ok...going into second month without a job....i freelance, and i know that all i need is something to start up and im fine...but fuck, this has been the longest stretch in over a year.
so, i got proactive...unlike my reluctant lazy self, i actually made a resume...which for me is just about the gayest thing for anyone to have in production...
anyway, i took it on the chin, humbled myself and did it. i was impressed.
in the meantime, the creative is good, writing with a new handsom fellow, with a taste for crack cocaine, and a bass 6. just plagurizing spiritualized, and its sounding great.
im going to the gym now.
i miss narcotics.
im over recovery.(but im too old for the other option, and im not becoming a scientologist).
reading books on o.c.d....more dysfuntional analysis.
i may have a new favotite band...citizen bird, more smart swedes, but i heard them on live on kcrw and it was beautiful kaos.

....i saw a video on 120 min that really bummed me out, somebody totally ripped off phantom of the paradise, with the de palma split screen action, and the quasy seventies sets, and even with the juicy fruits....not only was it a bad song, the video sucked.. the director did'nt even put his name on it.
i wanted to rip that off.....