Blood is dripping
the heart is not beating
No one is weaping
No loved ones for this one
the heart is not beating
No one is weaping
No loved ones for this one
I have no reason to wake up anymore. I have no reason to take the next breath, the next step, to go to work or pretty much anything really. I discoverd over my days off that i have nothing in life. Mylife is pathetic and i have nothing but work. I woke up and did nothing. if more than one of my so called friends...
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lunna:
I have no clue what to say sweetheart. If you ever need to talk you can drop me an email. 
yuriel:
not that lonely heeh but close 
wish i knew what to say man, if you ever need anyone man :\
*hugs*
wish i knew what to say man, if you ever need anyone man :\
*hugs*
I decided to become a AST Mang just for the experience. I did nothing today and tomorrow is my day off and i am going to kill someone if i do nohting again.
yuriel:
hehe hell yeah man. hmm do nothing? no nothing is good makes time for hot chicks, videogames and similar fair with lots of alky!
WERD MOTHERFUCKER
hehe
WERD MOTHERFUCKER
hehe
i got offered to be ast manger for my store. blah no thanks don't want that to be my life. the girl says she just wants to be friends and that she doesn't like guy right now. Blah oh well you can chose ur friends, u can chose who you hang out with but you can't chose who you fall for and that sucks. And...
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yuriel:
heh heh i woudlnt mind being an asst manager and no you cant choose who you fall for it so sucks 
*hugs*
heh do become an assistant manager tho more money, promo opportunities and it looks good on the resume AND looks good for the graduate schools haha... or in any casey ou could get me a laid back job LOL j/k
do tell how i get out of all that kinda debt and afford dialup, long distance a place to live food, and the occasional trip wherever/drink when id like to have them heh....
all on a.) a lil over 6 grand a year or b.) how i make someone hire me when nobodys hiring heh.
werd man.
*hugs*
heh do become an assistant manager tho
more money, promo opportunities and it looks good on the resume AND looks good for the graduate schools haha... or in any casey ou could get me a laid back job LOL j/k
do tell how i get out of all that kinda debt and afford dialup, long distance a place to live food, and the occasional trip wherever/drink when id like to have them heh....
all on a.) a lil over 6 grand a year or b.) how i make someone hire me when nobodys hiring heh.
werd man.
twistedblack:
covient stores are allways hiring like the gast stations and they also will over work you with hours so ur paycheck can be big and i was making a grand a month as a clerk by working 6 days a week for 6.00 a hour yea you should try that it works good on getting you money.
well i told the girl i liked her and bam she hits me with the i just like you as a friend bit and don't be angry and all that other stuff. FUCK ALL OF THIS. i knew i shouldn't have said anything fuck the heart. WHERE IS THE KNIFE time for surgery.
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n8tvegrl:
Well when you're my age you'll be bitter and jaded about that love shit and then those things types of things won't even matter!
HA!
I'm only kidding... that SUCKS each and everytime it happens. But that's why we have friends... so they can take us out... get us drunk... and tell us how stupid that girl was anyway!
HA!
I'm only kidding... that SUCKS each and everytime it happens. But that's why we have friends... so they can take us out... get us drunk... and tell us how stupid that girl was anyway!
yuriel:
i *hate that* *sighs*
no no be glad you told her regret is otherwise. ask her why though if its because of your looks, because shes just not into relationships/had a hard time or whatnot, or because she just had a bad rebound bit or shit man... *shrugs* it could actually be that shes not ready for it yet dunno :\
know that feeling all too well though and i do loathe those words.
im just as bad as n8tve... worse actually... though it stil matters to me i just find it a realistic impossibility and like yeah... *rants and shutsup quickly after* ...
no no be glad you told her regret is otherwise. ask her why though if its because of your looks, because shes just not into relationships/had a hard time or whatnot, or because she just had a bad rebound bit or shit man... *shrugs* it could actually be that shes not ready for it yet dunno :\
know that feeling all too well though and i do loathe those words.
im just as bad as n8tve... worse actually... though it stil matters to me i just find it a realistic impossibility and like yeah... *rants and shutsup quickly after* ...
smash. glas falling, ooo sparks. i broke a florecent light on acident and no one noticed. lucky me stupid air pump and it's long hose that likes to swing in the air and intice me to swing it some more.
yuriel:
ACK! dude that sucks.... are you ok? heh... although breaking things sounds like fun right now... very needed fun ....
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i saw a dream where everyone died by rocks and lightning hitting them. they where all people i knew and in the end i saw myself being pulled into the air and being slamed into a wall and something told me it was all happenig cuz i was lazy and never did what i was suposed to. I woke up after i died and had...
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Owe my stomach hurts and ihave to go to school. Damn you root beer i drank you and now my inards feel like they are going to blow up.........BURP.....all better. Well i am talking to the girl i like and trying to convence her to come over but she isn't sure her mom will let her. DAMN THAT WOMEN LET UR DAUGHTER COME TO ME...
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today i went to work called the girl and she didn't answer. I left a message and she didn't call. I read 4 mangas and was happy. I then read her journal and i am confused. This girl almost woke and defrosted my heart. i was quick to kill it and freeze it. I see a chance at happiness but it reminds me of the...
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yuriel:
heh take the chance. oh i dont have my place im at my grandmothers till i get thrown onto the streets... hmm oh yeah... at least you get a chance.. yeah work sucks.. unemployment sucks pretty worselike... *yawn* its way too fucking early dontcha agree?
hmm
its a very *specific* punk rock song actually --- Bad Religion - Kyoto Now
rawk.
hmm
its a very *specific* punk rock song actually --- Bad Religion - Kyoto Now
rawk.
lunna:
Thank You for being a great friend! 
I am confused. Girls are confusing.grrr. i like this girl but i do not know how she feels. at first i thought she was showing she liked me too but, then she jumped on some guy and began to ignore me. I don't know what i am saying or thinking. ahhh now it's my turn . *points gun at skull* BANG!
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yuriel:
Chicks really are confusing Yeah know how that goes man....
No no no guns to your head.... or at least you kill me first
mad huggage to you and such.
Yeah know how that goes man....
No no no guns to your head.... or at least you kill me first
mad huggage to you and such.
mamabunny:
eek...that sucks....
you'll find someone thats right for you.
you'll find someone thats right for you.
I was standing there rembering when i could feel life around me and how now i see darkness. I stood there at work rembering when i used to be able to feel energy in my body. A sudden image of the past and edited to fit the present and future. The energy once forgoten returned but it was diffent. The energy was dark and beautiful....
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lunna:
Thanks hon! 
twistedblack:
for what?
i've decided to treat myself to some manga. Yay manga ooo relaxing manga. Work work work after that. I want a new job or some sex. yea sex or maybe a new relationship cuz single is fun i just think it would be cool to have someone for a while right now.
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lunna:
Yes, I said that last night. All I need is a good fucking..hmm still waiting on that one. Take care hon!
yuriel:
HAHA. Ahh manga. werd. Tell ppl not to have sex with you... no tell them TO HAVE WITH ME! big difference Yes i want some fucking sex.... Im LONG FUCKING OVERDUE. Werd.
Yes i want some fucking sex.... Im LONG FUCKING OVERDUE. Werd.