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Thankfully it wasn't a long one but when life gets crazy there is only so much you can do to keep in touch with the outside world. In the last few weeks I've moved, I've fought my way through another Myasthenia Flare, I've had an EEG, had another 3 day loading dose of IVIG and had a rock come up and crack my car windshield...
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Sat back and had a couple beers after an interesting day at work. Actually I'm pretty sure that after working here I will never be able to call any other jobs interesting.

In the last couple weeks I've had the staff of a nursing home claim I was stealing furniture, because clearly I hid a couch under my jacket on my way out. I listened...
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Two years ago I spent a week in the hospital getting diagnosed with Myasthenia Gravis. It's been a long two years filled with a lot of struggles and a few more hospital stays but there have been a lot of good times too. This is one of those anniversaries you wish you never have to remember but it's good to be able to look back...
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I wasn't expecting much on my post last night so it was really nice to see a few hearts and comments on it. Made me smile and made me remember how awesome it was here the last time. Most people see this site and think "oh it's just porn" but it really is more than that here. It's smiles and stories and sharing ideas. Now...
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Does anyone really care? I was gone for a long while because sometimes that's just how life works.

I've been dealing with my Myastenia Gravis and its put me in the hospital a couple times. I was supposed to go have surgery in the next couple months but I've been having more issues and if I'm honest with the doctor that's going to postpone that...
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Well next week is the long awaited consult with the surgeon for my Myasthenia Gravis. It only took almost 5 months of doctors and tests to get it but now it's finally here.

This will be the first time I've had surgery of any kind so I'm kind of nervous. Especially since one of the ways the doctor could do this is to crack my...
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I haven't had much time to be online lately because of all of the things going on here. I got hired for a new job with a lot better hours and making a good chunk more money. This week I'm going to be moving across town into a much bigger and nicer place. I'm still seeing at least 2 doctors a week for my myasthenia...
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I'm not quite sure why I'm writing this blog. Maybe it's the need to get these feelings off my chest, maybe I'm subconsciously looking for someone to tell me everything is going to be ok, maybe this is my way of admitting to and dealing with a small case of depression. Whatever it is has me up late thinking.

Over the last year some as...
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Laying back tonight getting ready to go to sleep and another of my old writings keeps running through my mind so I guess I'll share it and hopefully putting it here will take it off my mind for the moment.

Tears of blood run down my face,

Death encircles with a warm embrace,

Wings of darkness gather round,

A sense of longing so profound,

These...
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Tonight it's a lyric by Yellowcard from there song Back Home

Don't know what I was looking for when I went home, I found me alone
And sometimes I need someone to say, "You'll be all right. What's on your mind?"
But the water's shallow here and I am full of fear, and empty handed after two long years

A friend of mine made a...
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