In 24 hours I'll be in Belgium. I won't be so active here because I want to enjoy my stay there. Please don't make my mailbox explode.
Of course I'm happy but feel less excited than before.
I can't really explain why.
Maybe because I've waited this moment for 4 months now and now it's here and I don't know how to react.
Maybe because I don't know if I will feel at home. I've got the impression to go on holidays in my country. But here I don't really feel at home neither. That's so strange to feel that you don't belong to any place.
Maybe because I don't think I'll have fun with the few friends I'll see. I feel like they have changed. Or may be it's me. I feel like they are strangers. And here I don't have friends neither.
Maybe because it is cold in Belgium and I don't like the cold.
Maybe because I know I'll have to come back here after only two weeks and then stay until July.
Maybe because I kind of like it here, except I'd like my friends and things and school from Belgium to be here with me.
Maybe because it will take 10 hours from here to home.
And lots of others feelings of this kind.
It's not really that I hate it here, but it's not the best place for me. I've never really loved Spain, I would have prefered a northern country or Latin America. I think people are strange because they are too plain. I don't like people here. Fortunately I met some great Spanish people on this website so I can't tell they are all like that but... I think they like to be told they welcome people well, that they are helpful but I'm not sure they do it really because they are kind. Just for their reputation or things like that. They are pretty intolerant and I can't be myself. They made me change. So I stay at home to feel better.
I feel I'm loosing my time. Alone, which is worse.
Once more, there are exceptions and I don't want to hurt anyone here. Don't feel offended, most of Spanish people on this website are great people I appreciate a lot.
Of course, here there's the sun and the beach... But nearly nothing more. And I even don't have the time nor the will to appreciate them.
Espana, no te quiero mas. Pero me quedo.
Of course I'm happy but feel less excited than before.
I can't really explain why.
Maybe because I've waited this moment for 4 months now and now it's here and I don't know how to react.
Maybe because I don't know if I will feel at home. I've got the impression to go on holidays in my country. But here I don't really feel at home neither. That's so strange to feel that you don't belong to any place.
Maybe because I don't think I'll have fun with the few friends I'll see. I feel like they have changed. Or may be it's me. I feel like they are strangers. And here I don't have friends neither.
Maybe because it is cold in Belgium and I don't like the cold.
Maybe because I know I'll have to come back here after only two weeks and then stay until July.
Maybe because I kind of like it here, except I'd like my friends and things and school from Belgium to be here with me.
Maybe because it will take 10 hours from here to home.
And lots of others feelings of this kind.
It's not really that I hate it here, but it's not the best place for me. I've never really loved Spain, I would have prefered a northern country or Latin America. I think people are strange because they are too plain. I don't like people here. Fortunately I met some great Spanish people on this website so I can't tell they are all like that but... I think they like to be told they welcome people well, that they are helpful but I'm not sure they do it really because they are kind. Just for their reputation or things like that. They are pretty intolerant and I can't be myself. They made me change. So I stay at home to feel better.
I feel I'm loosing my time. Alone, which is worse.
Once more, there are exceptions and I don't want to hurt anyone here. Don't feel offended, most of Spanish people on this website are great people I appreciate a lot.
Of course, here there's the sun and the beach... But nearly nothing more. And I even don't have the time nor the will to appreciate them.
Espana, no te quiero mas. Pero me quedo.
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priscila:
hola mueca como estas??
lolapuig:
Merry christmas pretty!!! 