acheron

it's this late and i can't sleep and i need to be up in 6 hours. fucketyfuck fuck.

and the universe is bad! the end! diiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiie.

every day this week so far
i've ended up crying.

i hate boys, i hate narrow-minded professors, i hate classes. unfortunately i love learning.

[insert the sound of my head hitting the wall repeatedly here]

whyyyy can't i sleep? whyyy? i'm bored and awake and out of pickles.

ladies and gentlemen, welcome to the chaos that is my life:

i've been trying to schedule moving out of my place because...while i love my roommate much, it's just a long commute given i like walking...and i want a kitchen that doesn't smell like mold and roommates who are home sometime and my aged-roommates.

sooo then, while i'm just fucking around, i find this place...
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AUGH! i wrote a bunch in russian and it got eaten. godfuckingdammit.
i'd recited some gumiliev. too bad for everyone. you get this instead:

tu me tues. ravage-moi. dtruis-moi.

Graver l' corce jusqu' saigner
Clouer les portes, s'emprisonner
Vivre des songes a trop veiller
Prier des ombres et tant marcher
J'ai beau me dire qu'il faut du temps
J'ai beau l'crire si noir sur blanc...
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"mariiijuana iin yr brain/takes more time to eeeejaaacuuulate"


additionally, if you have asked me for a friends listing, please, make an appearance and identify yourself.

i'm having more and more days where it feels like i haven't taken my medication but i know i have. it could be that i'm building an immunity; although i should've done that long long ago. the anger level's coming back up now. and the manicness. that sensation of being on fire, that sensation of having the capacity to take over the whole world. is...
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for those who do not know, i write for a certain online music magazine which shall remain nameless for nowwwww, but i want to kick them in the head. i don't have the time or patience to bother explaining why...but...AUUUGHHHHhhh

again, for anyone who ever wanted to see way too much of my skin, refer to outthere's pics section orrrrr...i'm on his webcam a...
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hey everyone,
if you ever wanted to see way too much of my skin, go peek at outthere's pics section. yay for art projects. note: they look way niftier in real life.

dear everyone
i know i'm slippingspiderwebs breaking windows in your heart of a whisp of an appearance.

the insects bear the bodies out, the coffee bird goes peeppeep. the world spins round and round and so do i.