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Went to the doctors today and forgot to ask about depression. I was late so I had to re-schedual with a different MD. Just didnt feel right, ill schedual 2nd appt with my PCP at a later date.

Things seem to be getting worse on other factors, really starting to bum me out to no end. I dont know what to do, other then getting...
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klonopin_chugger:
i don't know your exact situation so sorry if i come across like an ass, but what's stopping you from obtaining what you yearn for? i don't think believing in yourself is self centered, i think it's a positive. hopefully things will start to brighten for you.

mad whack dope love smile kiss smile kiss


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I dont feel good. Im pretty sure im going to break down and have a smoke tonight. Dont think its going to be an issue though with stoping again tomorrow.

Im just very...anshish (fucking spelling) and antisipating something bad. I dont know. Like you know when youre raging and very emotional, like if someone just came up to you and said 'hi', youre gonna break...
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derekthered:
I hate feeling like that. I had some control over my emotions and the anxiety, but then I got taken off of my mom's medical insurance, so now I can't get a refill for my meds, and it's harder for me to be level-headed. I know what you mean though, I hate being alone too.
chezui23:
you dont by chance live with a couple do you?

i live with 2 couples and im single and it freakin sucks. everynight when i get home there is much coupley love and canoodling and its just a constant reminder of my lonliness. i mean i've got loads of friends i can hang with, girls and guys, but its just not the same ya know?

also, i love the fact you like Oz... it rocks my world. I just got the 3rd season on DVD.
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My update, cause I havent done it in a while....

Yeah, havent done anything...

I quit smokeing! yay! no, it sucks. I wanna smoke so bad mad

Going to Nicks friends tonight for a bbq thingy. They all smoke, that blows.

Dyed my hair a redish color. Did I say that already, I think so. Oh well, now you know again. And remember this time! Cause...
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wright:
lovely eyes. just say NO to legal cigarettes.
hexe_____:
Oh my God! You're gorgeous! Where have you been all my board-life, doll? wink
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No, didnt go to Pedro. Shit happends.

Babys birthday was okay. He got a bunch of clothes and toys. It was raining of course so we just had it inside instead. He's so cute, got a bunch of hands (and face) in the cake pictures.

ooo aaa -Chi
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dharmabox:
well that's to bad it sounded like you really wanted to go

I've got a picture of me when I was a wee tike with spegetti all over me...........ahhh the memories biggrin
derekthered:
In a way it's comforting to know I'm not the only one who's had/having financial troubles. Sometimes being an adult sucks blackeyed
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Oh man. I just got a call from some old friends (dads friends) from when we lived in San Pedro. They had moved up to northern Cali about 10 years ago and I havent seen them or anyone from Pedro in so fucking long. Anyways, a friend, Sinbad, is having a birthday party at Point Ferman Park there in Pedro tomorrow and they want me...
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tarnish:
Aww, I hope you get to spend time with old friends again. It's always nice to see friendly faces after a long period of time.

Derek and I had planned on going to The baby's b-day extravaganza on Sunday, but sadly, one of the little bitch-ass's at his work decided to whine and whimper about never getting Sunday off, so they scheduled Derek instead. Give Candace a hug for me?

Nikki
dharmabox:
Did you get to go sounds like a great oportunity to catch up with old friends and keep the connections alive. take care of yourself will ya?


btw put the seat down all week hoping that it will offset any other lifes lessons for a while! biggrin
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okay yeah, I didnt want to say what I had gotten Nick for Valentines day in case he saw this before he got it. I got him the biggest bottle of Jack I could find and a porn of his favorite chicky, Veronika Zemenova. He was pretty stoked. I did good. biggrin



And thank you all for the nice words. Im feeling a little better now.
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klonopin_chugger:
what a coincidence!! my that's what my mom got my dad this year.....only his porno featured ron jeremy. whatever

glad your feelin better!! smile


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pulloffmywings:
heh, good gift smile

good taste in music and movies, fear and loathing rocks my little world!

found u cuz i'm gonna run away to cali, and was lookin for some kids from around there.
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Ok, Ok, Ok! I'll update! Jeeze man... tongue

Well, I had my first flowers delieverd to me at work. Nick sent me flowers with a big pink bow around the vace (I love pink) and aBuild-A-Bear . It was very fucking sweet, I cried. Bastard, made my makeup run right as I got to work. hehe
I got him, well, I'll tell you later. But...
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dharmabox:
Just saw my first build a bear store (or something like it) at McCarthur mall in Norfolk yesterday very cool!
hope you got to see Nick this weekend that should put a little pep back in your smile after all that sadness!

drinks on me if you run out! kiss
vandan:
hey kristall, sorry to hear the bad new about you friends dog and her parents. its really sweet of nick to send you flowers. hope everything is well. smile

daniel wink
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Okay, I need to update. But.....shit has happend.

Um lets see... Cant go to Sea World for the babys birthday cause im a broke bitch. umm...Im in the middle again on Jess and Candace fighting.

Gonna dye my hair again, prolly a brown. I dont know. I get bored way too eaisley.

Theres some job openings at my bf's work, which I could probabley do....
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dharmabox:
Alright girl..tapping foot....you pass out on the irish car bombs

update update! wink
klonopin_chugger:
hello? ECHO ECHO ECHO... confused


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Yeah, I get bored alot. So I stole this.


- Straight/gay/bi? straight
- Single? relationship
- Want to be? Yes
- Your birth date: 7/1/82
- Your age: 21
- Age you act: haha, no. Well, at work yeah, sometimes.
- Age you wish you were: Same, 21
- Your height: 5'5
- The color of your eyes: blue
- Happy with them? Not really,...
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wigglefree:
surreal
wigglefree:
DK as in dead kennidies?

or DK as in "I go to hot topic a lot"?

are you a trustworthy drug dealer?

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"In the third circle, you find yourself amidst eternal rain, maledict, cold, and heavy. The gluttons are punished here, lying in the filthy mixture of shadows and of putrid water. Because you consumed in excess, you meet your fate beneath the cold, dirty rain, amidst the other souls that there lay unhappily in the stinking mud. Cerebus, a canine monster cruel and uncouth with his...
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tarnish:
Oh, and I got my undies at Wal-Mart. hehe. I think they were $4, they have cute little ladie bugs on the front and on the ass it says "I've got a serious case of the Love Bugs" They're cute. you can see an example of them in my pics, or in my latest set in the Dangerous Curves Group. smile
jv:
Ya, I love good days...

Hopefully today matches.
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Nothing happend since last entry....Im not a very exciting person. Work and, thats about it. Nice compliment from my manager. She said theres no one like me, Id be hard to replace. Made my day.

I miss my sweetie, a lot. I get to see him this weekend though. Makes all the bad things that happend to me this week go away. But its getting...
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unique3:
I know how you feel. I dated a guy who lived almost 2 1/2 hrs away. it was really hard. hopefull you can work through it though!! smile
dharmabox:
was on derrickthereds journal and saw your profile. Just felt compelled to tell you that you have the most brilliant blue eyes. wow!


....now go get your license and see this boy thats got you all silly crazy in love I'm sure you would make his day to! smile
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Eh...okay weekend. I got to see my Nickey for a bit, we went to Coldstone Creamery. mmmm He's such a sweety. I really do love him sometimes. tongue funny guy me!

Babysat last night for Candace (yeah, thats my Saturday night, arnt I a fun guy) and got to give Nathan his baby Converse I got for him. He's such a stud.

Steped in puke this morning,...
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klonopin_chugger:
wow puke sploshin, no better way to wake up huh? good luck with work. and as for your hair, YOU CAN DO IT! biggrin
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klonopin_chugger:
the wrasslin was kinda lame, but i had good friends to keep me company. yea i'm 98% sure i want to teach, i'm gonna start volunteering next week.
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