I have a confession to make....
It is a little over 1 week (well, one week and 2 days but who is counting?!?) until my second set hits member review and I have to say I am very anxious for it to hit! It isn't like this is my first set, which was very exciting as well! This is my second set...and for some reason, the anticipation is killing me more so than the first set.
I wonder why this is....is it because I am afraid it won't do as well as my first set? Is it because it is black and white and I think it may or may not do well? Is it because I feel like I am more confident in this set? I think maybe, even though I know sort of what to expect when it hits member review (comments and likes...hopefully!), I don't know what to expect....if that makes any sense. Will this set get more love or less? What will the comments be? Will this set have a chance of getting bought?
It sounds weird, but I constantly stalk my own page. I look at my upcoming second set, Call Me Alice Capone, and look at how many days are left until it hits Member Review. Every day I do this and my anticipation grows. It takes me a second to look at it and go "one more day down." I have a countdown clock on my phone until this set goes up....yes I am weird. I don't think though my anticipation is just me though. I know many babes on here, Hopeful or Suicidegirl, probably feel the same way I do! Having a countdown clock on their phone...well....if you do let me know! We can countdown the days/weeks/months together! Hahahaha :)
As I am still considering myself a newbie, I only have two sets done (with number 3 booked and comments regarding on what type of set I should do, cosplay or one with lingerie/bodysuit, have been noted with lingerie in the running!).....so I only see my upcoming set and first set for photos on my phone. I still get super excited when I see even one more like on my debut set....to the point I have told my friends "I got another like on my set!" Not 10 likes, or 100 likes....not even 2.....only 1. It means so much to me that even one additional click of love on my set makes me happy. Knowing that someone saw my set, even after is has been up since June last year and cared to love it and sometimes comment on it, means the world to me.
I don't have high self esteem, which you may or may not be able to tell in my sets haha. I can't say it enough that being on here is really helping me combat that....but every now and then it rears its unattractive head. My thoughts come back and tell me I'm not pretty enough and not perfect enough to ever make it to my ultimate dream, which of course is to turn pink! I'm getting better at dealing with it and saying that its not true and that good things take time sometimes. Then I remind myself, my profile says "Hopeful since 2017".....what about these ladies who are still hopefuls and have been way longer than I? They are waiting for their chance too and have been longer than I. They keep at it and I can too....and I am happy to see that many of them finally are achieving their dreams and goals! I won't let me self-esteem get the best of me and tell me otherwise. These beautiful babes keep trying and I can too.
I want to end this blog with a thank you....to all the members, hopefuls, suicidegirls and staff who have given love and/or comments to my set (and my upcoming set!). Let's go beyond that too.....that take the time to comment on or like anything I post! I appreciate all the support and know that it very much means a lot to me. I love you all so much and can't wait to see your comments and love on my next set (if you indeed love it of course) <3