Honestly, I'm in such a tattoo mood right now it's excruciating. It'd help sort of my mood. Making it harder to wait is having plans - nothing random - for work I want/need done. Odd to say it's almost therapeutic to be in the chair given that it's a bit of pain to get work done.
I almost understand cutters in that respect. During the...
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prussia:
all pretties!
chrysis:
No joke, I actually worry about that. Mostly because I have like three journals spread over the internet with 209384203482034 entries and a bunch of pictures. And I'm like. Shit. What if _______.com just dies one day. It has to, right? Everything will be gone, forever. What's going to happen to all of this stuff that's ONLY online in nonsaveable formats?
So stressful. Haha.
So stressful. Haha.
Feel like I should write something, but after a day of studying, all I want is my Goldeneye on the Wii.
No matter how much I love what I'm learning and how much I love the prospect of being able to make a perceived difference in life, I really do have this occasional urge to quit nursing school and become a circus clown.
Okay, it's not really that I have any love for the circus (though it's fun), but I'm just feeling burnt out as of...
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chrysis:
Well, I can tell you for a fact that I'm certainly not talking about Absinthe. -_-;
But I mean, if that's how you want to take it. I guess. Lol.
So are you going to the Halloween party?
But I mean, if that's how you want to take it. I guess. Lol.
So are you going to the Halloween party?
thanatogenous:
Anything I can do to brighten your day I'll be happy to oblige. What's with the hoops you ask, I've been bringing them back. I brought back the hoop awareness on SG about a year or so ago and have been teaching people all over. You should hoop too!
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chrysis:
I dried off with a Little Mermaid towel today. :]
chrysis:
I .. am not .. the author. Lol.
What to do, what to do.....
"Blah".....
I'm not bored, not depressed, but devoid of iniative? Make sense or sound familiar? Full of ideas, but my ass is glued to this chair, and I can't bring myself to get up.
Well, I've dropped 22lbs since the first week of May. YAY!! Still a shit to go. Came across a few past photos of myself, and...
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"Blah".....
I'm not bored, not depressed, but devoid of iniative? Make sense or sound familiar? Full of ideas, but my ass is glued to this chair, and I can't bring myself to get up.
Well, I've dropped 22lbs since the first week of May. YAY!! Still a shit to go. Came across a few past photos of myself, and...
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rigel:
try central park is gua-ran-teeeed!
elliott:
thank you soo much for the sweet comment on my set 
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xxReading a friend's blog I came up with this for a response, but then I realized it turned into more a blog of my own. So here it is.....originally targeted towards someone specific, but I decided to share it with the masses. Maybe it'll strike a chord, maybe it's just me blowing smoke of self realized importance.
"Can't even begin to recall how I felt...
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rambo:
Aw thanks! They're super hipster, haha.
chrysis:
I came here to reply to your comment, but first I've gotta say .. I read your status line thing, and I have thought of her a few times recently and revisited her pictures, etc. So that's odd. But I wish she wasn't gone too. :/
And back to the other thing -- I really do appreciate the input and support you've offered. I feel the same, that it was cheap and cop-outty, but there's nothing you can do as the other person, so you just .. let them have it. If that's their route. I also believe people drift in and out and sometimes it's meant to be, but other times .. it just seems so needless. Like a needless break in your fabric and I want to fight it.
Anyway. People will do what they need to, and maybe those people are better off.
Now regarding -your- .. commentmessageturnedblogthing. I have to say, that echoed in a big way for me, and I'm so glad you said this:
I'm not ignoring things completely, but letting them in as I become stronger. As the goal draws closer and the picture becomes more clear, my mind is better able to look at the past decade - my storm - and feel not afraid. Well....less afraid I guess.
I am teetering right before the point where I know that I can -be- less afraid in the face of some things, but I am digging them up one at a time as I become more and more aware of personal growth and the fact that I cannot stay a child in hiding my -whole- life. There does come a point to "man up," so I'm taking my tiny steps.
But I know the feeling of being frozen in fear, crushed by the weight of everything that's bigger than you and speeding on around and past you. It's horrifying, and becomes self-perpetuating. To break it is a big, big thing.
And it's nice to hear about the process [struggle, even] from someone other than myself. :]
And back to the other thing -- I really do appreciate the input and support you've offered. I feel the same, that it was cheap and cop-outty, but there's nothing you can do as the other person, so you just .. let them have it. If that's their route. I also believe people drift in and out and sometimes it's meant to be, but other times .. it just seems so needless. Like a needless break in your fabric and I want to fight it.
Anyway. People will do what they need to, and maybe those people are better off.
Now regarding -your- .. commentmessageturnedblogthing. I have to say, that echoed in a big way for me, and I'm so glad you said this:
I'm not ignoring things completely, but letting them in as I become stronger. As the goal draws closer and the picture becomes more clear, my mind is better able to look at the past decade - my storm - and feel not afraid. Well....less afraid I guess.
I am teetering right before the point where I know that I can -be- less afraid in the face of some things, but I am digging them up one at a time as I become more and more aware of personal growth and the fact that I cannot stay a child in hiding my -whole- life. There does come a point to "man up," so I'm taking my tiny steps.
But I know the feeling of being frozen in fear, crushed by the weight of everything that's bigger than you and speeding on around and past you. It's horrifying, and becomes self-perpetuating. To break it is a big, big thing.
And it's nice to hear about the process [struggle, even] from someone other than myself. :]
So.......I turn 30 in a few days. Four days actually, and I'm not sure if I'm ready for it. Not that there is any decision making in the matter. Pretty excited about it in a way, and even more excited that I'll be 30 with a full head of hair. Most guys in my fam lose it by the mid 20's, so I'm holding my...
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kraven:
Thanks for the nice comment you left on my new set and for taking the time to look it over. Happy 4th of July weekend!
Ah.....Sitting at my favorite coffee shop in Jackson - otherwise known as Prison City - Michigan. There's a cute lil' country gal playin' some music. She sounds good; Jewel influenced I'm sure, but not certain of other sounds. I'm not much a country person. Bluegrass perhaps, and Rockabilly, but that's leaning away from strict country.
Gonna be in a wedding in a couple weekends. And...
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kaley:
Well perhaps next year I will make that happen!!
Well perhaps next year I will make that happen!!
rambo:
Haha, I just posted it yesterday! You didn't miss too much...
Does that mean I shouldn't read it? Because .. I haven't looked yet.