billybillybilly

used to think, now and again, that i'm a vampire. but that's not true. i am a wolf. i am the wolf in the book about the girl with the red cloak. oddly enough, i'm also the girl.

odder still, i'm also the cloak.

things cycled themselves and the world is pensive, i'm pensive. what a phenominal word.

i get in certain moods and i...
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searching harder this time, want to find real love. gotta increase my chances, gotta play bad odds.

being abandoned isn't anything to take lightly, and i haven't. this life isn't fit for me, but i'm going to work through it.

i'm going to force a square peg through a round world. even feeling like this, i've gotta keep it together.

UPDATE: wednesday, 2:04am - you can understand that i went to sleep happy.

okay. so.

got all my hair chopped off.
shaved the face.
got a new coat.
feelin' like a million bucks.
gonna be smashed.
gonna go to work on thursday.
gonna rock a world or three.

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on a note completely unrelated, i'm giving all i can to be...
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sometime in two thousand, maybe just before.

there was a lot of snow. i remember that much for sure. hanging out with Jocelyn at "videos on broadway." local movie store, better of the two. she was a year older which obviously made me cool.

high school dreams. i wrote a lot of poetry, a lot of it was bad but not all.

being in the...
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Update, Monday, 10:40 - Binge Count, 5 nights. Last night and the night before were spent mostly in oblivion. Fucking lovely.

Not out of the woods yet. If anyone wants to know what happens if you drop off a waterfall, I'll tell you. What happens, in fact, is you fall straight down, down and down, and you fall farther and faster and straight into the...
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absence (in association with alcohol) makes the heart grow fonder.

| THREE OF THEM |

what were we up to there... it was over $250 wasn't it? easy work... "yeah, maybe for you..." (internal monologue's a bitch)

i refuse. i simply flat out refuse.

i'm an insecure boy.

look down at my legs, think about my chest, up the stairs my knee twists and i think about that too, skinny arms, and i wore the...
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I have a personality not unlike Jello. That is to say, that rather than describing my traits in people-descriptive terms, it's much more accurate to use those of Jello.

Example:

Bob was a nice man. His courage inspires us all. And when you go to the store with him, Bob is not only a price savvy bargain shopper, he is also the master of finding...
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Benni danced while we all gawked.

Tegan showed me around the Mall of America earlier.

Trixie played Interpol and thus gained at least one hundred and fifty points in my cool person book.

ViolentlyHappy was just an all around standup guy and gave me CocaCola to drink and may possibly have had just slightly too much to drink himself.

Roby was an absolute sweetheart and...
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