abjabber

I feel so stupid. Am I wasting my time? Is there something more productive out there I'm neglecting? But time is used, not wasted. Getting a glimpse of happiness from every moment is possible and so much easier on a day like today. I'm thankful for great weather and worries that hold a steady distance on that horizon. I began to think I didn't know her anymore and realized I never really did. We were lonely, to a certain extent. I loved the attention and also craved giving it away. It was a wonderful, yet brief moment we shared. If only change didn't feel so impossible and tumultuous, beforehand.