Sometimes in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow
Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow...
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We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow
Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow...
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LaShawn is gone. Fundementally speaking. She's gone. She's left SG, she has her old man back in her life and she's gone. Another door closed. Another window shattered. But fuck, why does THIS one hurt this much?
She's gone and she has a lot of good valid reasons why. She has situations that would make a lot of us cringe in understanding. I know all...
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She's gone and she has a lot of good valid reasons why. She has situations that would make a lot of us cringe in understanding. I know all...
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insomnia:
Believe me when I say "I truly feel for you"
Hopefully in time all will be well again.
Hopefully in time all will be well again.
krim:
I know it's so cliche but hang on, it'll only make you stronger in the end. Well maybe depressed, heartbroken, and lonely but i guess something will be stronger. Damn i'm a downer. At least you have some very special people to lean on in your time of need. Those are the important people in your life.
I've been known to drop some serious blunt statements in my writing. But I've also been known to apologize for making statements that suck. This is one of them. Chattanooga HAS a scene and it's alive and well. Going to a show last night that rocked like the shows I used to go to back in New Haven made me feel like I was alive...
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thelastbeliever:
Start driving school? Can you not drive? Me either 
daghost:
I cannot read all of that, but. You need to get laid. Go get a girlfriend. And remember, Pretty girls make Graves.
[Edited on Jan 18, 2005 10:32AM]
[Edited on Jan 18, 2005 10:32AM]
I'm so glad I have you to think of,
To channel all my loving energy into.
Even though my feelings aren't returned,
And in time I won't think about you this way,
That still doesn't stop me,
If just for now, wishing we were each other's baby
-- from "Of Montreal - Baby"
- Opening Salvos: A More Social Love -
I just finished watching...
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To channel all my loving energy into.
Even though my feelings aren't returned,
And in time I won't think about you this way,
That still doesn't stop me,
If just for now, wishing we were each other's baby
-- from "Of Montreal - Baby"
- Opening Salvos: A More Social Love -
I just finished watching...
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insomnia:
What a romantic! love the peotry! of course girls want you! I'd suggest trying other places than just the bedroom though. (kitchen table, recliner, shower ect.) Just kidding 
and hey about the girls being out of state, maybe it is time for you to become a traveling man! You know what I mean.
and hey about the girls being out of state, maybe it is time for you to become a traveling man! You know what I mean. 
hot_rod:
ate at waffle house at 3 in the morning, and found out theat they do not take credit cards. WTF? damn your work! 
There's been a pain in the back of my head now since Sunday morning when I came off shift. It hurts. It's like a muscle strain that I get when I'm all tensual. I think I had it Wednesday night when I was running around like a maniac after Amy's sandbagging and it just never got better. Lessened a bit but I wonder...now it's just...
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insomnia:
Hey, I just joined and HeXeK said you were a cool dude! So just thought I'd pay a little visit. Hey I wanna be in a league too! What about a league of a few good men and 1 woman
insomnia:
Oh how sweet! you let me into the group AND you called me CUTE. Your my new bud!
I think it needs to be said that a gin and tonic (Bombay Blue Sapphire, baby! 
), a couple of advil, three PB&J's and about 6 hours of fevered sleep is just the cure for a massive headache and a need to kill human beings. I'm sitting here right now with the remnants of a headache, a full belly, a haze in my eye and...
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), a couple of advil, three PB&J's and about 6 hours of fevered sleep is just the cure for a massive headache and a need to kill human beings. I'm sitting here right now with the remnants of a headache, a full belly, a haze in my eye and... Read More
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pebbles:
I need to find me a guy to just play around with.........
Some comments and thoughts came up in my head this early morn as insomnia ruins me again. I thought to myself, "Self, while the CD's full of joy of painting episodes burn on the computer, let's jot down some of these thoughts while they are still fresh." And I concurred. So here we go.
- I Hate White Horse Syndrome -
White Horse Syndrome is...
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White Horse Syndrome is...
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thelastbeliever:
I never have anything to say on your journal entries that i think will be fitting. I really do enjoy reading them in a kind of "fly on the wall" sort of way. It's really great how open you are about everything and to take a peek into someone elses life is both fascinating and motivating. It allows me to listen to a contrast of my own life, coming from someone who is much the opposite of me in many ways.
It almost feels like when you play a mind absorbing computer game or watch an indepth well acted/scriped film. It lets me be transported to somewhere else and for a few minutes, forget who and where i am. You're a good man. Keep that chin up.
It almost feels like when you play a mind absorbing computer game or watch an indepth well acted/scriped film. It lets me be transported to somewhere else and for a few minutes, forget who and where i am. You're a good man. Keep that chin up.
hexek:
Well as usual I see how good of a person you are and you show. I love how honest and open you are in your journals its trully like seeing deep into your soul. And thats why I as many other people can see that you are an amazing individual.
As far as what you want to try and do, be open and willing. Get away from the stereotype and no matter age, sex, preffence, location get to know people. The more you go out and try to expand your life expieriences the more you will learn to find out what is in that last peel of the onion and you can truely find yourself and happiness.
You will, and like me it seems like you want it right away. But enjoy the exploring and experimenting and relax. You will get what you truelly deserve after a while. Nice guys dont finish last. They only get turned down by the white horse beautiful blondes who go for the white horse athletic guy. And you want pureity not vanity.
Good luck man, really. Drop me a line if you need anything.
As far as what you want to try and do, be open and willing. Get away from the stereotype and no matter age, sex, preffence, location get to know people. The more you go out and try to expand your life expieriences the more you will learn to find out what is in that last peel of the onion and you can truely find yourself and happiness.
You will, and like me it seems like you want it right away. But enjoy the exploring and experimenting and relax. You will get what you truelly deserve after a while. Nice guys dont finish last. They only get turned down by the white horse beautiful blondes who go for the white horse athletic guy. And you want pureity not vanity.
Good luck man, really. Drop me a line if you need anything.
It's the afternoon of the 2nd and it's time for another session on the pissy pot. Yay. I get so tired sometimes of writing these entries and not being able to do much about them. Oh well. Hopefully I'lll be getting a fat paycheck this week so I can start my driving lessons. I so need to get driving. I so need to start showing...
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thelastbeliever:
You got yourself a deal my man. If you come over then heads will roll.
pebbles:
So how are you feeling hun? Any better? 
It's the last day of the year and it's time to write an entry. Joy. I do believe that sometimes this is the only shit keeping me alive. And if an internet porn/social/elitist community is the only damned thing I look forward to then I'm so screwed.
I haven't wanted to write as of late. The isolation depression has come back big time and it's...
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thelastbeliever:
Happy new year fella. All the best and i hope the new year brings you loads of luck and stuff.
infinitelykaty:
Whenever I think about how hard it is to "fit in", I think of something Henry Rollins says on The End Of Silence:
some people are better left alone
And then I usually cry. But Henry Rollins is an outcast and a total badass...so we kind of have good company in our no company.
Anyway, happy new year...
some people are better left alone
And then I usually cry. But Henry Rollins is an outcast and a total badass...so we kind of have good company in our no company.
Anyway, happy new year...
I had this big list of things I wanted to write about as that is the custom for me as a writer in my journals. Always has been. But I cannot find the list. I only vaugely remember the list and there are other things I want to talk about.
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suzy_kabloozy:
Honey bunches ... refer to my November 17th post if you think I don't know about addiction!
The only problem with Crystal is it makes you think bigger thoughts than most people's brains need to think. I'm sorry you are sad. I know what you mean. Today I am happy but there is no guarantee for tomorrow. I just know if I give in to the substance problem, hey, I can be thinking big thoughts again myself!
You know what the connection told me last week? He said I was too smart to do drugs. Now this is not the same thing that my mom used to say ... even though he used the same words. What he meant was: I think too much as it is and when I am tweaking, I am freakin' hectic!
Oh, and happy belated birthday, baby! Had I known, I would have baked ya a cake.
The only problem with Crystal is it makes you think bigger thoughts than most people's brains need to think. I'm sorry you are sad. I know what you mean. Today I am happy but there is no guarantee for tomorrow. I just know if I give in to the substance problem, hey, I can be thinking big thoughts again myself!
You know what the connection told me last week? He said I was too smart to do drugs. Now this is not the same thing that my mom used to say ... even though he used the same words. What he meant was: I think too much as it is and when I am tweaking, I am freakin' hectic!
Oh, and happy belated birthday, baby! Had I known, I would have baked ya a cake.
pebbles:
So how are you doing? Feeling any better?
I will definately check out that website...Hopefully it will offer me some good feedback and ideas...
I am off to take more shots today...
I'll post them later on so check back with my pics and tell me what you think...
*smooches you back*