I feel so overwhelmed this week.
Last week I was told that my ex went back to his ex. So I pretty much feel like I was nothing but a place holder the last 4 and half years. and she is a TOTAL downgrade in EVERY.SINGLE.WAY. Looks, personality, humor...everything. Way to go straight to the bottom of the bowl there buddy. As much as I want to have sex with someone and date someone else and all that right now.... I REFUSE to compromise who I am as a person and I also refuse to compromise my standards. I deserve to be picky damn it! I am quite the catch! Sure some people may shake their head because they think I am ugly or whatnot but, screw you. lol. I have lots all my fucks to give.
So all that made for a shitty week last week. and sure we talked about still talking but then one day at work I just decided nope... If you really are going back to that.. you do not deserve the awesomeness that I am. So I told him that I think we should just really say good bye for a long time this time. and I sent him a long heart felt message and HE HAS STILL YET TO SAY ANYTHING TO ME...ONE FUCKING FINAL GOODBYE. nothing.
So I am pretty much done with that chapter of my life. and I am moving on to building my confidence back up!
I started school back on Monday. online classes really are VERY different. It more than likely does not really help that I pretty much have to do 5 classes and a weeks worth of work (homework and test) by tomorrow, well I guess I COULD do some Thursday. I am liking it so far for the most part. I am pretty excited with what I have read in my Forensic Science book so far =)
Friday I pick up my friend from the airport and its straight to her house, pick up her things, stop by walmart and the off to Florida for DisneyWorld!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My OrganizedAss went and made a list of everything I want to do while we are there for the next 4 days. #loser
Friendly Reminder that DragonCon is in 44 days!!!!!! SO EXCITED
Last week I was told that my ex went back to his ex. So I pretty much feel like I was nothing but a place holder the last 4 and half years. and she is a TOTAL downgrade in EVERY.SINGLE.WAY. Looks, personality, humor...everything. Way to go straight to the bottom of the bowl there buddy. As much as I want to have sex with someone and date someone else and all that right now.... I REFUSE to compromise who I am as a person and I also refuse to compromise my standards. I deserve to be picky damn it! I am quite the catch! Sure some people may shake their head because they think I am ugly or whatnot but, screw you. lol. I have lots all my fucks to give.
So all that made for a shitty week last week. and sure we talked about still talking but then one day at work I just decided nope... If you really are going back to that.. you do not deserve the awesomeness that I am. So I told him that I think we should just really say good bye for a long time this time. and I sent him a long heart felt message and HE HAS STILL YET TO SAY ANYTHING TO ME...ONE FUCKING FINAL GOODBYE. nothing.
So I am pretty much done with that chapter of my life. and I am moving on to building my confidence back up!
I started school back on Monday. online classes really are VERY different. It more than likely does not really help that I pretty much have to do 5 classes and a weeks worth of work (homework and test) by tomorrow, well I guess I COULD do some Thursday. I am liking it so far for the most part. I am pretty excited with what I have read in my Forensic Science book so far =)
Friday I pick up my friend from the airport and its straight to her house, pick up her things, stop by walmart and the off to Florida for DisneyWorld!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My OrganizedAss went and made a list of everything I want to do while we are there for the next 4 days. #loser
Friendly Reminder that DragonCon is in 44 days!!!!!! SO EXCITED
guardian_:
I'm sorry to hear that happened with your ex. It's happened to me a few times like that and it really sucks. ~hugs~ If you ever need to talk just send me a PM.
abjabber:
Definitely use alone time to build strength and don't settle until its right. Enjoy Disneyworld! Im jealous. Since you only have 4 days it makes sense to plan it out. Wouldn't want to miss the good stuff, take care. 
