hemightbegiant

I think we all have moments when we feel this way. No matter which way you turn, the road looks like it leads to gloom and despair. Somehow, we manage to come out of it and we keep moving on. Do what you can and try not to let it get to you.

You'll be fine. It may take time, but you'll get through.

Bet you felt better after writing this, too. Amazing how just expressing our thoughts can help release some fears.

Good luck!!! If you get it, we'll kill the fatted calf.

Good luck!

I've met people like that, they amaze me too. The quality that I can see in them and not myself is discipline and will power. Even though I have recognized my weaknesses, I still haven't improved my life, much anyways. Wishes don't fix things, but goddamn I wish I had a different upbringing through school. That I had been taught that I must care for my own life and growth, and to have a bigger and broader perspective outside of my small world where I consume. Wish I had been taught that I will have to fight and work hard for the things in life that I want and deserve, instead of having had every thing and pathway already placed before me and given so easily. So few people fight for anything anymore. We opt for pascifism and the easier more convenient comfort that is offered to us.

It is hard to 'do nothing' and get paid for it. In retrospect it sounds better, but I understand why you didn't like it too. I had a job like that and it drove me nuts. I had a friend long ago who was a courier, paid by the hour, and he lost his job for too many tickets -speeding-. When I asked why, since his incentive was to go as slow as possible, he said 'it was boring'. So, all situations can suck, espescially mindless ones.

awww, yay!

Good luck. Wouldn't it be great so get to sleep in!

Convictions don't pay the bills... wish they did! We all do what we have to in order to get by. Some lucky people actually enjoy their jobs. I raise a glass to them and hope some day I can say the same. Til then, we do what we must.