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Well, Melanie, Coliwali and I went to a BBQ/party last night.

And you know? I actually had fun. Me. At a party.

Of course, I got pretty damn drunk, but I still had fun.

Geoff is sick. I've now taken 2 of the last 3 days off.

I guess I'm gonna go catch up with squishylizards tomorrow and Melanie and her friends on Friday, but I'm not sure how I'm going to feel for any of that.

Plus, I'm only getting a 2-day weekend, since I'll be working Labor Day.

I hope I feel better tomorrow. It's been quite...
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Shit. I had a nice, long journal entry all written out, and IE ate it.

Morganna brought my arcade machine up from SV on Saturday, which is awesome. I love the machine, and I've got hundreds of games on it already. The marquee art I ordered for it looks very good, especially with the flourescent light behind it. Plus, getting to see Morganna again is...
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Well, my folks loaned me some cash, and one of my outstanding loans looks like it's going to get paid off in part, so I'm not as broke as I feared.

You know, the thing I hate most about being desperate is that it causes me to treat my friends a little worse than I want to.

But, today's a shinier day in the Life...
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Went to class. Looks like the political philosophy class is being taught by the world most boring instructor. The calc instructor looks like an excitable geek, though, so at least that shouldn't be too bad.

I'm like totally broke as I write this. I've got somewhere around $150 to my name. And I'm staring at a $300+ power bill. And rent's due next week. Crap....
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First off, thanks Melanie.

Secondly, I'm feeling somewhat better. I'm going to sign up for class tonight, having procured permission to get out of work early, and gotten my parents to loan me the money I need.

So, a little bit less depressed.

I'm *REALLY* fucking depressed. I need a girlfriend in the worst way. I'm *THIS* close to the edge here.

Rollerderby was fun.

Not hearing from Beth was not.

Morganna might come up NEXT weekend.

Coliwali took me to go buy food.

I'm still pretty damn depressed.

I'm tired of sleeping in an empty bed, night after night after night.

I'm tired of the subtle lack of respect from everyone.

I'm tired of not knowing what it's like.

I'm tired of seeing everyone else all happy and giggly.

I'm tired of having the girl I'm crushing out on start treating me just a little worse when whatever guy SHE's crushing out on...
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Man, I need to not write when I'm drunk off my ass.

Feeling much better today- it's amazing what 12 hours of sleep and a long hot bubble bath will do for a guy.

Of course, my basic situation hasn't changed any. But I'm back to not being quite as worried about it.

So now I wait around for:
Tanya to possibly call.
Morganna said...
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So now I'm sitting around waiting on any number of girls to call me back. I called Tanya, left a message on her machine. Tried calling Beth, got her voice mail again. Called Morganna, she's gonna call me back this weekend. Called Kristen, she must be out somewhere or asleep or something. Called Melanie, she's busy, but will call me tomorrow.

Damnit. Most of my...
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*checks answering machine*

Flashing 0.

Shit.