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I made it through half a day at work. No tears, just very cranky and unable to concentrate.

I forgot how it feels when you heart really breaks, not just when it is a break up a long time coming.

I still have a bit of hope, though every hour that goes by it gets more and more stressed. I try not to have hope,...
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gangstaswan:
I wish I had words of wisdom for you but it's been seven months since my break up and I still can't shake it. Just be strong and tell yourself you'll get through this, I guess (honestly nothing I tell myself is working).

*hugs*
ms_strange:


I just have to hope he misses me as much I miss him.



word. frown

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Thank you for all your love this way, it does help. I am sorry that I am not a better friend at the moment.

I was thinking of taking tomorrow off. I am just so sad, and didn't want to cry at work, but then I worry that if home I will get more upset. Thoughts?

I almost feel crazy, as the tears just feel...
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bigpoppa99:
/hugs and more hugs

Take time off for yourself. If you think your gonna lose it at work stay home call in sick. Pamper yourself.
jrsrock:
Going to work may be a good thing, keep you distracted a little. Plus it forces you to go out and get air, try to take advantage of what few nice days we have left before everything gets gloomy.

Stay strong, I promise it gets better!
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It sucks when you are sad, and the only thing that can make things better is time to heal the heart. Because there is nothing else you can do to ease it, and at the time it doesn't seem like you are ever going to feel better.

And for some reason when you are in this state it seems that everything reminds you of where...
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nina_kova:
hugs...i wish there was more i could say....
tos:


Jay_Blank said:
Man, I'm sorry to hear this. Time will help heal though.

Treat yourself to something...take good care of yourself. You deserve it.



+1 on what he said: I couldn't of put it any better frown

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There is clearly something very, very wrong with me.

Three years ago my actual homosexual boyfriend ( I didn't know at the time) told me I would make the worst wife.

and now I hear that I am not competent to have pets let alone children.

I am so done.
I think I shall give up on this thing called love. Again I don't think...
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sharona1881:
*HUGS* miss you and love you - we need to hang out soon... you are the sweetest lady - dont believe a person who would tell you something so mean.. call me so we can get dinner, mmk?
damionw:
Ignore that toolbox, he's obviously not competent enough to have you.

Why worry about love? Have fun instead. the love will come.

at least thats what i'm telling myself. smile I'm single again after 6 years so it's kind of an awkward phase at the moment (SleepingDeath went across country to law school so we decided to split).

good luck, It's not bad being single. It is just potentially nicer to not be.

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I will post pics and videos of the race tomorrow.

Continuation of yesterday.......

Love.
Why is it so hard?

I hate to say it, but I know I am right - if you don't love someone after a year, when will you love them?
Do you agree? That love would occur after a year.

Edited to add:

I am pretty sure I am single now....
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musical_poet:
I don't know why love is so hard. I'm trying to find that out myself and yes love should occur after a year
9005900:
I had a friend who was a habitual liar and she had no friends at work. She was a good person, but had to life at all. I photographed her once in my studio and that was a huge mistake. She came up with so many stories about me, but no one ever believed her.

Some people are no good and never will be.
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So I was actually trying to show you guys pics of the awesome limo I was in, my room, and the country bumpkin in the lobby, but fucking SG is having issues. It is so obviously a woman's creation - with issues smile Yes that was a joke, even though I am annoyed by the fact I couldn't fucking load my original post.

But it is...
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luthie:
eeek

It's a good thing having your standards high, that way there's no mistaking when someone is shooting for the middle. I'm sorry honey frown But in the same stroke, you don't deserve to be treated like shit.

You're a strong lady. kiss
jay_blank:
Communication is key to any relationship. Hang in there; ups and downs are normal, but only you can decide when it's enough.
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So I need to be entertained....I am bored, and this weekend will be boring.

So let me know one of the weirdest things about you.

I think most of you know mine - my sheet/foot fetish. I love the feel of bedsheets on my feet. I love to lie in bed just I can rub my feet against the sheets.
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tos:

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

I was visiting SUNY Oneonta nearly 15 years ago on the 1st w/d of December. I remember my bud's roommate ordered in some pizza w/ mushrooms and sausage. I had a slice, but man it tasted weird as hell. They kept telling me that I'll regret it if I don't eat the whole slice, so stupid me does. Next thing I know they pull out a bong and we're doing bong hits for a half-hour. After that, I got sick and threw up the pizza in the bathroom. After rinsing my mouth w/ Scope, I head back, but realise that the whole hallway was moving on me. It was as if I couldn't keep my balance, yet I was able to work perfectly straight. Obviously it's because I was shrooming. Only thing is: I didn't know until I managed to get back to my bud's dorm room when they told me. I have done acid and microdots in my distant past, but never mushrooms. Needless to say, I realised that I talk way too much when I'm on something and that having the ole "in-out" when I'm coming down is about as perfect as you can get of a feeling as anything in the world.

I know, it's like I'm advocating taking a hallucinative or something, huh? Quite the contrary, those first few moments after I was told what was happening was the scariest I've ever been in my life, but I remembered that if I didn't start going w/ it ASAP that I was going to have a horrible trip. I managed to turn it around: The night was amazing after that (including the ole "in-out" part near the end of the night biggrin )


I dunno if it was werid, but it's a true story...

*huggerz*

I hope you found something cool to do down in the deep south...

- Oh yeah, I worked almost 19 hours today...ack! frown

luthie:
Weirdest thing about me would have to be that if I'm hanging laundry up with clothes pegs, the pegs have to be the same colour. Or when I'm at the supermarket, each item must go in order on the belt.

I dunno... that's pretty weird to me tongue

How are you beautiful lady? smile Miss ya much! kiss
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Well I am off - blech.

I will be home soon I hope.

Beyond that I did the dorkiest thing today and returned my samsung for the EnV. I don't know technology, I just wanted to check my emails on something with a camera.
tos:
You got an EnV? Ohh man next time I see you, you'll let me tinker w/ it, right? I know siamkittie has an orange one, but when I see her I always forget to ask to look @ it. *slaps own head*.

smile

I hope you find something in you w/d that'll have you pass the time and, hopefully, find enjoyment in

*crosses fingers for ya*
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I am a pissed off bitch right now, in so many ways. Mainly due to work. But completely and utterly pissed off.

I don't even know if it would make sense to write it out here or not.

I basically got a promotion, but not a raise, no biggie I prove myself and ask for more money or leave.

But then they also tell me...
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bigpoppa99:
oh man and that totaly blows on what your job is doing. totaly about facing on somethig lake that.

khoos:
*hug*
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Fun fall weekend.

Very relaxing. I had Friday night to myself during which I gained control over my house again, it felt so good to wake up to a clean house.

Anti_duff came down on Saturday and we chilled on the couch and played video games before going out to a wonderful seafood dinner in celebration of his new job.

Today we got to go...
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tos:
+1 on the viking pal... smile
vegemite:
100% Viking. You are so not a gold digger!

I love pumpkin and apple picking - they're nothing like going home and baking fresh applie pie and toasting pupmkin seeds for a snack... Sometimes I miss living in apple pIcking country...