beqa

So....some of you may have noticed that my pics have shrunk by quite a large chunk overnight.

Or not.

I'm currently torn between 2 things I want very very very much but are very very very conflicting....

In the meantime I am making a stew.

and dying for a cigarette.

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vanhij:

Count me as +1 in the fan members. Whatever you choose to do may it make you happy and those who care will follow.

Mar 21, 2012

beqa:

Want to say a quick lil THANK YOU to you all for your kind words & unwavering support! THIS is why I love the SG community so much.

Mar 21, 2012

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mrdave1369:

sorry I'm so far away, I would most definitely have had your back, that ankle isn't looking so good, is the swelling going down any? <3

Mar 19, 2012

lectorvyal:

if a guy grabs your ass.....punch em in the balls...

Mar 19, 2012

Update on car sitz:
Fixing the door, replacing the window switch (armrest) & a few other things, cleaning the inside of the car to remove as much of the smell as possible. Everything is being covered by Honda & free of charge! YAY!

Which means I don't have to argue with them about why they should pay, which makes me very very very happy cuz...
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mrdave1369:

hugs

Mar 16, 2012

dcruz:

yay, glad to hear they're fixing it all free of charge ! ah what can I say, it might somewhat be related to that odd lag that Civics also had... I'm sure it's not a bad car but hybrids aren't awesome in my book, I'll always prefer a fuel engine, if only for the sweet sound... glad you're alive and well though ! *big hugs*

Mar 16, 2012

I love the smell of burning plastic in the morning...smells like FML. Car door caught on FIRE while driving to work today. FML

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evil_dad:

You're lucky the window rolled down first really. i was in a truck that had a wiring fire, and almost didn't make it out! Very poisonous!

Mar 15, 2012

littlejohn22:

wow.... this should not cost you a dime... they should totally be on the hook for this

Mar 15, 2012

OK.
I made a decision. I initially made it as a compromise to the on/off but as he is probably off for good...

But I still think the decision has valid merits.

I am going to do 2 more sets for SG & then quit. If i can put up 2 sets that I believe are Front Page worthy (in my own opinion) & I...
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semiretiredpunk:

98% of the population tests postitive for Herpes 1. Don't think you're specially nasty or anything.

Mar 14, 2012

78walk:

One thing I think you are absolutely on target about is making new sets that please you and your sense of aesthetics. Focusing too much on winning and the approval of others is the path to an unhappy life.

John Elway was one of the best quarterbacks in the history of football, but he never won a Super Bowl until the final two years of his career. There are a limitless number of things completely beyond his control that could have gone just slightly differently and prevented him from ever winning a championship. The critical point to keep in mind is even if things had turned out differently and the championships never happened, he would have been the same person and the same player. Striving hard for success is great, but it's very unwise to look at results as the primary indicator of quality. We all lose far more often than we win.

Such a large percentage of the population has herpes, I can't imagine it being a significant issue in your social life going forward. Disclosure before sex is of course the right thing to do, but I think the chances that a potential partner will spurn you over that issue are extremely small.

On the love issue, you have to find a way to detach your emotions from your behavior. When you stop smoking, you're still going to crave cigarettes and quitting will not be easy. However, you will choose not to smoke anymore because as a rational person, you know that while smoking may feel good, cigarettes are very bad for you. People and relationships are not really much different. Some are toxic and have to be avoided at all costs, no matter how strong their appeal may be.

Mar 15, 2012

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ihsv1683:

if you cut it like that you get two cuts in one....Noomi got the mohawk going too!!

Mar 13, 2012

beqa:

villarule the hawk was in Hornet's Nest - her hair was longer in the 2nd & 3rd movies, no hawk when her hair was this short, altho the thought HAD crossed my mind.

LittleJohn22 NO on the blue. I had a blue streak in my hair once....never again....6mo later it was still there but greenish & had to have hair stripped (FOUR TIMES) and when that still didn't get rid of it, they just dyed it to try & match my hair...still had green tint but I just tucked it til it was totally gone (a year later).

I had thought of going ginger red with a few streaks of the nuclear red (color of hair in 1st set)...or i might go for hair that is nuclear red at the ends only...or ginger with blonde streaks...or streaks of ginger, blonde & nuclear red mixed all together (altho i think that will look stupid on short hair...maybe save that for long hair)

Mar 13, 2012

How do you let go of someone when they won't let you go?

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nene:

I agree with Skullgrid. You have to put your foot down and make a clean break. It hurts and it sucks but its the only way.

Mar 12, 2012

blazing:

*hugs*

Mar 13, 2012

The shell is cracked, the poison sinking in
Blackhole soul suction, internal combustion
Tears cannot escape as the chest buckles
Violent convulsion while holding my ankles
Boiling blood & a wounded cry

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hemi:

Damn woman...you okay?

Mar 8, 2012

blazing:

*heart*

Mar 8, 2012

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darkriver:

Prhaps your feelings will fade over time... mine have started to. I still have urges to call/txt/email, but I fight it and its getting easier

Mar 7, 2012

blazing:

Don't give up on anything love. Life is what it is & we have to live it, so we might as well live it happy. Do what makes yourself happy, you can make it through anything. Just gota stay strong.

Mar 7, 2012

"It is a truth universally acknowledged that when one part of your life starts going okay, another falls spectacularly to pieces." - Helen Fielding

Where is my Darcy? Someone who will love me Just As I Am. And who is unattached. I've had enough Daniel Cleavers (not the cheating oart, the I can't make up my mind part).