Everything is getting so old. Sex...sex mostly, actually. God. Im fucking 22 years old and already tired of sex??? Thats never good. You know...I dont think that its sex that im tired of. I think that its sex that leads to nothing that I am tired of. Though I have only had sex 3 times since I left Brandon, I dont like the feeling I get when I sleep with someone and then dont talk to them anymore. And each of the guys I did sleep with, I honestly hoped something would come of it, but it never does. And this feeling that it leaves me with. I hate that most of all. dirty, used, unwanted. Its all something that would send a weaker person right into a straight jacket. So why then do I keep letting the shit happen? Because its attention. I dont get alot of attention, and when someone shows the SLIGHTEST interest...thats it.
I fucking hate me.
I fucking hate me.
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The tired-of-sex feeling will pass - it's just a normal mind/body neurochemical response to the negative emotions you feel after sex with nothing following. It has nothing to do with age. I'm a couple decades older than you and I still experience it from time to time - not as often now as I am less likely to have sex for sex's sake if I detect the slightest chance it'll leave me with those feelings. I do have an intermittent fuck-buddy and have had successful 'meaningless' sex, but you learn to be better at judging.
Lakme's right. You don't have to have sex just because there's an option at the moment. I'm far from being James Bond and even I have some choices to make as to whether or not to be with someone. YOu being a beautiful young woman, you'll have many more options than me, and yes, beautiful women will attract a lot of assholes, but also some nice guys, too. Don't give up. Just keep your eyes open and you'll learn to prejudge to spme extent when it's right.
And many of us hate ourselves at times; it's Nature's way of making us constantly take a self-inventory.