boundcreature

its cold in my room today and a bit empty... too many words in my head from the library again... it was alright though, i learned a bit and found an excellent book that turned out to be everything that i was looking for in the world of customer-friendly interface design... i listened to TYPE O NEGATIVE while i was reading, something about that band makes them magnificent background music, i think its the organ mixed with peter steele's voice... i dunno, if i ever get to make-out with a girl again i think i want to listen to TYPE O; BLOODY KISSES would be as good of a make-out album as DANZIG II: LUCIFUGE (a certain granny's favorite), i usually stick to ZIGGY STARDUST and ALADDIN SANE myself, sometimes i like VELVET DARKNESS THEY FEAR by THEATRE OF TRAGEDY, whats your favorite make-out music?

i want to lie down somewhere warm and stretch out all of the tightened, under-used muscles in my body. i want to feel my body alive. i feel like an untuned guitar that has been shoved under a lazy kids mattress for two years. take me out. wind my muscles up tight and watch me live.

i want to be poked and prodded and scraped and scratched.

i want to feel teeth on me.

i want to know that i am a living breathing creature.

i want to communicate through touch and sight, there are too many words.

i want to be pushed. i want to feel contact.

i want my wordless scream to be returned with something added.

i want to fall asleep in an impossibly large pile of blankets and wake up one day later.

i want to kiss your contours.

i want to explore your beauty.

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crazy boy. i know. i sit down and it just comes out. that's what is in my brain. there's a very good chance the next person that comes into this room is going to get the back of their neck kissed... probably not darryl though, he doesn't deserve it... and not lindsey, cuz that would be weird.