I wonder if my hating my job will make my subcionscious do something that will get me fired. Never really been fired before, and god knows I've actually tried at one place, I got about fifty 'final warnings'. Hopefully my subconscious has the good sense to wait until I have another job before trying anthing funny (I guarantee whatever i'd do to get fired would... Read More
I have officially just overstepped the Cute boundary, and plunged headlong into Totally Gay, because I'm sharing poetry with you.
But! yes. I read this last night in this awesome book I bought for a dollar, that's a big collection of English poems, and this particular edition is from 1950, so it's old and smells like it and I love it.
This is the last stanza from a poem called "Marvel No More," by Sir Thomas Wyatt (1503-1542):
But yet perchance some chance
May chance to change my tune,
And when such chance doth chance,
Then shall I thank fortune.
And if I have chance,
Perchance ere it be long
For such a pleasant chance
To sing some pleasant song.
Is it common for people to recognize a shift in their belief system? I'm not talking religion wise exclusively, but just the general outlook on life. I've been grossly aware of the change I've been undergoing, where major tenets are being stricken from the tablets and have been replaced with something better. The core thing that has changed is from looking at things as a... Read More
My Mike addiction is raging. Like whoa. If I wasn't so impressed thus far, and if I were a shithead like every other person on the planet, I'd busy myself with looking for things wrong with you so that I could use them as an excuse to stop liking you. And junk. Yeah. It's after 5am and I'm tiiiirrrrrreeedd!
I'm aware I've been a shitty friend to anyone reading this who updates their journal regular and is like "hey, why isn't that Canadian ponce posting in my journal!?!" I'll try and be better this week, deal?
I had a dream last night that I was imprisoned. I didn't know what I had done wrong, and for how long I was going to be held for. I realized I was dreaming and decided to dream something else, but when I thought about it this morning, I couldn't help but think of all the people who it's not just a nightmare they can... Read More
05:00 P.M:Wonder about the nature of love, of solitude, and myself. Contemplate on the waxing and waning of these feelings in my life and wonder if it is a doomed cycle
06:00 P.M: Stare across the skyline and marvel at the constructs of man. At these testaments to us, and how millions of years after we are gone, these concrete and steel towers of babel... Read More
I love your introspection. You really make me THINK.
Keep balancing the melancholy with optimism, that's what life's about...
Thanks for the beautiful words...
--l*P
The past few days have had me listening to music that's really effecting on me.
I've been surrounded by points of view that I cannot agree with.
My boss at the comic place, he came in and was talking with a former employee before close, and i was closing up and couldn't help but overhear some of the things he was saying. Like how he... Read More
Even though I'm going to be living like someone whos's sworn a vow of poverty (I typo'd Perverty on the first effort) I think that tonight was a fairly decent night. I did another one of the pretend to be sick for doctors ( I had a couple scnearios, one where I was supposed to be a car accident victim who was a pain in... Read More
I lost my hope today, can you help me find it?
It feels like my sould caught some sort of wasting disease and is falling apart in my hands. Things feel pretty desolate. I've had a lot of time alone, and with it have come a lot of questions for myself.
My work has me questioning how good will my life be if I keep... Read More
I can't offer you advice or words of wisdom, but I know how much it sucks to be in that situation, or at least one similar. If you need to vent (more) or whatnot, you know how to find me.
I'm really bad at beating addictions (i.e. very difficult for me), but I've managed to keep a few under control. I've managed to quit smoking twice before, successfully for years each time, but I'm back to smoking again. Same w/ other addictions, like going out, shopping, eating decadent foods, etc. Thankfully I've never had an alcohol or drug addiction. Although I HAVE had a dysfunctional addiction to a certain person...
In all cases, my best strategy was to manipulate each situation such that I had NO exposure, absolutely zero, to the addictive factor, no exceptions. Also having strong people around me to help keep me on track has helped. Eventually, I could be exposed to the addictive factor and resist.
Some addictions are harder to beat than others...
Good luck Sweetie!
--l*P
i am the last person that can answer that! luckily i don't smoke...but when it comes to dieting....i can't not eat things. Food is one of the greatest things in the world.....and I can never keep a diet up for very long.
People have told me lots of things.
People have told me that your average person probably underestimates me. I agree with this statement. Most people who first meet me (with the exception of when Im met in certain circumstances) assume Im a pretty quiet and reserved person. They wouldn't think that I've broken someones ribs. They wouldn't assume I've gotten scarred as a result of... Read More
Yep, in the game of life, I have just become a level 22 Jack of All Computer Trade. I can now summon bugs in even the most hardened applications. Alas, users will still forget their passwords, again, even if it really is the name of their dog.
And Matthew Good says it nicely.