1. Piece on how I feel about such terms as "cracker," "spick," etc.
Growing up in a mostly white community, when you hang with the white kids and they think you're cool I notice they start to feel comfortable calling you "spick" (in my case). As a middle schooler, I was just so happy to be accepted and allowed it, even calling myself that to be 'in.' As an 'adult' I look at it with disgust. Spick is used to push people down and let them know that you are not as good as they (think they) are. And when I would use it as a kid, I realize that I was just letting them know it's okay to treat me like that (even though as children I highly doubt we had to ability to fully realize what we were doing...). I tried to 'own' the term. At first I thought that was the way to go, but in the end I made myself look dumb.
I just had to rant a little cause someone on my FB page is ecstatic that their 3 year old is running around yelling 'cracker pride!'
I find myself unable to respect those that use those terms towards themselves. Not much gets me angrier than those who chose to call themselves the 'N' word. I just look at them like..."Really? You disrespect yourself that much that you would do that?" The word literally means "ignorant and unable to learn." People think owning it makes it better, but if you put a sheep costume on a wolf, it's still a damn wolf.
Rant over.
2. Work
I'm going for the shift supervisor status at the 'Bou. I'm really excited since this is the first time in my life I've taken initiative to move upwards. I am excited since I think the SM is going to fast track me, since I'm so super dope at customer service. And I'm not bragging, I'm being straight. I know it's my job to make sure people get their day started off on a good foot. So I take it very seriously and I never bring any drama or residual anger into work.
2. leads to...
3. Luke and I were discussing buying the house we are currently renting. However it doesn't have the yard we envision for kids/decks/fires etc. His family home is going up for sale in about 5 years and we are considering buying it then. The timing would be perfect for us, and the yard is everything we want! About an acre of open yard mixed with woods in our capitol city. It's hard to find something that great in the location we want. Our only drawback is the harsh reality that his mother will think she's entitled to stop by whenever she wants, instead of when she's invited (which would be rarely since...you know. She's a typical M-I-L plus some...).
But I'm really excited to plan for a future since there was a time recently when I thought my future was going to be spend in Hell. I've never been able to picture past the end of the week, or never even wanted too. So this is very exciting and I can't wait to see how it all pans out.
4. I still can't go into the sun with my healing flowers. Dan came in for his coffee today and examined it, proclaimed it still healing and told me maybe next week. GAH! I am so vain when it comes to my flowers I want to show them off! Espesh since tomorrow is the studio's summer bash.
5. Lucy
We have the appointment to put her down tomorrow. I'm super mad about it. I'm trying to get her to experience everything. Yesterday Luke and I took her outside in the yard on a kitty leash and she seemed to enjoy herself. I hope she forgives me. I sound so silly, she's a cat. But I love her and she has that solid personality that a friend has.
Me 'n Lucy pt II
Growing up in a mostly white community, when you hang with the white kids and they think you're cool I notice they start to feel comfortable calling you "spick" (in my case). As a middle schooler, I was just so happy to be accepted and allowed it, even calling myself that to be 'in.' As an 'adult' I look at it with disgust. Spick is used to push people down and let them know that you are not as good as they (think they) are. And when I would use it as a kid, I realize that I was just letting them know it's okay to treat me like that (even though as children I highly doubt we had to ability to fully realize what we were doing...). I tried to 'own' the term. At first I thought that was the way to go, but in the end I made myself look dumb.
I just had to rant a little cause someone on my FB page is ecstatic that their 3 year old is running around yelling 'cracker pride!'
I find myself unable to respect those that use those terms towards themselves. Not much gets me angrier than those who chose to call themselves the 'N' word. I just look at them like..."Really? You disrespect yourself that much that you would do that?" The word literally means "ignorant and unable to learn." People think owning it makes it better, but if you put a sheep costume on a wolf, it's still a damn wolf.
Rant over.
2. Work
I'm going for the shift supervisor status at the 'Bou. I'm really excited since this is the first time in my life I've taken initiative to move upwards. I am excited since I think the SM is going to fast track me, since I'm so super dope at customer service. And I'm not bragging, I'm being straight. I know it's my job to make sure people get their day started off on a good foot. So I take it very seriously and I never bring any drama or residual anger into work.
2. leads to...
3. Luke and I were discussing buying the house we are currently renting. However it doesn't have the yard we envision for kids/decks/fires etc. His family home is going up for sale in about 5 years and we are considering buying it then. The timing would be perfect for us, and the yard is everything we want! About an acre of open yard mixed with woods in our capitol city. It's hard to find something that great in the location we want. Our only drawback is the harsh reality that his mother will think she's entitled to stop by whenever she wants, instead of when she's invited (which would be rarely since...you know. She's a typical M-I-L plus some...).
But I'm really excited to plan for a future since there was a time recently when I thought my future was going to be spend in Hell. I've never been able to picture past the end of the week, or never even wanted too. So this is very exciting and I can't wait to see how it all pans out.
4. I still can't go into the sun with my healing flowers. Dan came in for his coffee today and examined it, proclaimed it still healing and told me maybe next week. GAH! I am so vain when it comes to my flowers I want to show them off! Espesh since tomorrow is the studio's summer bash.
5. Lucy
We have the appointment to put her down tomorrow. I'm super mad about it. I'm trying to get her to experience everything. Yesterday Luke and I took her outside in the yard on a kitty leash and she seemed to enjoy herself. I hope she forgives me. I sound so silly, she's a cat. But I love her and she has that solid personality that a friend has.
Me 'n Lucy pt II