beautifulxalone

I like this video. and the song. and the part where he talks about Prince.
It still hurts.

I am going to see Ani DiFranco tonight, and just found out that Melissa Ferrick is opening for her


Excitement.

!*(@#&$



Things are okay.
I think they might be getting better, or I'm just learning how to not care. Either way, haven't cried since last week, so I guess that's progress right?



xo.



Edited to say -- show was postponed. Sadface x10! This was pretty...
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DAMNIT.

Today was such a meaningful day for me.
Work was amazingly satisfying, easy, and I flowed right through it. Honestly, the holidays have been the furthest thing from my mind, but tonight I wrapped all my gifts, and my roommates dressed their (almost) one year old in a santa suit. So adorable. I love that little man.

Physical pain can be eased when emotional pain...
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Ugh.

I miss kisses and touches and lovins.


And fuck you if you send me a creepy message about kissing or touching me. I don't want them from you creepsters. There is only one person who can fulfill my wants and needs.








is it Friday yet?

Dude, it feels like I was punched in the stomach repeatedly. I literally thought I was going to throw up on the spot.

In other news, does anyone else feel like this has been the LONGEST WEEK EVER??

I can't wait to have two days off.

Gotta get thru this 10 hour shift first.



Oh,

and this is a good song, and speaks to how...
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Every little thing, is gonna be alright.........


I would love some AC right now, but alas...I sweat.


first appointment in therapy on Friday..nervous but excited.

Had a much needed long heart-to-heart with my roommate last night over two bottles of wine. Much was discussed, much was hashed out, and even though I cried a bit last night, I woke up feeling okay for the first...
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I would give anything right now for some peace of mind, some clarity. A warm smile, and someone to tell me that this too shall pass. Today was a struggle. A struggle to get out of bed, to eat, to shower, to move, to feel. I think I just need sleep...it'll help, I haven't been getting much over the past few days. I wonder if...
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"So baby, be good to me.
Because I've got nothin' to give you, you see.
Except everything,
Everything..
Everything.
All the good, and the bad...."

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Hi, I'm alive. Doing much better than last week. I spent the past week in a haze of vikes, pain, and a whirlwind of emotions. Confusion, fear, anger, bitterness, etc. It's been an interesting ride. Hop on if you'd...
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I COULD EXPLODE!!!!

"The Master acts without doing anything, and teaches without saying anything. Things arise and she lets them come; things disappear and she lets them go. She has but doesn't possess, acts but doesn't expect. When her work is done, she forgets it. That is why it lasts forever." - Tao Te Ching


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My world has seemed to crumble in the last week or two....
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Nothing is ever enough.
But we laugh,
and we try.


















xox.