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Saturday Sep 22, 2012

Sep 22, 2012
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I keep fucking myself up, looking at old pictures. I have been reflecting on all the negativity that has created the current state of things in my life and it naturally causes me to second guess my decisions. Here's a bit of history if you feel like clicking.

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

We met in 1999 and lived together for many years, finally getting married in 2007 because her parents would no longer tolerate us being together without being married. I lived at her parents house with her. She decided she wanted to go to Maui and get married and I did not argue with this.

We had fun, sorta, and also fought ferociously and I felt miserable in my life at the time.

She was beautiful, though, and no matter how much she has hurt me, I will love her forever. Also I can't stand her.

We got back home and bad events just piled on. A year later we went to St John's, VI for our first anniversary. My ex drove an ambulance and her partner for seven years came with us to Maui with her boyfriend. They also loved fighting and drama and broke up in the summer of 2008. He was from Oregon and suddenly picked up and left for a few months. She kept calling and pestering him and he came back. On a whim they decided to go with us on our anniversary trip and get married.

Here is my ex-wife taking photos

It was only the four of us on the beach that morning and it was chaotic. Within a month of returning home, on a whim they decided to all move to Oregon.

This is my bird enjoying the eight hour drive. I went along because what the fuck else could I do.
I was constantly the extra in this group.

I had lined up a job and ended up the only one working the entire time we lived together, the four of us. We lasted a year and permanently damaged everything we had built. We were all miserable and started to hate each other. They got divorced, we got divorced and now none of us speak to each other.

I finally feel like I am finding closure with all the bullshit and I am thankful. I discovered how to draw and how to write a song only after coming to Oregon. I will never regret the move north because I don't think I would have ever realized who I truly am, otherwise.


Here are some fun pictures because I really need to stop dwelling on this.

We all love Disney and went to Disneyland and Disneyworld together. Thats it, oh I also like poker


I had the full house, that last ace is just to pile on.
That really is it and I hope everyone has a great Saturday.

VIEW 9 of 9 COMMENTS
darkkitten:
Change is good. I, myself believe things happen for a reason. While looking back at your memories think of the good things that happen, like the losing 30 lbs which is an achievement. Or getting a SG account to show your beautiful pictures and your writing. Your always kind. You deserve to be happy.
Sep 22, 2012
killakourt:
Indeed I am the party animal<3
Sep 22, 2012

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