you know, sometimes i wake up from my positive thinking dreams.
then i want to kill myself.
when i actually look at my life...
what the fuck am i doing?
nothing. everything i 'have' is on loan or from someone else.
i am just a lazy opinionated brat and i really don't serve any purpose execpt to drain the ones who try to carry me...
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then i want to kill myself.
when i actually look at my life...
what the fuck am i doing?
nothing. everything i 'have' is on loan or from someone else.
i am just a lazy opinionated brat and i really don't serve any purpose execpt to drain the ones who try to carry me...
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Last night I got fucked.
It was alright.
I now appreciate Shawn a million times more.
He may have got off to a lame start, but two plus years of 'training' have really paid off.
Shawn is finally in control of that male urge 'see the pussy, fuck the pussy'...Now he uses his arousal to fuel his imagination.
Sex is just sex. Just a small...
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It was alright.
I now appreciate Shawn a million times more.
He may have got off to a lame start, but two plus years of 'training' have really paid off.
Shawn is finally in control of that male urge 'see the pussy, fuck the pussy'...Now he uses his arousal to fuel his imagination.
Sex is just sex. Just a small...
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What makes YOU the feel the happiest out of anything in the whole world?
For me, the NUMBER ONE instant bringer of the tingly smiley burst of energy kind of sheer ecstacy is..........
MUSIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wow, WOW WOW!!!!!!!!!
When I hear the right song, I fly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As long as I have music to listen and dance to, and some weed to smoke, my life is perfect...
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_catalyst_:
My new favorite dj is the Cynic Project. This is the most moving piano trance I've ever heard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Especially his 'matrix' mix!
liquidtexture:
musica absolutamente.
glad you found it too!
pretty much why I started playing records - I wanted to be able to hear it all the time!
glad you found it too!
pretty much why I started playing records - I wanted to be able to hear it all the time!
New pics up from my recent wilderness rave!
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sikgirl18:
Have you heard about Reggae on the river??? That would be fucking perfect... except the tickets are 150$.... but i know that i will have an ample amount of shit to get fucked up with...
god i love humboldt county....
but i know that i will have an ample amount of shit to get fucked up with...
god i love humboldt county....
ero23:
that looks like a fun party--we do alot of Drum&Bass DMT freakouts in the deserts of Utah---planetary activation---keep pimpin-namaste 
_catalyst_:
Wilderness party
I'm beginning to love life more and more. It is such a gift. It is a gift I am giving myself all the time.
I see it more and more this way:
In the ultimate reality, all is One. But One cannot experience Itself unless there is something other than It. So It divides into many 'points of focus' to be able to 'look back'...
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I see it more and more this way:
In the ultimate reality, all is One. But One cannot experience Itself unless there is something other than It. So It divides into many 'points of focus' to be able to 'look back'...
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nattytattat:
It looks like I'm out for Saturday.....I'm still sick. It just keeps getting worse. Damn the desert....and stress 
I really don't want to go to work right now.
I really don't want to go to work right now.
luckybestwash:
Glad you're feeling better. And unfortunately I don't own the Ruff Ryders workout video. But having seen it once, its forever burned into my mind.
What up this Tuesday?
I'm up at 8 in the morn, not a usual thing for me! I feel the same as I do when I make myself get up at 9 or 10 or 11. Except that i know it's early and so then I think, hmm I've got time to sleep. Which, technically, I do, It's my last day off, and technically, I...
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I'm up at 8 in the morn, not a usual thing for me! I feel the same as I do when I make myself get up at 9 or 10 or 11. Except that i know it's early and so then I think, hmm I've got time to sleep. Which, technically, I do, It's my last day off, and technically, I...
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scheisskopf:
Yeah, you are up early-- must have got in some heavy sleep last night/yesterday. I woke up at 6:30a.m., went back to bed. Besides that I had an all nighter, which for me these days, means that I slept all night without having to get up and take a leak.
No shit-- that new girl, Suzy, is fuckin smokin! Whew!
No shit-- that new girl, Suzy, is fuckin smokin! Whew!
liquidtexture:
Alright then - 2010 it is. know of any cheap interplanetary airlines?
I'm pretty sure we can save big if we book 5 years in advance.
I'm pretty sure we can save big if we book 5 years in advance.
I cried myself to sleep last night. We're talking hysterical sobs like kids do.
I somehow got myself into this funk and felt really alone and insecure. I kept thinking Shawn didn't care about me anymore and why did I throw away what we had. I just kept thinking the breakup wasn't worth losing my best friend. Then I started on how I don't have...
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I somehow got myself into this funk and felt really alone and insecure. I kept thinking Shawn didn't care about me anymore and why did I throw away what we had. I just kept thinking the breakup wasn't worth losing my best friend. Then I started on how I don't have...
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odette:
yeah so i guess im not trying to impress anyone with my hotness when im at school. although James did suggest i alter the jacket to make it smaller. not a bad idea.
~i like the lizard tongue thingy too ~
~i like the lizard tongue thingy too
~
mrginger:
your profile pic reminds me of northern california. yoga goood.
So. Say you have a best friend. You've wanted her nuts as long as you've known her. A couple years ago you started foolin around. It was awesome. Then your boyfriend at the time got jealous so you had to quit cold turkey. Since then nothing. You've been fantasizing about picking up where you left off for how many months now? But she's too shy...
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rojo:
hey pretty girl. it was so rad to hang with you guys too. and i'd love to do it again - perhaps i won't be quite so inebriated, and i'll be capable of having an actual conversation.
i didn't realize until i saw your post that i've seen you online before. i hadn't seen your profile, but i've seen your posts in my alt. medicine group. natty and i are both very into the holistic lifestyle. (in addition to the party lifestyle).
regarding your crush quandary, i say go for it. or get drunk and then go for it. that is, of course, unless she's the married best friend. then it gets a bit more complicated, doesn't it? if he approves, it's all good. but if not, jeapordizing a marriage and 2 friendships definitely isn't worth it. not that i need to tell you that. good luck.
i didn't realize until i saw your post that i've seen you online before. i hadn't seen your profile, but i've seen your posts in my alt. medicine group. natty and i are both very into the holistic lifestyle. (in addition to the party lifestyle).
regarding your crush quandary, i say go for it. or get drunk and then go for it. that is, of course, unless she's the married best friend. then it gets a bit more complicated, doesn't it? if he approves, it's all good. but if not, jeapordizing a marriage and 2 friendships definitely isn't worth it. not that i need to tell you that. good luck.
likwid_todd:
slip her some ghb and stick it to her.
i totally support you in your fantasy. i think it's a good one.
i totally support you in your fantasy. i think it's a good one.
Soo....the abortion went fine, I think. The cramps were manageable with Vicodin/Tramadol/Beer. The bleeding wasn't even that bad--like a normal period but I have to wear pads---EEEEEEWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel fine this morning, so I hope it's over.
I went to bed at like eleven (passed out would be more like it). The boys went to a party and didn't come home. I'm so freakin curious...
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I went to bed at like eleven (passed out would be more like it). The boys went to a party and didn't come home. I'm so freakin curious...
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_catalyst_:
yay so i'm drunk, it's four am. and i had an awesome time with my plp even though the parties we went to sucked. it was awesome seeing her!
liquidtexture:
awesome - im glad im not alone having fun post 4am.
dont settle.
dont settle.
This weekend will be interesting. I hope it will be full of fun! I'm hoping for no pain and for some Vicodin just in case! Cheers.
liquidtexture:
It will be amazing - they always are.
going with the best of intentions and simply being in the now - im sure you'll have a great time.
I might just have to go out to the desert this weekend just to take some photographs.
going with the best of intentions and simply being in the now - im sure you'll have a great time.
I might just have to go out to the desert this weekend just to take some photographs.
Today is a mixed emotions day. I need to figure out my mixed emotions so I can make them all happy.
I'm stoked on my decision to get a new job. Every day at Whole Foods makes me realise more how lame the management is.
I'm not sure how many call ins and lates I have left before I'm on my last written. I wish...
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I'm stoked on my decision to get a new job. Every day at Whole Foods makes me realise more how lame the management is.
I'm not sure how many call ins and lates I have left before I'm on my last written. I wish... Read More
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nattytattat:
How do you "choose" to communicate with them?
nattytattat:
blocks of thought huh? That's awesome....some would say you are tapping into the collective unconscious...all the knowledge of the past, present and future that has always been there. Doesn't it feel great to be able to access that? Sometimes it's overwhelming though......
Thanks for the compliment....I'm not usually very photogenic. I really hope you can come to the party so I can meet you! I'll send you some more details, but the announcement is also on the SGSD group....
Thanks for the compliment....I'm not usually very photogenic. I really hope you can come to the party so I can meet you! I'll send you some more details, but the announcement is also on the SGSD group....
visualize greatness
I wish I could sit around all day and chill, too ...
work ... is work ...
except for the lucky occasions when I can have fun making money.
peace.