control all the time. I hardly drink now, and only do certain drugs recreationally. I have a high-paying job, go to work everyday (never high), have friends and family, money, pets, a wife, etc.

My advice:
Find the problems in your life that are causing you to want to escape in the first place. Once you've learned to deal with them (you might need therapy, medication, or just some time to reflect), THEN you can safely come back to reality and be in control of what you do and when.

Yes, unforntantly I have passion for red wine. In so much that I drink 2 glasses everyday and splurge a bit here and there on the weekends. This basically equates to 2 bottles a week (at a mininum). But proudly, I have gain extensive knowledge of what I like in a wine and the type I savor the most with cheese (of course). If its not wine its 2 things; straight jack on the rocks with a slice of lime, or PBR tall boy served with a straw. If you can do without the liquor, then more power to you!

I cant drink it anymore. ever since I drank 3/4 of the white russian kaluha straight by myself in a 2hr time frame. yeah I puked it up .

You are truely beautiful and your eyes are intoxicating...
you seem like you have a cool sense of humor too.. will you tell me a joke? and yes Kaluha is great.. there are so many great drinks you can make with it...

It was so hot Sunday I spent it laying around in a t-shirt and shorts in bed all day long playing, very unskillfully, with a guitar. And.. that's just about it.

I need an air conditioner.

why havent u updated your live journal.. In the famous words of u.. Its not hard =).

well that sums it all up........ what a versatile word.

Its such a great word.

Hey girl,
You have the most amazing blue eyes.

Is your profile pic current? The dark hair really brings out your beautiful blue eyes...wow.

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i don't know your exact situation so sorry if i come across like an ass, but what's stopping you from obtaining what you yearn for? i don't think believing in yourself is self centered, i think it's a positive. hopefully things will start to brighten for you.

mad whack dope love

I hate feeling like that. I had some control over my emotions and the anxiety, but then I got taken off of my mom's medical insurance, so now I can't get a refill for my meds, and it's harder for me to be level-headed. I know what you mean though, I hate being alone too.

you dont by chance live with a couple do you?

i live with 2 couples and im single and it freakin sucks. everynight when i get home there is much coupley love and canoodling and its just a constant reminder of my lonliness. i mean i've got loads of friends i can hang with, girls and guys, but its just not the same ya know?

also, i love the fact you like Oz... it rocks my world. I just got the 3rd season on DVD.

lovely eyes. just say NO to legal cigarettes.

Oh my God! You're gorgeous! Where have you been all my board-life, doll?

well that's to bad it sounded like you really wanted to go

I've got a picture of me when I was a wee tike with spegetti all over me...........ahhh the memories

In a way it's comforting to know I'm not the only one who's had/having financial troubles. Sometimes being an adult sucks