i'm gonna try going to bed before 1am tonight. i was an hour and a half late for work today. that is 22.50 less in my paycheck on friday, that is 1/2 of the amount i spend on groceries each week (or the next volume of The Maxx collected editions). This shit has gotta stop, so I bought a second alarm clock today, I'm hoping that if two separate alarms go off within ten minutes of each other I'll be so confused that I'll have to wake up.
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I finally picked my final two favorite SG's (the last two I had up were really just place holders). So I feel pretty happy about that now, my picky ass was finally able to pick a full five. Its funny though, that except for Elara they all have that same type of black-hair-pale-skin-pretty-face thing going on. I'm such a simple boy sometimes. I find it so hard to break from this archetype and be interested in other types of girls.
I think Fleur is really attractive, like take me down to the pretty-face-city where the grass is green kind of attractive (that's a little G n' R for y'all). I mean, thats probably a silly and obvious thing to say on a site such as this, but its the first time I've felt the need to comment publicly on such matters.
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I got an email the other day from a very new friend of mine. She said some very nice things about some comics of mine that I did about two years ago (I haven't done any comics since then). So today, I just said fuckit and pushed the website stuff aside for a little bit and started working out the story for my next comic. I've been meaning to work on it for weeks and weeks, but it just never happens. Days keep going by.
It was so humbling (which is not a word that I am used to) to me that artwork I feel is dodgy and dated was able to have a strong enough impact on someone that they felt the need to write me an email and demand that I produce more comics;and even with the perceptiveness of noting that I obviously love making comics more than any other activity in the universe.
Thanks.
The comic in question should be pretty cool. I'm gonna try some new techniques. One of which will be transitioning from a conversation between two people to a flashback by blending the two images together with pen and ink cross-hatching. I think it'll be tricky, but I've done it a little before and I think I can pull it off.
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I'm starting to think I gotta get on the ball with this meeting girls thing. My standard tactic of "looking cute until a girl blatantly throws herself at me" works occasionally (surprisingly enough) but it is not very consistent. Its kinda like fishing, where you gotta just sit there with the bait in the water all day, sometimes drag it around the pond, let everyone get a look at it. Yeah, I need a better plan, but see the problem is that I don't have any interest in talking to a girl until she completely knocks me out with either how she looks or how she moves or a combination of the two... and of course, after she does that, I'm already intimidated, so there goes that plan. I should go to the library, there were tons of hot girls at the library when I was there the last couple of times. I could be all like "So, I hear the books here are free..." or "Hey, baby I got a Moby Dick for you..."
sorry.
But, I've been thinking about this heartbreaker girl thing and fuck man I gotta move on. Even if I just have sham relationships that don't mean anything to me, I have to start putting space and history in between me and her. I don't think I can do real tenderness right now, cuz I can't give it back. It would just be me being pitied. But, I'm sure I can have some kind of crappy surface-level relationship that will at least get me back into that mindset...
I've been thinking of the analogy of coats on a bed at a party. The heartbreaker was the first coat on the pile and right now I can still see her. So, I gotta get more coats on that bed, pile them up, forget about the coat on the bottom, forget what made it so distinct, why it was special or recognizable...
That's not so healthy. But I think its better for now. I think I'm too wrapped up in my work to have anything but a god-crushing heart-stopping soul-matey type of john cusack sure thing/say anything fantasy-based relationship anyway.
i don't want to fuck around with the middle ground and hurt someone's feelings.
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I finally picked my final two favorite SG's (the last two I had up were really just place holders). So I feel pretty happy about that now, my picky ass was finally able to pick a full five. Its funny though, that except for Elara they all have that same type of black-hair-pale-skin-pretty-face thing going on. I'm such a simple boy sometimes. I find it so hard to break from this archetype and be interested in other types of girls.
I think Fleur is really attractive, like take me down to the pretty-face-city where the grass is green kind of attractive (that's a little G n' R for y'all). I mean, thats probably a silly and obvious thing to say on a site such as this, but its the first time I've felt the need to comment publicly on such matters.
***
I got an email the other day from a very new friend of mine. She said some very nice things about some comics of mine that I did about two years ago (I haven't done any comics since then). So today, I just said fuckit and pushed the website stuff aside for a little bit and started working out the story for my next comic. I've been meaning to work on it for weeks and weeks, but it just never happens. Days keep going by.
It was so humbling (which is not a word that I am used to) to me that artwork I feel is dodgy and dated was able to have a strong enough impact on someone that they felt the need to write me an email and demand that I produce more comics;and even with the perceptiveness of noting that I obviously love making comics more than any other activity in the universe.
Thanks.
The comic in question should be pretty cool. I'm gonna try some new techniques. One of which will be transitioning from a conversation between two people to a flashback by blending the two images together with pen and ink cross-hatching. I think it'll be tricky, but I've done it a little before and I think I can pull it off.
***
I'm starting to think I gotta get on the ball with this meeting girls thing. My standard tactic of "looking cute until a girl blatantly throws herself at me" works occasionally (surprisingly enough) but it is not very consistent. Its kinda like fishing, where you gotta just sit there with the bait in the water all day, sometimes drag it around the pond, let everyone get a look at it. Yeah, I need a better plan, but see the problem is that I don't have any interest in talking to a girl until she completely knocks me out with either how she looks or how she moves or a combination of the two... and of course, after she does that, I'm already intimidated, so there goes that plan. I should go to the library, there were tons of hot girls at the library when I was there the last couple of times. I could be all like "So, I hear the books here are free..." or "Hey, baby I got a Moby Dick for you..."
sorry.
But, I've been thinking about this heartbreaker girl thing and fuck man I gotta move on. Even if I just have sham relationships that don't mean anything to me, I have to start putting space and history in between me and her. I don't think I can do real tenderness right now, cuz I can't give it back. It would just be me being pitied. But, I'm sure I can have some kind of crappy surface-level relationship that will at least get me back into that mindset...
I've been thinking of the analogy of coats on a bed at a party. The heartbreaker was the first coat on the pile and right now I can still see her. So, I gotta get more coats on that bed, pile them up, forget about the coat on the bottom, forget what made it so distinct, why it was special or recognizable...
That's not so healthy. But I think its better for now. I think I'm too wrapped up in my work to have anything but a god-crushing heart-stopping soul-matey type of john cusack sure thing/say anything fantasy-based relationship anyway.
i don't want to fuck around with the middle ground and hurt someone's feelings.
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i know... i'm just tired.
[Edited on Jun 22, 2004 2:16PM]
and sorry you missed the chocolate apocalypse!