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I spent the last two days trying to get my mind off the "friend' and the net. Its not really working but i do have a studio that feels like my own space so thats good! Pics to come.

in the spirit of space where do you feel most like yourself?
toez:
Wow...good question! I guess if I had to pick a place, it would be my kitchen. But mostly when I'm around my friends...not even so much my family...I feel the most like myself. Believe it or not, I feel more like myself around Jeff's family than my own...
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I'm annoyed
( i know i'm always annoyed about something and your tierd of hearing it. Well I'm sorry but i'm annoyed on the computer so i don't have to be annoyed around the people that are here infront of me. So here i'll spoil it)

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I lost a friend today. He didn't die he just didn't want me around anymore....
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panthro:
what a douche! hehehe

um, my big baggy soccer shorts and a sleeveless tee shirt. man am i simple!
toez:
Well it sounds to me like he doesn't deserve a friend as cool as you. (Even though that sounded a bit less corny in my head). You really are awesome from what I've seen, and if it's too much for him, if he can't handle the coolness...he should just piss off.

Favorite thing to wear? My star pj pants and a green day tshirt with Jeff's insanely blue sweathshirt smile
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So i had a long post planned but i just don't feel like writtin it. Lots going on in this head of mine.
Oh and today i started classes.

Edit: if you had to pick two people to live (no one famous) who would they be?
Edit for clearification: this is a continuance of the last question. THe world is ending and you get to...
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gayballs:
and how did they gooooooooooo
galaxy42:
...is there supposed to be a "with" after live in that question? Otherwise, I'm not understanding it...

confused
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Ok so i had to get this out so i wrote this blog


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Some times i dont under stand how such a good day an turn in to such an awful night. E. and i spent the day together. Really together... then the night watching movies. We went to the bedroom at midnight and soon were makeing love. Which is weird...
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gayballs:
I'll remember, dork.
avidity:
i won't forget!
and i'd defintely have pictures in my box, and my kitties.
mmmmmuah
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Our water pipe broke last night... But was fixed my noon.
I signed up for classes this am.
I just moped the floor
Yup thats my llife....
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badangela:
broken pipes sound messy. Life sometimes just is. smile
catagogo:
broken water pipes succcckkkkkks.
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Not much to report....
E got meds for his poisioned arm.... So now he's on Predison. I'm hopeing it doesn't effect his mood to much.
I'm questioning takeing the clesses. They're just sooo expencive sence i'm still out of state. and it feels wrong spending $650 on classes that i really don't need.
I'm Playing WoW again.... Mixed feelings about that.

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toez:
Maybe getting it out...like actually crying would help?
galaxy42:
Hmmm... let the cry fly. You'll feel better when it's over.

As for the WoW thing... you need rehab. biggrin
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We went down to Santa Rosa last night. Had crappy applebees and saw children of Men.
HOLY SHIT if you haven't seen the movie. GO. If your waiting to see it on DVD cause your a cheap bastard. GO to the theater. Ok so it didn't have the twist and turns I was expecting but it was still one of the best movies i've seen...
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toez:
When I don't have a job, it bugs me even when people are nicely asking if I've found one yet, or where I'm looking. It's actually part of my O.C.D. I know this because a doctor told me...but once he did, it all kinda fell into place. It seems that my crazy, mixed up brain thinks that by people asking, it means that they either doubt my ability to find a job, OR, now admittedly this is a doosy so no laughing, my brain believes that they think I'm lying about it, or not even trying. When I'm not in the situation, I can look back and realize out silly it is, but catch me in the situation, and ask about my job hunt, and you'll probably get a hurt look, followed by a subject change and maybe even a period of silence from me.

And how can you not like Applebees??? I LOVE Applebees!!!
omeganightmare:
that would be Poison oak up here...and it's the devil frown

I liked children of men alot and it was worth the 9 dollars to see it in portland lol
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Thank you to everyone who was so consserned after my last post...

I think i need to clairify some things. I know E. wants me to be happy but i don't know what it will take to get me there. I am trying to make changes thats why i'm going to be takeing classes and thats why i am desperatly searching for a job. Its...
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tds:
Take care of yourself. It's been hard for me to comment because i know what you mean, & it involves that great "personal inventory" shit that people end up dealing with but avoid until they have no choice. Anyway, best i can say is just take care of yourself as best you can. If i can help at all with anything, let me know smile
toez:
I completely understand, good luck!!
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E asked me if i was happy tonight...
Let me back up
We ran in to lobster_ Monbster at walmarts this evening. It was nice running in to some one anywhere cause it means you know people... Anyhow she asked if i was going to girls night and i told her it wasn't really my thing. This led to a conversation about girls and looks...
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toez:
*couldn't agree more with the "do what makes you happy" statement* Relationships are give and take...win some lose some. I don't know you very well, and I don't know E. at all, but it sounds like some compromise would do a lot of good. Are you saying that you don't have more tattoos, stretched earlobes and more piercings because he wont let you?
gayballs:
Hey, at least you got it all out. that sounds like a difficult-ass conversation to be having.
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I hate being sick. And i am very sick. I finally broke my fever last night some time but i think its comeing back... I just ate and its makeing me a little shakey. really shakey. and i have some sort of rash started on my arm and neck. I think i caught something on the plain... or at least i'll blame it on the...
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galaxy42:
Rest up and go to the doctor about the rash...
Get well soon.
catagogo:
Im sick too. frown it sucks. frown frown