I think my favorite part of getting nice guys to spank me, what I'm really in it for, is the way it sneaks up on them. I get so much relief watching and feeling all that icky passive-agressiveness, that bullshit Lloyd Dobler facade that scares the shit out of me, turn into real, safe, honest, and healthily directed agression.
I love who they find in...
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I hate this fucking disease.
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I was doing my dishes and I realized something.
I think I am coming to accept that this is what life is - just keeping my nose clean until the next epiphany or moment of joy.
So. Here's what I realized:
On the surface, I make a great girlfriend: I'm a fuckin' good listener, I accept you for who...
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I was doing my dishes and I realized something.
I think I am coming to accept that this is what life is - just keeping my nose clean until the next epiphany or moment of joy.
So. Here's what I realized:
On the surface, I make a great girlfriend: I'm a fuckin' good listener, I accept you for who...
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kozmikgirl:
Oh my gawd! I came to that same realization just about a year or so ago. Oh my gawd!!!
I always say, in EVERY moment with someone I love or am falling for... "Can I be ok if they leave?" If I think I won't, then I usually end it because... who needs that kind of stress? (ironic, isn't it) Most time I know I will be fine.
I keep reminding myself that they could POOF at any time & I need to just enjoy the moment for what it is & be happy with that.
I always say, in EVERY moment with someone I love or am falling for... "Can I be ok if they leave?" If I think I won't, then I usually end it because... who needs that kind of stress? (ironic, isn't it) Most time I know I will be fine.
I keep reminding myself that they could POOF at any time & I need to just enjoy the moment for what it is & be happy with that.
tonkakatt:
another excellent journal
I'm going through a phase. I ride my skateboard off shit I never should have attempted. I fall on my ass. A lot.
It feels good.
I feel like my whole life I've been trying to live safe and live right. But I'm over that. I'm not talking about fetishizing experience here - that would just be more mental masturbation, flagellation. And I'm not talking...
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It feels good.
I feel like my whole life I've been trying to live safe and live right. But I'm over that. I'm not talking about fetishizing experience here - that would just be more mental masturbation, flagellation. And I'm not talking...
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figmentation:
Thank you for the birthday wishes!!!!
(It was wonderful!!!)
(It was wonderful!!!)
strongmad:
First of all, thank you for the call last night. It was very sweet.
Second of all, this is a fucking AWESOME journal entry. I write for a living and it makes me awestruck. You are really special.
Second of all, this is a fucking AWESOME journal entry. I write for a living and it makes me awestruck. You are really special.
Edit feature? Nice.
Dude.
I stubbed my toe.
That shit hurts more than you remember.
FUCK!
CUNT!
COCKSUCKAMUTHAFUCKA!
I stubbed my toe.
That shit hurts more than you remember.
FUCK!
CUNT!
COCKSUCKAMUTHAFUCKA!
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buckknuckle:
What I meant by the wrong tree is that I think you are wrong about men. That's all.
Have a nice evening!
Have a nice evening!
strongmad:
I will buy some, but not all, of your previous journal. I appreciate that you appreciate the "not being able to have feelings" thing. Because that's cool.
But as for men not working as hard as (stay-at-home) women? I call bullshit. The work women do at home is things that come naturally. They are largely things one would do in any age and time -- preparing meals, keeping a home, teaching children. Men spend their time doing things that are wholly unnatural. Random tasks that are not instinctual. Just my thought.
And toe-stubbing is a motherfucker. In the 5 seconds after I stub my toe, I am capable of murder.
But as for men not working as hard as (stay-at-home) women? I call bullshit. The work women do at home is things that come naturally. They are largely things one would do in any age and time -- preparing meals, keeping a home, teaching children. Men spend their time doing things that are wholly unnatural. Random tasks that are not instinctual. Just my thought.
And toe-stubbing is a motherfucker. In the 5 seconds after I stub my toe, I am capable of murder.
I've had a lot of people who've never asked me anything about my views on gender complain about my views on gender.
Let's clear this up, shall we?
SInce I was about 11, I've been conscious of hating what the gender system does to men. I can't imagine how brutal it must be to be told that you're not allowed to hurt, to break, to...
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Let's clear this up, shall we?
SInce I was about 11, I've been conscious of hating what the gender system does to men. I can't imagine how brutal it must be to be told that you're not allowed to hurt, to break, to...
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buckknuckle:
I think you are barking up the wrong tree.
And by tree, I mean phallus symbol.
And by tree, I mean phallus symbol.
buckknuckle:
double post... but it's still true.
[Edited on May 19, 2006 11:47AM]
[Edited on May 19, 2006 11:47AM]
I want to lay down a blanket, and slowly take apart a motorcycle, putting each piece on the blanket in neat little rows, left to right.
And then I want to put it back together again, piece by piece.
I'd like to do it without a manual. I would like an informed, preferably hot (nevermind, if they're informed, they're hot) person that could give me...
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And then I want to put it back together again, piece by piece.
I'd like to do it without a manual. I would like an informed, preferably hot (nevermind, if they're informed, they're hot) person that could give me...
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kaela:
Durr...
jukeboxhero:
e-hmmm, it's so heavy, and i can't lift it!! 
just kiddin' guys, i'm not actually getting married
but if you do know any particularly radical Cadadians who would take me in as a refugee, hook a girl up.
but if you do know any particularly radical Cadadians who would take me in as a refugee, hook a girl up.
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mysteryx:
I know a radical liberal guy in Canada. But how do I know that you wouldn't cut him up or something?
mysteryx:
Well I'm not going to let him marry you, then. He can only get married once, and then he uses up that "get out of the U.S.A. free" card. Maybe I'm being paternalistic here, but I think if he's going to get married, he should wait for a woman whose ass he could occasionally touch deliberately.
Hell, now that I think about it, why don't I marry him? Don't really want him touching my ass either, but if the choice is between him touching my ass, and living in an authoritarian country- well, my ass can take it.
Besides, he co-owns a pizza joint and has one of those big pizza cutters. He might actually give you a challenge when you go to cut him up.
Hell, now that I think about it, why don't I marry him? Don't really want him touching my ass either, but if the choice is between him touching my ass, and living in an authoritarian country- well, my ass can take it.
Besides, he co-owns a pizza joint and has one of those big pizza cutters. He might actually give you a challenge when you go to cut him up.
I'm getting married!!!!!
I'm outta here, you bad-food-eating, uninformed, consumer-bot, gluttons of the world!
Ha ha! No more abortion, health-care, or gun-law "debates" for me, suckas!!
Screw you and your "president" - I have a QUEEN!
Screw your dopey currency and your even dopier dope laws.
I'm OUT, do you hear me!
<hums>
The True North strong and free!
</end lovely humming>
I'm outta here, you bad-food-eating, uninformed, consumer-bot, gluttons of the world!
Ha ha! No more abortion, health-care, or gun-law "debates" for me, suckas!!
Screw you and your "president" - I have a QUEEN!
Screw your dopey currency and your even dopier dope laws.
I'm OUT, do you hear me!
<hums>
The True North strong and free!
</end lovely humming>
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strongmad:
Um ... do what now?
kozmikgirl:
What is going on, eh? 
Okay.
Here's what I want.
I want bands that sound good in concert.
I want good books with worn-in covers.
I want people to call when they say they will.
I want to be able to shop without thinking about slave-children.
I want leaves above with the sun shining through.
I want condoms that don't suck.
I want to be able to think of those...
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Here's what I want.
I want bands that sound good in concert.
I want good books with worn-in covers.
I want people to call when they say they will.
I want to be able to shop without thinking about slave-children.
I want leaves above with the sun shining through.
I want condoms that don't suck.
I want to be able to think of those...
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jukeboxhero:
is that stage "left" or audience "left"?? that's where the confusion lies!!
kozmikgirl:
I want easy to get to orgasms, like men. It is all so much like work sometimes. *sigh*
That's neatototallyfuckenawesometotehpoweroftehthreeve.