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sometimes I have to step back from everything and gain a little perspective.

remember this...

what the catepillar calls the end of the world the observer calls a butterfly.

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oliv:
I like that I will try to remeber that. Sorry for not getting back to you I went to the coast. Fun stuff. I may or may not go to Eugene this weekend to see a friend but if not we should hang out. O.

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clara:
That's a great philosophy when you hear it in your head, but I'd hate to see it on a mug.
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All is well on the home front. I have picked up some reading and I am delving into it ... I think, well I don't know what to think but good things or coming that is for sure.

I saw this the other day and I really liked it. I am not currently feeling this way but I think it describes how I was feeling...
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sluttygoodgirl:
It sounds like things are moving in the right direction for you, I'm glad smile
sluttygoodgirl:
It does give me hope.
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Well two things are happening today...

one is something that I have always kind of wanted and I was not sure. Today I took the first steps towards it, just exploring. When I am ready to talk about it you will know. smile

The other, well it has to do with how I have been feeling and it started yesterday. Ask me again Monday and I...
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sassitude:
yeah, way to be cryptic, buddy! Just leave us hanging... wink
sluttygoodgirl:
You sure do know how to tease!! wink But it all sounds good...I think.... smile
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today I had a interesting read.... very.

I think I realized something about me that I did not realize before. Now I need to go digest that information.

Hope your having a good day. The Sun is out... time to play. smile
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tiffanymarie:
I'm so stoked, it is such a relief to have a nicer car. You're right, it is time to alter my fantasy.
oliv:
hey I just wanted to say hello, it is a very good day! I love the sun. How are you doing? O.
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weekends over, and back to the ol' work week. God help me let this week be more interesting and busy than last week.

anything exciting coming up for you?
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beatrice:
both. he doesn't want to make me sad and he doesn't want to feel guilty for making me sad. however, by avoiding me to not make me sad, only makes me the saddest. it's just crappy.
beatrice:
i think it's a little different considering our history. there were never any games like you and h had going on either. i just want him in my life. i know we're not going to get back together, i'm not holding out or anything. i don't want years to go by without talking to him. life is too short.
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last night was fun, lots of friends and some family and a tiny smidgen of debauchery.. good times! I have some photo's I will add them in after I get the downloaded off my sisters camera.

Today is relaxtion today. Even made it to Yoga today!! Woot Woot!!

Well hope you are doing well and chat with you all soon.
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beatrice:
there's one man whom i've loved more than anything i could imagine. he stopped loving me a while ago. it's hard for him to be around me. i found out last might he's moving to another country next week. i don't think he was going to tell me. part of why i stayed in portland was because he still lived in oregon, even though i never got to see him. my heart is broken all over again.
beatrice:
i stayed away to some degree. i've known him my whole life, more than anything i wanted us to stay friends and i don't really understand why he didn't want that too. he's been living in ashland for almost a year now, and i've only seen him 3 times or so since then--and all by his choice of course. we were together for 10 years and have been broken up for about 2 i guess. i don't see that feeling going away anytime soon. i hate being so sad. i want everything to be all right with us, you know? he was my best friend.
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Friday night. I just did not feel like going out.... went to my first Friday night Yoga class. Not so crowded that is for sure.

Well tomorrow is my birthday and I am having a gathering of a few friends at Touche' at 7pm. Hopefully some good times to take my mind off other things.

Right now I am just happy for my friends and...
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tiffanymarie:
I'll have to check it out. Where exactly is it?
sluttygoodgirl:
Hmmm....I don't know what to think. I can't even figure out the man I have been with for 18 years! tongue I'm surprised to hear that she doesn't know how you feel about her though....

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hrrrmmmm...

off to work. I am soooo bored at work these days. Not enough to do and too much time. whatever

Sheesh it seems to run in cycles from madness to boredom and now is a down cycle.

Lots of web surfing but cannot get to SG from there.

Okay well another day spent doing personal email and surfing the net. biggrin
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lilyk:
i notice you did not post in teh teabagging thread....
lilyk:
it does have bright colors, yes wink
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Friends, Colleagues, Countrymen... hehe.. tongue

This ends our broadcast day. I hope the day has brought you some smiles and laughter to go with the local rain showers. Day's like today make me want to curl up with a good book or possibly a movie and ???

On that note.

"The Bourne Identity" Who knew it would end with a love story? Ahhhh Hollywood if only...
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home for lunch.

having long email conversations with my sister about love and relationships etc.. etc..

we are so alike in some ways but so different in others. She loves more easily but I think she has different standards than I... not sure.

Me. I give completely when I do but am very wary before I jump in.
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oliv:
oh about WCI, I heard it was too exspenive. you're just paying for the name and it doesn't work here in Portland because of a bad reputation. I guess, this is all from other peoples' opinions. O.
cybele:
I always tend to err on the side of caution, myself. (Until very recently, I was living a life that could be considered down right monastic! Chickenshit me!)

Finding the proper balance between protecting oneself and yet allowing oneself to be open to the possibility of love can be SO very challenging.

Dating ain't for sissies...that's for SURE. smile

(Thanks for the words of encouragement. The hobgoblin hordes have been temporarily pacified.)

PS: Glad you enjoyed the art work.



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thinking about taking some cooking demo classes. My sister did it and really enjoyed them. She took them at Whole Foods but Sur La Table has the same thing. Not sure which I might be interested in but I think I have to go down and check out the facilities and see where I think I will feel most comfortable then take a class or...
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oliv:
what ever you do don't take them @ Western Culinary, I heard some bad things about WCI.
So I read Wayne W. Dyer, although it's been a little while since I picked up his book. I try to pratice what he talks about but that thing, uhmmmmm-my ego, gets in the way from time to time. You should check out one of his books, Manifest Your Destiny, sounds like the book for you at this time of conquring something. I'm sure he has a website but I don't know what it is. Check it out. smile
n8tvegrl:
I might be getting some people together for a Friday afternoon/early evening gathering at Auto's Pub in Vancouver if you're free. I will have to turn into a pumpkin around 8:00 so I am trying to meet close to my house (selfish I know) so I have more time.

Let me know and I'll give you my number and directions!

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All is quiet, almost too quiet. Off to Yoga here in a bit and not much planned for the remainder of the day from there.

then dive back into the work week. another week down and another week of distance put in. The ups and downs are still there but the downs are not as intense. We shall see how it feels the next time...
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beatrice:
so what kind of yoga are you doing? have you changed your diet as well? i think any kind of motivation is good, revenge might actually be the best one since there's like an endless supply of it. i'd be surprised if this new guy lasts for heidi, but even if they do, it doesn't mean it would have worked out for you. she missed out and there's someone better waiting to meet you i'm sure...
beatrice:
i'm pretty secluded in my area of the hospitel--i could recommend some good eye surgeons, but that's about the extent of it. i'm against plastic surgery. why would you need it if you're doing so well on your own?