i ve been fighting to stay in this good mood i've had all day. It failed. I think the sister call just did me in. E went to bed a while ago and i've been sitting here again alone watching late night tv again. i realized the other day its not E i'm not happy with its me. I'm so fucking lonely here. I HATE...
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So I talked to my sister for the first time in five years today. I don't know how i feel about it. I miss her and i miss her in my life But talking to her brings up all these feelings about my past. Worse yet we didn't have reason to have not talked for so long. I feel kinda lost with alot of good...
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remuemenage:
I wish you could take more joy in your family
for me - my family are the only true friends that I have
be well
for me - my family are the only true friends that I have
be well
Heres to tequila sunrises and no reason to drink.. i got clothes today hate the shirts love the pants. My ass looks awsome lol. Next is dinner and such with e. So far still in a good mood which makes three days in a row... there are miracles after all.
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panthro:
mmmm, drink til yer happy! 
hoorah for miracles!
hoorah for miracles!
badangela:
Clothes that make your ass look good is definitly a good thing. There is always a reason to drink.
Ok i did it... Tell me what you think and be honest..
My first set
But be kind
All in all it been a great day again... I think i'm getting a puppy
My first set
But be kind
All in all it been a great day again... I think i'm getting a puppy
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ladylovelybrit:
no its a seminar thing we have to attend.
yeah i really do think that it will be a good change for im really excited now.
thank-you.
yeah i really do think that it will be a good change for im really excited now.
thank-you.
reverendash:
Nice set babe, very sexy. 
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lobster_mobster:
As long as there's at least ten pics, I believe that's all you need.
Please, pleasse, pleeeeeaaaaase post them? (Lobster thinks you are a hot mama and would like to see more!)
Please, pleasse, pleeeeeaaaaase post them? (Lobster thinks you are a hot mama and would like to see more!)
gayballs:
I like what I see, but it's like EJACULATE MILKSHAKE says. do what you think it's right.
But yes.
hot mama.
But yes.
hot mama.
Today was ... Awsome actually. I slept in- in my own bed. My clothes arrived and they were to BIG so E said we could make the two hours ride down the montain. Got to the store just before it closed then went for dinner. The food sucked but the thought was awsome and the place was cozzy. Came home and watched the Librarian... must...
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ladylovelybrit:
yeah i think i just may, but they come with this inscribe thing, and i don't want to have to say that i want 'drippy ends of ice cream cones' over the phone....LOL.
panthro:
you can never own too many socks!
Ok so now its been a few hours sence my parents have gone. I miss my mom. I don't mean i want her here i mean i miss the women i remeber when i was growing up. She was strong and insitful. Now i see here in a different light. I don't want to say i'm ashemed of her but i don't know what other...
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remuemenage:
wow - you've got some heavy shit going on in your life, lady
I wish I could help you in some way - deeper than cyber comfort
my sense of it is that you and E are not responsible for your parent's bad behaviour - they have their own lives and are responsible for themselves
you have to live your own life
if E is the rock you want to build your life on - then you go ahead and do it
if he isn't then make some hard decisions and move on
I wish I could help you in some way - deeper than cyber comfort
my sense of it is that you and E are not responsible for your parent's bad behaviour - they have their own lives and are responsible for themselves
you have to live your own life
if E is the rock you want to build your life on - then you go ahead and do it
if he isn't then make some hard decisions and move on
climac:
Hey,
Well, i hope you had a nice time with Mom.... and i hope you had a nice weekend.
C
Well, i hope you had a nice time with Mom.... and i hope you had a nice weekend.
C
I love to see the cousins come I love to see them go.... the same goes with parents... Im so glad that it is over.. I wish it had gone better but i'm just happy its over now.
blue_richard:
I know what you mean, families are so stressful!
So E's Dad imbaresed the hell out of us at a local resturant today but makeing a huge scene for no real reason. Past that everything went as far away from smooth as can be expected. I keep trying to remind myself of the small things like... They're going home tomarrow. And im getting some new clothes (and plan on returning them too) All and...
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lobster_mobster:
Aw, parental embarassment is no bueno. And you can always count on the holidays to bring plenty of it.
badangela:
I hate it when parents embarrass you like that. enjoy yor shopping. yay for small blessings. have a great week.
So its 11:36 and its all quiet. Quiet... no family to entertain no cats no cooking... This is nice.
Lets back up. My parents got in last night at 2am and we got here around 4... it was long and E's parents were cranky while mine where giddy. Mom and I stayed up till 5:30 am talking about looking at the house. Lots of hugs...
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Lets back up. My parents got in last night at 2am and we got here around 4... it was long and E's parents were cranky while mine where giddy. Mom and I stayed up till 5:30 am talking about looking at the house. Lots of hugs...
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blue_richard:
I miss you
panthro:
with the exception of your mum, it didn't seem like anybody (excluding your fiance) made an effort. don't let it get to you. all that truly matters in this scenario is how you and E get along. don't let his parents get to you! they are not going to change. so no matter what you do, they will continue to be ungratefull. and you can always do what other couples do, one holiday with your parents, the next with his. and rotate it each year. i am sure your house looks fabulous, and your meal was delicious!
Feels strange being up thinking about stuff when evryone has gone to bed, but it does get better.
I'm sitting here at my desk trying to do some work... but things keep distracting me. Like your blog!
Don't wory. Tomorrow will be a good day.