AUGH! i wrote a bunch in russian and it got eaten. godfuckingdammit.
i'd recited some gumiliev. too bad for everyone. you get this instead:
tu me tues. ravage-moi. dtruis-moi.
Graver l' corce jusqu' saigner
Clouer les portes, s'emprisonner
Vivre des songes a trop veiller
Prier des ombres et tant marcher
J'ai beau me dire qu'il faut du temps
J'ai beau l'crire si noir sur blanc...
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i'd recited some gumiliev. too bad for everyone. you get this instead:
tu me tues. ravage-moi. dtruis-moi.
Graver l' corce jusqu' saigner
Clouer les portes, s'emprisonner
Vivre des songes a trop veiller
Prier des ombres et tant marcher
J'ai beau me dire qu'il faut du temps
J'ai beau l'crire si noir sur blanc...
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spinky:
Fantastic Picture set 
"mariiijuana iin yr brain/takes more time to eeeejaaacuuulate"
additionally, if you have asked me for a friends listing, please, make an appearance and identify yourself.
additionally, if you have asked me for a friends listing, please, make an appearance and identify yourself.
doctashock:
will you be my friend please?
I hear you sound like Courtney Love
I hear you sound like Courtney Love
i'm having more and more days where it feels like i haven't taken my medication but i know i have. it could be that i'm building an immunity; although i should've done that long long ago. the anger level's coming back up now. and the manicness. that sensation of being on fire, that sensation of having the capacity to take over the whole world. is...
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contradiction:
I have been on my cocktail of meds for a year and I have not risen above them...but I stay at a bit of a constant high, too. As a musician, I insist, and my doc is good to me.
Lamictal/Wellbutrin/Topomax...
Lamictal/Wellbutrin/Topomax...
madhatter32481:
Great cam pics with outthere
for those who do not know, i write for a certain online music magazine which shall remain nameless for nowwwww, but i want to kick them in the head. i don't have the time or patience to bother explaining why...but...AUUUGHHHHhhh
again, for anyone who ever wanted to see way too much of my skin, refer to outthere's pics section orrrrr...i'm on his webcam a...
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again, for anyone who ever wanted to see way too much of my skin, refer to outthere's pics section orrrrr...i'm on his webcam a...
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lunna:
Well, whatever they did rawr to them 'cause you rock!
bepps:
Your face is absolutely gorgeous.
hey everyone,
if you ever wanted to see way too much of my skin, go peek at outthere's pics section. yay for art projects. note: they look way niftier in real life.
if you ever wanted to see way too much of my skin, go peek at outthere's pics section. yay for art projects. note: they look way niftier in real life.
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uswer8024082082084:
are you really in Jugoslavija???
I went there when I was a kid
I went there when I was a kid
penelopelee:
slavic looking? i always thought that it was just good bone structure.
dear everyone
i know i'm slippingspiderwebs breaking windows in your heart of a whisp of an appearance.
the insects bear the bodies out, the coffee bird goes peeppeep. the world spins round and round and so do i.
i know i'm slippingspiderwebs breaking windows in your heart of a whisp of an appearance.
the insects bear the bodies out, the coffee bird goes peeppeep. the world spins round and round and so do i.
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howdidigethere:
i know i am lost in vocabularisms
whiskeyfightpit:
Hey, I was just repeating what I was told by my doctor. It's not like I'm trying to turn my spider bite into some drunken fish tale. I've already got enough rep from that time me n' Scaramanga wrestled hungry polar bears for free shots of Ouzo and a roll of quarters for the Tekken 4 machine. It's all been documented.
Kitty story time! because i don't know how you could not enjoy this story.
eric and i have our two kitties, melora and luca. luca is the kitchen kitty. anytime something's going on in the kitchen, she's in there like a shot. we found out how much she loves the kitchen this one night when eric was chopping vegetables and she was standing on her...
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eric and i have our two kitties, melora and luca. luca is the kitchen kitty. anytime something's going on in the kitchen, she's in there like a shot. we found out how much she loves the kitchen this one night when eric was chopping vegetables and she was standing on her...
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the_green_monk:
YOU'RE ALIVE! 
doctashock:
new PJ Harvey
[insert the sound of me screaming for the next 3 minutes straight here]
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burstandbloom:
dancing ninja kitten
?
ive always wanted one of those
?
ive always wanted one of those
reverendash:
doing okay?
*hugs*
-Ash
*hugs*
-Ash
happy birthday to me.
ugh, i just did my fafsa, and because my mom has a job now it's expecting a much bigger money contribution for me. fuuuuuuck.
ugh, i just did my fafsa, and because my mom has a job now it's expecting a much bigger money contribution for me. fuuuuuuck.
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trismegistus:
i tttttotttttally was going to happy you up your birthday, vyerochka. fuckity fuck i fuckin fergot!
ta for the kiddy names. i love vlad and irina!!!
dark nipples. emma goldman. moocows. you do the math.
ta for the kiddy names. i love vlad and irina!!!
dark nipples. emma goldman. moocows. you do the math.
doctashock:
Hey scary girl.... I miss you. You need to call me so I can hear what you sound like when you're not doing a Courtney Love impression.
[STRESS]^3
and may i add, thanks to everyone who comments despite my absolute nonresponsiveness right now. Lurve! to all!
and to those who are applying to me as friends, can you please tell me something about yourselves, please? i'd love to email and ask and write up a nice interview, but for now, i need to write up several other things of greater importance. therefore,...
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and may i add, thanks to everyone who comments despite my absolute nonresponsiveness right now. Lurve! to all!
and to those who are applying to me as friends, can you please tell me something about yourselves, please? i'd love to email and ask and write up a nice interview, but for now, i need to write up several other things of greater importance. therefore,...
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the_green_monk:
I hope you don't explode!
I'm sending anti-stress vibes with my psychic powers to come to your aid.
I'm sending anti-stress vibes with my psychic powers to come to your aid.
doctashock:
well aren't you miss popular?
try not to forget about me OK
try not to forget about me OK
your mother was an ootheca.
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dietotzeit:
Response:
Thanks for the comments. And yes, I know that many psychoanalysts admit the inherent problems with their field. Believe me, I wasn't claiming that I somehow had a hold of truth and "they" didn't. I was just talking for the sake of "hearing" myself talk.
As for your question regarding pain and attachment to the world -- of course the world brings pain! But the point, for me, isn't that we are supposed to maintain a balance. Rather, the world is everything -- there is nothing else. And since it is everything (as far as my ego is concerned) I better come to grips with it. Like Wallace Stevens once said, the world is lost to the poet; the great poems of heaven and hell have been written. But the poems of the earth remain to be written, and that is how the poet will regain the world.
Love the Hamlet lines. You may have noticed from my profile that Hamlet is one of my favorite works. Almost everything in it is quotable: "Oh, if this too, too solid flesh would but melt and turn into a dew . . ." Speaking of which, have you ever read Shel Silverstein's "Hamlet, As Spoken on the Street"?
Take care.
Thanks for the comments. And yes, I know that many psychoanalysts admit the inherent problems with their field. Believe me, I wasn't claiming that I somehow had a hold of truth and "they" didn't. I was just talking for the sake of "hearing" myself talk.
As for your question regarding pain and attachment to the world -- of course the world brings pain! But the point, for me, isn't that we are supposed to maintain a balance. Rather, the world is everything -- there is nothing else. And since it is everything (as far as my ego is concerned) I better come to grips with it. Like Wallace Stevens once said, the world is lost to the poet; the great poems of heaven and hell have been written. But the poems of the earth remain to be written, and that is how the poet will regain the world.
Love the Hamlet lines. You may have noticed from my profile that Hamlet is one of my favorite works. Almost everything in it is quotable: "Oh, if this too, too solid flesh would but melt and turn into a dew . . ." Speaking of which, have you ever read Shel Silverstein's "Hamlet, As Spoken on the Street"?
Take care.
trismegistus:
your mother was a appetizer.
i had a dream about topo maps.