Today is one of those days.
Where it rips you up into shreds, and you wake up the next day trying to put back the pieces together.
I am exhausted. Mentally and physically. Though training is going well.
I haven't really slept, because the nightmares are back...and it makes me afraid to go to sleep.
Song for today:
When you've had enough,
and you've got it bad enough
and you can't let go.
When it comes to blows,
and you start to overflow,
and you can't get home.
It's a subtle kind of cruel,
it taps my spine.
Here I'm drawing a line,
I'm asking please.
Don't you wanna
be happy with me?
I'm afraid if you
don't come around soon,
I'll turn sadder
than you ever were,
and you'll learn
loneliness is worse
you've gotta try.
December's all alone,
and he's calling
me on the phone
but he sounds so cold.
He says he loves me so,
but how would I ever know?
Certain words grow old.
It's a vicious kind of catch,
it sides me blind.
Now I'm out of my mind,
I wanna scream.
Don't you wanna
be happy with me?
I'm afraid if you
don't come around soon,
I'll turn sadder
than you ever were,
and you'll learn
loneliness is worse
you've gotta try.
Love liked me long ago,
it had a way of making
everyone the same.
But how the angels
must laugh and sigh
to hear me pleading with you,
and needing you this way.
Oh why don't you
wanna be happy with me?
I'm afraid if you
don't come around soon,
I'll turn sadder
than you ever were,
and you'll learn
loneliness is worse
you've gotta try to
stay mine all the way
Don't you wanna
be happy with me?
I'm afraid if you don't
come around soon,
I'll turn sadder than
you ever were.
xox
Where it rips you up into shreds, and you wake up the next day trying to put back the pieces together.
I am exhausted. Mentally and physically. Though training is going well.
I haven't really slept, because the nightmares are back...and it makes me afraid to go to sleep.
Song for today:
When you've had enough,
and you've got it bad enough
and you can't let go.
When it comes to blows,
and you start to overflow,
and you can't get home.
It's a subtle kind of cruel,
it taps my spine.
Here I'm drawing a line,
I'm asking please.
Don't you wanna
be happy with me?
I'm afraid if you
don't come around soon,
I'll turn sadder
than you ever were,
and you'll learn
loneliness is worse
you've gotta try.
December's all alone,
and he's calling
me on the phone
but he sounds so cold.
He says he loves me so,
but how would I ever know?
Certain words grow old.
It's a vicious kind of catch,
it sides me blind.
Now I'm out of my mind,
I wanna scream.
Don't you wanna
be happy with me?
I'm afraid if you
don't come around soon,
I'll turn sadder
than you ever were,
and you'll learn
loneliness is worse
you've gotta try.
Love liked me long ago,
it had a way of making
everyone the same.
But how the angels
must laugh and sigh
to hear me pleading with you,
and needing you this way.
Oh why don't you
wanna be happy with me?
I'm afraid if you
don't come around soon,
I'll turn sadder
than you ever were,
and you'll learn
loneliness is worse
you've gotta try to
stay mine all the way
Don't you wanna
be happy with me?
I'm afraid if you don't
come around soon,
I'll turn sadder than
you ever were.
xox
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My song is one of Morrissey's new singles. There was another one I wanted to send along, but it was too dream-related and didn't want to include it considering your recent bad nocturnal visions.
The one posted above is called "All You Need is Me."
You're right in that not all girls suck and forgive me for lumping you among the masses. Sure, I agree she wants attention from me. The question is whether I should give it to her.
The other question is whether or not I misrepresent myself to people. I've had a number of people who I've known for a short time tell me that I'm not the person they had me pegged for. Usually it's the asshole in me that comes through initially, but sooner or later they find out that's just a front.
Maybe if I was consistently a prick to people they'd hand around me longer.
Have to admit this girl is like a drug to me. She speeds up my heart when I hear from her. The highs are extremely high, but the lows are just as extreme.